Seeing how often you minimize our relationship,
you can’t blame me for thinking us into nothing
Jul 21, 2023
Jul 21, 2023 at 8:06 PM UTC
I hate that I yearn for your attention
And that you're right about me
It's been over 6 years
(2.396 days to be exact)
And I still dream about waking up next to you
Jul 7, 2023
Jul 7, 2023 at 10:17 PM UTC
tell me that i was enough for you,
that i'm still enough.
tell me how lost you are without me,
that you look for traces of me in everyone you meet.
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 12:50 PM UTC
I don’t miss you,
but I miss the way your arms felt like home
May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 10:07 PM UTC
i should’ve known from the beginning
you were waving the red flag and i’m a bull,
charging right past them
then turning around and doing it again, again, again
until one of us is hurt enough to cease the dance
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 11:20 AM UTC
you show up at my door for the first time in months. i see you, and it’s like you never even left. your eyes hold mine and the only way i can describe it is ******** you don’t even need to touch me for me to feel you. i hate you, you love me and i love you too, again. but you have to go, again, and i feel naked, wondering if this was finally our goodbye.
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 12:24 PM UTC
how many times can i fall for the same soul
over and over, always in new bodies,
but the same nonetheless
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 12:39 PM UTC
Cast to the side, here i stand. You may be gone, but i’m forever left with the aftermath of loving you. Tell me, was it your intention to destroy me so completely? To think back on all the times you hurt me as i find myself lying next to someone new, or all the times that i am beneath someone else and i have to close my eyes to fight the panic rising inside me - did you mean to have this impact on my life? I am stuck between resentment and a feeling of loss; you were the greatest love of my life so far, but also the greatest pain. Lover, i miss you some nights and i can’t deny that. Your eyes, your smile, your voice… all were perfect. You were perfect, until suddenly you weren’t. And now i’m scared of falling for someone new, and discovering that I’m just as wrong about them as i was for you. See, my dear, i can’t survive someone like you again. Once was already almost too much for me. The scars on my arm still aren’t quite healed, as well as the scars on my heart.
Tell me, do you ever think of me late at night when you can’t sleep when you’re next to someone else? Do you think of the ways that i loved you, that i cared (that i still care). Call me nostalgic, but we could’ve been perfect if you were the person that i thought you were. I hate how you deceived me, letting me fall in love with a person that you fully knew never existed.
Since you’ve been gone, i can’t cry, i can’t love. I eat too much to drown out my feelings, i can’t workout since the impact that you left on me leaves me always exhausted. It hurts even more to know that you’re doing well, and that you’re not feeling the impact of the loss of me. But what else could i have expected (you made sure to tell and show me how expendable i was to you). In your eyes, i was nothing more than a shoulder for you to cry upon. I wish i could hate you, but i can’t. How could i hate you when it was my mistake to fall for you in the first place?
Sometimes i look back at pictures of you and the sight of you takes my breath away. You were exquisite. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect facade. You knew exactly what you were doing, systematically breaking me down until i was nothing more than a fragment of the girl i used to be. And now that you’re gone i’m left trying to find a girl that no longer exists. You used your looks and charm to get me, just to prove you could. You tore me apart slowly and then all at once, just to prove you could.
Feb 9, 2019
Feb 9, 2019 at 1:10 PM UTC
infidelities litter your past
sweet nothings whispered in ears
‘i love you’ is just a tool to you
anything to ensure that they’ll still be there in the morning
when you’re done ******* whatever girl would give it up that night
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 9:21 PM UTC
I ask you not to lie to me as the knife is already firmly planted in my back
I know the truth, but i want to hear you say it
Tell me there’s someone else,
That you’ve been with her but still come home to me afterwards
Tell me that someone else has touched you
In the ways that i have
Tell me that you think of her
When you **** me
Tell me that you don’t love me anymore
And that you haven’t for a while now
Tell me tell me tell me
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 12:04 AM UTC