the air is crisp
but the stars so bright
looking up
with you
burying myself
in your
pirate coat
silently whispering
words of love
May 6, 2025
May 6, 2025 at 5:32 AM UTC
My shell is so alive;
my eyes
still wonder
to what’s new.
But my mind
dimming.
Thoughts
silenced.
Inside the shell
myself is dying.
I’m already halfway there,
do I need permission
to cry?
to die?
I’m already grasping for air
even when there’s enough for us
to share.
Feb 17, 2024
Feb 17, 2024 at 10:42 AM UTC
went to bed
with my head
burning
woke up
sunlight
burned out
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 4:29 PM UTC
It's been a while, I'm your age now.
The age you were when you left.
The world is a mess right now.
But for the first time, I'm not.
It would've been your birthday right now.
Everyone is still celebrating your existence.
Just sad you're not here right now.
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 4:17 PM UTC
I have a boy right now
He gives me the love I secretly wanted
even though I thought love didn’t exist
when we ended.
It’s that first love
that hurts so much
that makes you miss being
stupid
but
in love.
The happiness
you brought
a little taste of that
please.
No proper goodbye;
no “see you later”
no “text me when you get home”.
Just let me say goodbye
one last time.
A goodbye to the feeling of home
A goodbye to the feeling of love
A goodbye to the feeling of trust
A goodbye of the feeling of you.
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 9:05 PM UTC
A year ago I planned how I wanted to die.
I made a list what I wanted to do before I die.
I made a list of people I wanted to meet up with before I die.
I thought about who’d cry real and who’d cry fake tears.
I thought about who’d pretend to know me and who’d really know me.
Time have changed.
I don’t want to think about dying anymore, it’s a waste of time that I could put into my ambitions.
A year ago I wanted to die.
It took me a year to realize I want to live before I want to die.
Apr 21, 2019
Apr 21, 2019 at 5:57 PM UTC
After the storm hit,
the rain fell
and the thunder struck;
the city became numb.
unrepairable
unhappy
not worth building up again.
But then,
summer came along.
People forced to go outside
and summer made the best of it.
After summer came along,
the people laughed,
and the children played;
the city started blooming again.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 6:55 AM UTC
and when people ask me
what my type is
i describe
the spark i saw
in your eyes
the happiness
i felt bad in your voice
the butterflies
i got when you were here
it
hurts
so
much
Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 8:27 PM UTC
The moment I realized I fell in love with you.
Our first moments together I felt like I needed to plan things to do. The things were fun, visiting places, seeing things.
But that fun wasn’t the reason I fell in love with you. I fell in love with you when we left the activities. When we walked to the train to go home and had the best talks under the night sky.
The first touch made my heart jump and the first kiss made my head spin.
I remember sitting by the fire in my hometown, the stars being with us. That moment was the moment I realized I loved you. The moment I realized I wanted to be with you. That was the moment my heart walked over to you.
I also remember the looks you gave me, the way your beautiful eyes looked at me and smiled when our eyes met.
I remember the silent hugs, the ones that made everything disappear. It was just us, in the comfort of us.
I remember the way you touched my face, like I was beautiful and worthy of your love. I never felt so good about myself.
I remember the first time you touched my leg in the cinema, I felt so loved. The movie wasn’t on my mind anymore, it was you, who wanted to touch me. I grabbed your hand and, just like every time, our hands interlocked like they were made for one another.
The memories that used to be so happy, are so bittersweet. But I’m happy you were the one I got to share them with.
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 7:52 PM UTC
You tell me you love me and I believe you.
The thing I just can’t believe is how easily you drop me out of your life. Three years we’ve built up something and you act like nothing has ever happened like it wasn’t even there. But then you tell me you have love for me. Not in a way like I have love for you, but you have love for me. Explain to me how you can love someone but at the same time don’t care anymore about anything. How you don’t feel like talking to me anymore when we had been doing that for three years nonstop. It really hurts me that you can drop me so easily like that. That’s the reason why I believe it wasn’t real. Because it’s not human to let go so easily of someone who once was your definition of love. Thank you for treating me as trash as soon as it was acceptable to. I’m sorry I have too much love but I’m not sorry I offered it all to you. Because when I choose you, you’ll get it all and I’ll fall in too deep. That’s love.
Oct 27, 2018
Oct 27, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC