My eyes squint as the morning light comes through the dorm curtain
Looking beside me, I see you
Dark hair sprawled over the pillowcase
My hand grazes our bare chests
And a silence finds me here
But in that violence, I remember your face
I reminisce the previous night
How you broke our kiss to hug me instead
To be with you
May be sin
But to be without you
Is tragedy
One I cannot face yet survive
At the aquarium, we hold hands in front of the blue fish tank
And giggle about the Bloom Into You reference
In this moment I know
I will never be safe from the heartbreak I am soon to face
I hope I am found in you memories late at night
And ached for
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 11:54 PM UTC
I see you
I see you as you walk into class, taking your spot beside me
Your deep eyes sparkle as you greet me
And I pretend I haven’t just been staring at you
As you hold my hand under the desk, my mind replays the previous night’s kiss
However I am reminded it is all platonic
As your fingers run over my arms
I silently pray for you to ask me what I know you never will
If it allows me the privilege of your time
I will take the version of you I do not wish to have
You hug me and breathe in yesterday’s shampoo
I am taken in throught your nose
Temporarily
You slowly exhale and smile
May 27
May 27, 2026 at 12:04 AM UTC
I don’t drink energy drinks.
Not because I dislike the taste,
Or because I’m trying to cut out sugar
But because I am afraid the caffeine will cause my heart to race
Like the way it did when we were together
How fast it had beaten that night
However occasionally, at the convenience store
As the neon lights glare at me
I pass by the aisle, filled with multicolored Redbull cans
Reminiscing the can of Lilac we had shared
And I consider just one
But I know that one will turn into a pathetic text to you
So I walk past as my eyes begin to glaze over
I am content seeing glimpses of you in the hallways, under fluorescent school lighting
May 26
May 26, 2026 at 11:54 PM UTC