I don’t know stability
My mind has been stressed
Since before I was a teen
I laugh at civility
I don’t know how my dad never got a DUI
The cold ***** in the front seat
Disguised as water
With two girls in a drive-by
I’ve lived in 30 different homes
My favorite is always the next one
My mom has borderline personality disorder
And I am the opposite of a hoarder
I say I want peace but I crave chaos
Please don’t tell me it’s from my childhood
I’m sick of being ashamed of my faults
I need a ******* seance
Nov 28, 2025
Nov 28, 2025 at 11:57 PM UTC
*She is lonely
but she wants to be alone
She is trapped in a room
with the door unlocked
She doesn’t remember
but her dreams don’t let her forget
She wants to wake up
even if she can still see the stars
She wants to be the best
but she feels like she is the worst
she works hard
even though she cannot move*
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 11:54 PM UTC
one doll in your hand
one bottle in mine
I knew nothing in this world
except you,
before I knew time
you checked on me when
I was asleep
we would play outside
driving the barbie jeep
time suddenly went by so fast
school days became
college nights
you went away
protecting our country
living in plight
fearless and resilient
I was checking on you every night
my turn to look after you
driving you home to live with me
to finally reunite
you’re 27 now
And I’m 25
Our sisterhood
is the foundation of my life
Apr 27, 2019
Apr 27, 2019 at 1:59 PM UTC
brain zaps, brain fog
welcome to Zoloft
refill your script
before you decide to quit
this pill comes with a cost
it's not that easy
to taper off
this illness is not visible
one might say it's despicable
the pill that can make things bearable
everyday at the same time
remember it's no cure
but
it can help
and that can be worth
feeling secure
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 5:09 PM UTC
The one thing we cannot control is the chaos around us
The acceptance of our fate is knowing
If you leave earlier you might still be late
Somewhere deep within our souls
We know that we can all relate
What choices do you have to control the chaos inside of you?
Close doors, inhale, and find comfort in the chaos because
There’s no escape
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 7:01 PM UTC
I wonder what you're thinking about with that blank stare.
Do you mean it when you tell me that no one else compares?
I want to believe in you but I have my doubts.
Where is someone that can tell me what you're really about?
Blue and glossy eyes, scarlet face, and frightful disposition.
I know my friends would tell me to run if they knew my position.
Your actions, I cannot deny, are beyond my comprehension.
I am stuttering and shaking, I can't help this apprehension.
When will I get the courage to leave you and accept our fate?
Sooner or later, they will see through my eyes too, and notice how they dilate.
Ask me how I am, I'll tell you I'm fine and some other lies.
But please don't listen to my words, just look at me in the eyes.
Dec 24, 2018
Dec 24, 2018 at 8:38 PM UTC
it's wrong,
when it feels right.
it's wrong,
when it feels wrong.
when
will
it
be
right?
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 9:42 PM UTC
i’m not all of me
there’s a piece of me
in everyone i’ve met
in every room i’ve lived in
in every city i’ve been
in every mistake i’ve made
in every breath i’ve taken
there is a piece of you
that’s always in me too
Nov 15, 2018
Nov 15, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
lost in this world created on a screen,
I can't even see things that really matter to me,
I miss the rawness of your voice,
the pen to the paper,
now we have an abundance of choice.
I can type without looking,
I can manage five tabs while ordering food,
--whats cooking?
everything is so instant.
we are the impatient,
the damaged,
and the distant.
adaptation creates us to be dynamic,
but I can't seem to not panic.
you are high and dry,
but you're glorified.
you keep staring at your phone
I am just begging to know
why
Nov 12, 2018
Nov 12, 2018 at 10:30 PM UTC
there is no guarantee
that we will ever be free
I can't tell you why
the rain pours
and the people mourn
there is no guarantee
that we will ever find peace
I can't tell you why
we go to war
and why he called you a *****
there is no guarantee
that we will ever be happy
I can't tell you why
half of us are on anti-depressants
and why we are fighting the resistance
I can't tell you why
there is no guarantee
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 11:14 PM UTC