it's tomorrow
my date of death
the end of my pain
end of this suffering.
cowardly, it may seem
but that does make things perfect
right
and the end.
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 6:37 PM UTC
it's fun
when everyone gives up on you,
and you give up on them.
im the one carrying the burden
of leaving everyone.
everyone who "cared"
yeah, you cared,
but there's one thing
that can't change
you can't do a thing
i can't do anything
to help me
so what i will do
is save myself
save me
Jan 10, 2016
Jan 10, 2016 at 3:05 PM UTC
i know how it feels
to be broken in pieces.
millions of pieces.
Jan 10, 2016
Jan 10, 2016 at 2:59 PM UTC
don't say otherwise
because most of you wouldn't want it.
to be friends with a person
who doesn't shut up about suicide.
i for one, is the most pathetic kind.
for years, I've been thinking about it.
months ago, I started planning.
turned it into a social experiment,
even though i knew how it's going to end.
I may still be alive,
but death is slowly creeping.
I'm still alive but I'm rotting inside.
favorite words eating me alive,
inside out.
Pathetic, disgusting,
coward, liar.
just a few of those words i know,
what you just want to scream
right at my ear.
i may still be alive,
but everyone's killing me
Dec 31, 2015
Dec 31, 2015 at 2:30 PM UTC
i want to answer that question
with the biggest "yes" i could fine.
shove that word down their throats
and watch them choke all at once.
i doubt it that you know how it's like
seeing yourself in the mirror and hate what you see
despite what everyone's saying
i'd still rather drown myself in the sea
Yes, i am dead.
dead inside, all thanks to you all.
Dec 31, 2015
Dec 31, 2015 at 2:25 PM UTC
the one question i've been hearing the most lately
which doesn't really surprise me
labeled suicidal,
my whole existence.
everyone's a villain.
i'm all alone in this resistance.
Dec 31, 2015
Dec 31, 2015 at 2:10 PM UTC
in the morning when I wake up
I whisper four words
to motivate me.
when I feel troubled,
broken,
or out of place,
I whisper those words
to keep me company.
as everything slowly breaks down
and I'm down on my knees
unable to stand let alone move
I can only whisper those words
those four words,
"I wish I'm dead"
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 11:14 AM UTC
it's been so long since I was happy
2 years, if I recall.
it was simple, weird and cruel
but now I hate it,
more and more.
if I pursued someone else, I'd be happy.
hung up and I always fall.
I've always realised, I'm the fool
and I hate me,
more and more.
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 10:33 AM UTC
every time I close my eyes ,I see
the me who was happy.
his smile was as wide as it can be
as he wished things wouldn't change for an eternity
as the darkness envelops me, I see clearly
the mistakes I made back when I was happy.
I was a fool that believed i could be loved
by someone like you who was way above.
in the end, it was darkness who was with me.
it held my hand as cried to sleep
and told me that he's there for free
as it hugged me tight while I weep.
my mind is dark, like my world in reality.
my heart slowly hardens and is turning into stone
as my body fell due to gravity
as I lay there, on my cold, pavement throne.
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 4:43 AM UTC
this last confession to you
is something I dread.
feelings I've kept
are haunting me like the dead.
these things I'll say to you
are the last nonsense you'll hear.
because I fear that I'll shatter
and everyone would cheer.
Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 11:20 AM UTC