I placed the roses you gave me
in a vase on my bedside
unaware of the pistol
you placed in my mouth
until I pricked my tongue
on a thorn.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 11:39 AM UTC
With these vacuous sentiments
I sweep the remnants of myself
(rust and stardust)
you meticulously unravelled
and scattered in crevices of this 33sqm room.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 11:17 AM UTC
Wrap me in the depths
of your haunting eyes,
drown my frame
in the layers pf your bedsheets,
You may imprison me with lies
but I am enthralled
with the fragility you effortlessly hide.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 11:09 AM UTC
Famished--
you have me.
Dehydrated from your touch,
you have drained me entirely.
Knowing not how deserted I have
placed myself deprived of relief
will you attest to my suffering?
********** my skin--
will you carry my heart like you
rattle my bones (when we kiss)
I am not mistaken
nor foolish for wanting to stay.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 11:02 AM UTC
Please bury me in this sadness
Bones aching of all the madness
Not sure of happiness
No rest for the sufferers
I long for my brother
his pain screams louder than mine
But i am barely breathing
gasping for clarity
in a cloud of monoxide
Not glimmer of hope in my eyes
Too dry from all the tears I've cried.
I swear I never lied
if not to save my life.
Burdened of my mothers strife
a ragged bladed knife
Repeatedly stabbing my heart
ripping my world apart
Where must I go when I feel so alone?
18 years old without a home.
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 12:17 AM UTC
I let the ashes burn me
To remind me of the pain
This life is never ending
Climbing ladders w/o a gain
Losing myself with each step
Higher & higher there i go
Departing from my skin
Gone with the wind down below
Its getting harder to breathe
As the ladder becomes steep
I wonder who i'll be
When theres nothing left to climb
And i cannot see underneath.
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 3:32 AM UTC
When she told me she loved me
I didn't believe her.
So i killed myself instead.
A fairy came to me & whispered enticing secrets in my ear.
He outlined a closet upstairs
where I live alone inside my head.
Tidal waves of white roses grow in & out my of spine.
Suffocating the fishes prancing in a field of raving vines.
Lunar Lullaby plays hopscotch in a cloud of flies.
She licks cherry red ice pops & sings bird hymns to oak trees withering in the wuthering skies.
Swarming dragon-lies fly in lakes upon Monet's canvas.
There he paints a beauty of Thumbelina whose grave resides in the darkest corner of my empty heart.
A red cape looms above & flutters without wings.
My cave is growing vaster
And so I sail amongst its seas.
This Psychosis is no more wearing thin than Rigor Mortis can begin.
I'll live sedentarily as a maid serving rotten apples to men chained as apes.
A lotus will float on by down this bloodstream & into the night.
As a crater on the moon your corpse died suddenly as when fruit bloom.
May 3, 2014
May 3, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC
Don't come over.
I've gone into Psychosis & shan't wake up.
I don't how long I'll be
But it is not your face I want to think of.
I swear this is not game nor reverse psychology!
As I shout hysterically at the moon
Who betrayed the sun for its perpetuating fear of noir.
A shadow will write a prescription for all to be well.
I'll take it twice a day, medicating this soul
rambling to be let out of its cage.
May 3, 2014
May 3, 2014 at 1:37 PM UTC
There's not enough time a day
to be the girl I am.
Seeking a second pay to support her ravenous game.
She requires two feeding times a day:
A Bottle of Cyanide to soothe those demons cold.
A Bottle of Virginity to restore her veins of purity.
May 3, 2014
May 3, 2014 at 1:33 PM UTC
Vines swindle & slither along my spine
Clawing & Raking thorns into my thighs.
When will I realize?
That I am no good, too fat, not thin enough.
I'll wander this Earth, lifetime after another
until I'm emaciated as the rings of Saturn.
Only then will I be thin.
May 3, 2014
May 3, 2014 at 1:28 PM UTC