Somewhere along the way
these last few years,
I really lost myself,
controlled by my fears
Recently I decided,
it's time for me to fight,
I deserve better than this,
I shouldn't be so polite,
So fight back I did,
and eventually I won,
I ended the abuse,
I left and was done,
But now here I am
looking...
at my fractured battered soul,
missing so many pieces,
trying to gain back control,
As I stumble around,
devoid of any sight,
I turn to my friends,
And they say,
Why don't you write?
Why don't I...
Maybe I should....
Some thinking in rhymes,
might do me some good....
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 1:55 AM UTC
It's a hot summer day,
The rays beaming down
And much to my surprise,
I see clouds building far away
Filling up the cloudless skies
When was the last time
I stood in the rain?
It's really been far too long...
The soft caress of water on skin,
Nature singing a glorious song
It's getting darker now
The clouds gather in force
As the wind begins to blow
The birds flutter quickly from tree to tree
Preparing for God's little show
I take down my hair
Kick off my boots
Feel the earth breathe a sigh of relief
I pray for myself, the crops and the pond
This storm is anything but brief
A drop falls from the sky
And lands on my cheek
First one, then two, then three,
Suddenly its raining, pouring,
And there's no where else I'd rather be
For I'm standing in
a sweet summer rain,
The kind that only comes once a year
It cleanses my heart, washes my soul
And I know there is nothing to fear
Jan 12, 2013
Jan 12, 2013 at 12:58 AM UTC
A bag full of water
Little goldfish swim around
Nudge the bag, explore your world
Tell me all that you have found
Let me know your in there
Little nudges, little kicks
Let me see those acrobatics
Show me all your tricks
You are my little goldfish
With tiny little feet
Little arms
Little legs
I can't wait for us to meet
May 17, 2012
May 17, 2012 at 3:02 PM UTC
Little one inside of me
I can't wait to hear your coos
Little one inside of me
I can't wait to share the news
Little one inside of me,
Keep growing, don't give up
Little one inside of me
We love you very much
Little one inside of me
In just a few weeks time
The doctors will come in
Tell me everything's just fine
Little one inside of me
You are on your way
And when you get here,
my sweet baby,
I'll be here for you
Forever and always
Jan 29, 2012
Jan 29, 2012 at 1:48 PM UTC
Though you are troubled,
do not be defeated by this plight,
for even the birds sometimes sing,
in the deepest, darkest of nights,
There is a song of hope,
even in the absence of light,
when the world seems its darkest,
is when dreams take flight,
For when you are tired,
down and careworn,
in the core of your mind,
budding new thoughts will form,
They will relieve you of your worries,
your doubts and your fears,
A new day will arrive,
and dry out your tears,
And as the new day is born,
and the night fully passes,
your torn, tattered spirit,
will rise from the ashes,
Strong and eduring,
new trials will appear,
but now you know
never to fear,
For there is a litte phoenix in all of us
Jan 19, 2012
Jan 19, 2012 at 10:23 AM UTC
Metal on metal,
screeching and loud
into my body
the other car plowed
tossed one way
and then yet another
In this moment, I know...
I know I will suffer
my forehead cracks the window
one fracture,
two,
glass flies through my view
eyes closed begging for reprieve
the car comes alive
it cuts and it cleaves
Just like that it's over
and I'm looking at the stars
don't even ask me how I got this far
or where the car went...
i close my eyes
and pray the answer to my prayers be heaven sent
and soon...
please come soon....
Dec 13, 2011
Dec 13, 2011 at 10:26 PM UTC
Chaos
confusion, discord
fear, frustration, turmoil
lost, crazy, alone, tranquil
pills, clarity, hushed
restful, serenity,
Calm
Dec 1, 2011
Dec 1, 2011 at 1:02 PM UTC
*I look deep into his eyes
trying to see my forever
trying to redeem the lost time
trying to envision a life
together...*
If the eyes are windows to the soul
then where exactly am I?
As I trek deeper into the confines
of those beautiful eyes,
I have to wonder to myself
do the eyes sometimes tell lies?
How do I know that
it's our future I see?
Not reels of the past,
visions of lost dreams...
As I stare deeper,
his eyes captivate me
as I look at him intently
I wonder the reverse,
what does he see?
his face becomes a blur
as I get lost within those lashes
his soul is aflame with passion
as I sift through the ashes
what tragedies,
what agonies,
what misspent youth
what vindications,
what feelings,
what untold truth?
I'm driving myself crazy
with these guesses aloof
maybe we aren't meant
to know another's soul
escape their eyes with
valid proof
I come back to reality
and softly grab his face,
kiss him sweet and softly
enjoy the embrace
I don't think even a lifetime
would reveal what the eyes,
what the soul
sees
Nov 16, 2011
Nov 16, 2011 at 2:53 PM UTC
Run away
Far away
Become somebody
New
Leave yourself
Your life behind
You have so much more
To do
You are not bound
By this evil past
that haunts and follows
You
So run away my dear
Escape into a life
You never dreamed of
Never knew
Nov 10, 2011
Nov 10, 2011 at 2:48 PM UTC
I take a deep breath
I'm stressed to my core
My ex fiance keeps following me
begging me for something more
Though I once loved him,
I have to stand my ground
there is no forgiveness
for all the things I found
We can never move on
we can never be the same
this is something I must accept
and he is the one to blame
so when I face him today
I'll make it very clear
that our time has come and gone
the end of "us" is near.
Nov 10, 2011
Nov 10, 2011 at 2:40 PM UTC