wandering through darkened corridors,
not touching a thing,
everything as fragile as glass.
I look around,
blinded by darkness
Until I find a light
it calls to me-
but it has a voice- a voice as calm as summer sky :-
suddenly the place I was in was no longer dark,
it was bright
as blinding as the darkness-
but I could see the beauty surrounding me.
and there you were-
arms wide open.
and I ran to you-
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 4:30 PM UTC
I am a mess,
I have been for so much longer
than I could even see.
I walk this world alone,
with the company of angels
but I am a devil.
with smoke twirling around me
and a black soul
resting in my bones.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 11:44 AM UTC
I miss you
so much it hurts
my soul
my bones
my skin
my heart.
I just want
to be held-
safe in your
arms-
in my home.
I miss you
so much
it hurts.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 11:36 AM UTC
hello?
hello?
can you hear me?
can you see me?
hello?
hello?
do you still want me?
do you still call me home?
hello?
hello?
where did you go?
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 2:07 PM UTC
i am invisible
95% of the time-
the 5% i am visible
is when i am
at my worst
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 1:50 PM UTC
I don't want to live on medication
my whole life.
I want to get better
but I dont.
this has been a part of me for so long
that I don't want to let it go.
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 3:04 AM UTC
sick to my stomach
and bloodshot eyes.
nicotine stains
and scarred thighs.
I live on little sleep
and lost hope.
wondering just when
you'll return home
again.
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
sometimes i sit around waiting
for inspiration
but life is short-
and you can't sit around waiting.
life doesn't hand you things
on a silver platter-
you have to do things for yourself
so live your life how you want.
and stop sitting around!
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 3:21 PM UTC
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16- i was 16 when i met you- sweet 16-
when my whole life turned around
you gave me a reason for living-
and you still do.
every breath i take, every day, i'm taking so i can spend my future with you-
so i can live my life wih you.
up- down- up- down- up-
up-up-up- UP!
that's what my moods were like-
16 and i was ready to end my life-
16 and an angel showed up in my life.
16 and saved by a man 10 years my senior-
16 and i did not care at all.
16,16,16- lucky 16.
17- relapse-
the worst birthday of my life-
17- anger,
regret,
betrayal-
17- realization-
forgiveness-
17- everyone makes mistakes.
17- falling in love all over again,
harder and harder-
deep, deep- deeper-
i no longer see a way out.
17- therapy- hospitals- medicine-
no, no, I'm jumping too far ahead.
17- visits-
you're moving?!
oh no...
you're not.
stupid ******* landlord
17- we're not speaking?
17- you're sick.
you're in a psych ward.
it's been weeks since we've spoke.
17- i'm in hospital.
17- i need stitches
i'm up to my eyeballs on medication
i'm alive-
i've survived- through my own hell
i have survived.
17- i've learnt to live without you-
each day is a challenge.
17- my mums a cheating *******
17- you're- you're back?!
you're back!
my angel! my saviour! my prince!
up- up- up- up- up- up- up
my moods are up again-
my medication is working,
you're okay
I'M OKAY!
18- my story is still going....
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 3:02 PM UTC
it wasn't until
you'd been gone
for 4 months
that I realized-
maybe
i was the one
who ****** you up
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC