It is on regretful nights such as these
that not even the moon will show me her face
Feb 5, 2023
Feb 5, 2023 at 11:00 PM UTC
I feel that with and without love, we tend to go insane
Whether we find that love and lose it, or if we never find it at all
nothing but insanity would describe the feeling
Jan 15, 2023
Jan 15, 2023 at 11:38 PM UTC
You broke my heart into a thousand pieces,
and all I could think about was how I could make you feel better
Jan 8, 2023
Jan 8, 2023 at 2:31 AM UTC
At what point does this all become a willful dive to the bottom.
I can’t be blameless forever,
right?
RIGHT?
Dec 23, 2022
Dec 23, 2022 at 1:07 AM UTC
There is so little of me left,
and yet so many holes to fill.
Will I ever be whole?
Dec 18, 2022
Dec 18, 2022 at 12:02 AM UTC
At what point in my life did I decide that after being born into pain, it is the life I must choose forever?
Dec 4, 2022
Dec 4, 2022 at 9:53 PM UTC
My fingers are stiff and my legs ache
I have a hunched spine, molded into a defeatist stance
My legs threaten to buckle beneath me
and my knees crack more than ever
My head is pounding as my brain begs me to waive the white flag to finally be done
No more, they wail. Screaming to be put out of their misery
At the center of it all, the one who has been hurt the most
My heart
How can I give up now when it is still so restless?
Nov 3, 2022
Nov 3, 2022 at 11:51 PM UTC
I often wonder where and who I would be
if I finally chose to abandon my usual methods of coping
would I be doing better?
would I be here at all?
Oct 12, 2022
Oct 12, 2022 at 6:48 PM UTC
Isn’t it kind of funny how poetry comes easiest to us the closer we are to death. When everything else is a struggle, the words just seem to flow.
Sep 8, 2022
Sep 8, 2022 at 11:58 AM UTC
Every time someone asks me, “how is your mother?”
I am paralyzed for just a moment
I hesitate, satiate them with a “she’s just fine”
But the reality is I haven’t got a clue
My mother, my best friend, one of the loves of my life
I guess maybe she doesn’t see me the same way
She doesn’t bat an eye when she’s got methadone,
Hennessy,
watered down beer,
xanax,
a man who she thinks will make her happy.. any impulse
She only bats and eye to release the tears as we beg for a “why?”
Sep 5, 2022
Sep 5, 2022 at 12:55 AM UTC