To love you
In secret
burns through me.
I can not hear the birds
Singing to me.
Your song echos
Touch me
I want to be devoured by you
From within, I cry out to you
but my surroundings paralyze us
We cannot say it.
Like salt statues of lovers
I freeze when I turn to you
Why, then, do you wait for me?
I am stone, I am still, I will never catch up.
Oct 17, 2023
Oct 17, 2023 at 11:50 PM UTC
What world do you speak of
That fetishizes the mother
And turns it’s back on the infant
Pursing
Suckling
Like a bee on a Carmellia in
July
What is inside of me that hasn’t
Already been emptied?
Do you every wonder,
Why, we mothers
Bake our children cookies
Only to wrap our heads in cloth?
And our husbands,
God rest their souls,
Will burn down the walls
To put out the fire
Sep 26, 2023
Sep 26, 2023 at 11:04 AM UTC
California sun kissed your cheeks
California sun held you in her arms,
Wrapped her hands around your neck
Like the rope you hid in your closet
I miss you.
Do you remember picking flowers
In our backyard
Making homes for bugs
Thinking we were keeping them safe
Locking them away
Do you think our parents
Thought they were keeping us safe too?
How many more times
Did I need to tell you
That I love you and couldn't live
Without you
For you to have stayed
Missouri rain cradled you in her arms
Kissed your track marks and told you
There was nothing wrong
Missouri sky's picked the needles out of
Your arms
Like I used to pick the splinters from
Your fingertips
I miss you.
Jul 11, 2017
Jul 11, 2017 at 2:34 PM UTC
I didn't think you'd grow up
to be so beautiful
and so sad
I wonder if you'll
die before me
your hair is so orange
And your eyes green
and your entire body
kissed with freckles
and your veins pierced
with needles
and your body poisoned
With decay
i am sorry
I wasn't there
to
tell you
to
stop
Mar 4, 2015
Mar 4, 2015 at 5:11 AM UTC
My mothers perfume is sweet
but not like candy or fruit
my mothers perfume is champagne when she exhales
and wet concrete when she sobs in the dark
my mothers perfume is laughter written on
her face with $40 eyeliner
that does not smudge when she cries
my mothers perfume is her hair in my face
when i fall asleep next to her on the couch
my mothers perfume is not a smell
but a feeling in my chest when I hug her
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 8:07 PM UTC
I remember how my world turned blue
everything I saw was blue
like we were under water now
like when we fell asleep we were in the ocean
but sometimes we were red
like when you slapped me for no reason
Like when you said you want to hurt me
Like the ocean turned to blood and
I was going to drown
but then you said you love me
and I could breathe again
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 11:54 AM UTC
god is the way I
feel when you are inside me
I think I love you
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 12:00 AM UTC
I'm lying on the cold concrete again
Tonight
I think there are bees in my
Veins
They must have snuck in threw my
Heart
I'm lying on my side again
Tonight
Because I don't want to choke on
My *****
I'm lying on the cold concrete again
Tonight
The bees are stinging me
and my veins are bursting
Theres blood on this sidewalk
I threw up and drew a smiley face
In it
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 6:42 PM UTC