i can't see a way out of the dark
all i need is a flicker
a glimmer
a spark
we're waiting to bloom
waiting to make plans
if everyone feels this way too
why does it seem like they don't understand?
all they do is relate and compare
and maybe they aren't completely aware
but it hurts just the same
cause i still feel the pain of it
i feel so alone
not even fully grown
but ready to make
a new house a home
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 9:53 AM UTC
i've barely even grown up
hardly old enough to drink
still this liquor smells bitter
as i pour it down the sink
i've lost everything now
only been sober a week
i think of my words now
before i decide to speak
these bruises have healed
with the cut on my cheek
not sure where they came from
i still can't seem to think
my eyes keep dripping
like a sink with a leak
i can't hold back these tears
no matter how much i blink
all i want is to turn to
that smooth amber drink
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 9:50 AM UTC
you’re sleeping
and i’ve been keeping
these secrets for as long as i can
i keep looking
keep searching
for a safe place where i can land
these days it seems like nobody can understand
and i’ll stop believing when i start feeling it;
sympathy
firsthand
normally i’d be safe
and feel like my place
is wherever i’m holding your hand
but it’s clear you want space
so i muffled my thoughts
by burying my head in the sand
Mar 31, 2020
Mar 31, 2020 at 2:57 AM UTC
3:30 alone in my bed
thinking over what i said
my thoughts on repeat
like a song i can’t skip
wondering if i’m gonna slip
up in the air
but somehow still on the ground
it doesn’t feel fair
seems like i’m bound
to **** it all up
no matter what i do
so why does it matter
what path i choose?
if i always come back to
“what the hell did i do?”
why does it matter
what path i choose?
all i seem to do
is lose
i always end up back here
all ******
and bruised
this seeems to be
the only path i choose
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 3:47 AM UTC
i don’t know what’s worse — too many thoughts thrashing around like a hurricane in my brain, or the still, eerie silence that comes after the rain
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 4:13 AM UTC
this feels bittersweet
you in my arms
half asleep
on top of your soft blue sheets
your breathing deep
i’ll be leaving
after a short sleep
but i know these memories
i will always keep
Dec 20, 2019
Dec 20, 2019 at 7:59 PM UTC
whenever i picture us together
i see us laying side-by side
holding hands
talking about dreams
and fears
talking about everything
and nothing at all
and i kiss the back of your hand
still in mine
and it’s dark
and i say your name
and we’re tired
and i think i’m falling in love
i tell you so
Dec 20, 2019
Dec 20, 2019 at 7:41 PM UTC
my heart aches
for the friends i never had
the hands i never held
the oceans i never swam
the love i never felt
the food i never tasted
the clothes i never wore
the adventures i never went on
the risks i never took
for the life i never lived
and the person i never became
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 4:34 PM UTC
i have nothing to say
because it doesn’t feel okay
how am i supposed to hold you
when you’re a million miles away?
Nov 26, 2019
Nov 26, 2019 at 6:51 PM UTC