I’m damaged
I point to my wound
Yet cover my pain
I’m fine.
I outline my scars
Each with its own story
Yet I refuse to tell
I lie.
I reveal my trauma
Only to you
As I deceive those around me
With nothing but a smile.
Feb 4, 2023
Feb 4, 2023 at 3:39 PM UTC
I Melt my eyes
My flaws don’t exist
In a separate dimension
My vices thrive
There I am perfect
My envy runs rampant
My pride unchecked
And I eat to my heart's content
But my soul starves
Feb 4, 2023
Feb 4, 2023 at 3:38 PM UTC
There are times when I’d hold you
But your air was cold
You haven’t taken a breath in so long
My love
Are you my love,
Is this place in your heart for me?
Perhaps for her,
Perhaps no more,
Maybe let inside,
Renovations and furniture
Amendments and repairs,
You look to the future with hope,
Hope for us
Our children,
I hope too
That I am your plan,
You’re one as you are mine.
Feb 4, 2023
Feb 4, 2023 at 3:38 PM UTC
I refuse to sleep
I’m enslaved to my emotions
Hurting myself however I can
I’m tired of it all.
I stay in fear of my tears
The river flows endlessly
Out of respect for my blood
I stop the never ending bleed
I stained the carpet
Stained our love
Stained all that was sacred
With the sins of my past
Feb 4, 2023
Feb 4, 2023 at 3:37 PM UTC
Sometimes we heal,
Disingenuously,
How does one know,
If they're ok again,
Or it's a scar,
waiting to reopen,
unhealthy addictions,
I'm waiting to relapse,
Disasters in waiting,
So I numb the pain,
with substance,
One of the worst lies ever told,
this alcohol isn't clean.
May 3, 2022
May 3, 2022 at 1:12 AM UTC
I take a moment
To thank
the authors authors of my soul
As everyone we meet,
Contributes at least a word,
Others have chapters
And some our main characters
In the story
That is my life
Only our mothers
Only my mother
Has been a part of my story
From the prologue
To the penultimate full stop
For that I thank her
For my story would be forever be incomplete
Without my mother’s love.
Jan 16, 2022
Jan 16, 2022 at 4:09 AM UTC
The rainy night
The sun light
When I close my eyes
The feeling of longing
Multiplies
As I wonder if you dream of me too
Jan 10, 2022
Jan 10, 2022 at 2:09 PM UTC
Tell me why
When I’m drunk
And alone
Your name keeps me grounded
Jan 6, 2022
Jan 6, 2022 at 9:21 AM UTC
I came to the realization
Shocking as may be
I’m not a kid anymore
Despite how it may seem
The rain comforts me
And Santa’s but a dream
The tooth fairy’s retired
And so is my innocence.
Jan 6, 2022
Jan 6, 2022 at 12:39 AM UTC