in everything I do
i think about you
a part of me is missing
when you aren't there too
i know that im hard
ive heard it all before
supposedly im crazy
a challenge, a chore right to the core
but my heart is bigger
than you'll ever see
I'll never take from you
only give what you need
if all that you want
was all that I had
id give you everything
if you asked me for it
ill always remember
and always forgive
that's who I am
this is how I live
compassion is my favorite fashion
and loving is easy for me
just dont take, and not give
i too gotta live
this love feels so good, but it doesn't come free
it comes with understanding
long hours, so demanding
nights of tears, hours into years
anxiety, deppression, and fear
but i swear on all that I am and could ever be
you'll never find a love that will love you like me
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 2:53 AM UTC
which way to go
when your moving slow
your mind says yes
your heart says no
your body feels weak
fall to your knees
send me a sign
give me some peace
i need answers
or maybe some sleep
i look to the sky
i want to know why
i can feel my skin
thick on my bones
my bloods running thin
searching for hope
all i can do is look for the truth
i find it in you
so I hold you close
we will pull through
although I feel sick
at times its hard
not to give up and quit
one look in your eyes
a kiss on your lips
with you i am home
you save me from this
you are my rock
when I feel alone
my light in the dark
first real love ive known
so for you I stand
all i need is you
please take my hand
never let go
in all that I do
all i ever will be
together forever
me plus you
you and me
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 2:44 AM UTC
the best things in life
hide out in plain site
i found light when i looked in your eyes
at first I didn't see
my love right in front of me
but fate had a different plan
to lead me to my magic man
love was patient
love was kind
and now i get to call you mine
no one better to stand beside
the only one i can't deny
so come away with me tonight
get lost together under moon light
to find a love so strong
so true
nothing better that i could do
then spend forever next to you
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 2:37 AM UTC
you are my north star
no matter how far
I follow where you are
my heart is a compass
pointing in your direction
north, south, east, or west
cosmic connection
true perfection
no matter the weather
i would search forever
to have you next to me
i would climb the tallest mountain
i would sail the stormiest of seas
to be with you, your all i need
like an explorer, you mapped out my heart
soul mate directions even in the dark
you are my new world
so much to discover
this beautiful life
with you as my lover
and so i am yours
our journey begun
twin flames united
melting two into one
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 2:33 AM UTC
monsters dont lie under my bed
they live inside the noise in my head
they wait behind my eyes
whispering sweet lies
waiting for when they can come alive
absorb the strength i have inside
sneak beneath the soles of my feet
never skip a beat, or ever sleep
wait until i am weak
to lead me to thier world beneath
these villians dont hide in shadows
never lead your side, and always follow
they lure you in at your worst
make sure you have to put them first
take all you have ,but still you need
your heart and soul off they feed
make you forget all thats worthwhile
take over who you are,
rest easy while you're in denial
when you are in the dark they scream
so loud and clear, no escape from the dream
when your in the light they talk too
no matter where you are they always want you
how do you escape your mind
no release, begging please, give me the light
demons knocking at my door
always searching, wanting more
how are you to win this fight
who will save you from thier night
can you find the crystal site
to lead you into moonlight
sometimes you have to face the fall
hit rock bottom lose it all
to get back up and start a new
find your path, search your truth
armor up and prepare for battle
you are stronger than these shadows
remember who and what you are
and all the beauty you have to live for
these temptations are not real
only ghosts that you can feel
fight for your life
as the war begins
never surrender
and this too you can win
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 1:03 AM UTC
Trying to forget the memories
that have been taking over me
but the clock said its time
for my mind to unwind
sometimes they just remain
and you know it will never be the same
it hurts the worst
when you become second instead of first
it's hard to let go
when all you used to know
was so beautiful and real
and the moments were nothing more than happiness, sincere, surreal
and now were in two different places
once so clear with two different faces
they are not our own
they are our past
we try to grow
but love still lasts
maybe its just me
but i think that you can see
that it all made sense
it came and went so fast and intense
but i know you are a part of my heart
whether you're with me or we are apart
just know that you have buried yourself beside me
two vampires longing to see
the light in the dark
or maybe i'm just too black to give up my heart
sometimes i can't even feel it beating
your eyes and arms i find myself longing to be feeling
the clock has to be wrong
maybe its been too long
i can't really tell anymore
all i know is you have a key to my locked door
whether were open or closed
all i ever want you to know
is how much your smile means to me
its so beautiful, i could see it on repeat
like a record that's overplayed
but its that song that always makes you melt away
and that's what you are to me
a song that i cant bare to sing
because its far to deep
like an ocean drowning me
but we stay afloat
i'm sorry i had to go
and you were the last to know
but the fact that were still smiling
makes me know that no matter what we'll always be shining
thank you for everything
what comes next we'll have to wait and see
what will be
will always be
Nov 26, 2015
Nov 26, 2015 at 7:10 AM UTC
It took me so long
but now i finally see
it was always you
nothings wrong with me
all i ever did was try to make it worthwhile
all you ever do is take away my smile
you are so miserable
you hate yourself so much
so you try to ruin me
destroy everything you touch
i can't believe you
why can't you see
that the poison that you seep in
is the black inside of me.
Oct 24, 2015
Oct 24, 2015 at 1:21 AM UTC
i think the real problem is
i was too honest with you
i thought you’d think of me
when you really only think of you
i see now i was an open book
and you read every word
but never ever showed your cover
hid behind smiles for miles
so i never even remembered to bother
to see who you really were
but some memories you can’t forget
the ones that hit your heart and hurt your head
time couldn’t even erase the hurt you’ve caused me
it scratched into my mind the worst feeling
constant digging little lines bleeding
you’ve said so many heartbreaking things
i couldn’t even begin to understand half of these
was i really that bad, are you really just that good
or is it the other way around and its all misunderstood
i’ll never understand the things you’ve done
why you wanted to destroy something so good
i feel basically empty when i think about it now
time has hardened what was left of my soul
i’m probably better off now
who knew something so silent could be seen so loud
so clear mine as well be crystal
but your the one i miss still
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 4:45 AM UTC
They say copying is the highest form of flattery
but i think its because you have no originality
always replicating what i do
is it just me
is there any thoughts inside of you
everything you do
is because of someone else
can you really not see it
how can't you tell
we all see right through it
open your eyes and you will too
stop trying to be me
and start being you
copy cat copy cat
annoying little copy rat
copy cat copy cat
mindless spineless poison trap
copy cat copy cat
shady lame copy rat
copy cat copy cat
do you have a brain in tact
Now don't get me wrong i don't think i'm anything that great
not trying to be rude this is not something i want to debate
so now do you get the whole picture
why be a sheep
when you can bite just like a wolf
you've got so much to offer so why be another
a whole entire world out there
so why even care
just be the one you are
with nothing to loose you'll go so far
i know there's more to you
parts i can't see through
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 6:52 PM UTC
I don't know what to do with myself
I can't picture you with someone else
But i gotta do me
I have a few things i need to be
A couple more places to see
Here I am, stuck in the middle again
I did so many things wrong
I pushed away your heart and forgot
what pulled us together in the first place
Was everything really a mistake
I don't know
I'm too numb to even feel right now
I wish someone would take over my mind
and remind me what's real
but here I am alone again
not knowing whether this is the beginning or the end
Aug 30, 2015
Aug 30, 2015 at 3:57 PM UTC