Help it's such a hard thing to ask for
You try to act tough
But you know inside you feel like dying
And trying so hard to cover up your crying
You long for someone to listen to your pain
But no is around to hold you tight
So you lay alone night wishing for a better day
When all the pain will just wash away
And you can finally smile once again
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:53 PM UTC
Goodbye, Goodnight I shall go away tonight
I'm sorry love but this is for the best
I take these pills and knife
As I take my own life
I pretend a happiness I don't feel
Faking smiles and laughter
Just to please those around me
So goodbye, goodnight
As I slowly die tonight
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:50 PM UTC
These tears don't fall
Only crimson blood from my arms
I'm not mad at you or the world, just myself
Everything is distorted
I can't tell right from wrong
What's good or bad
So I do what I please
And hurt everyone around me
I want to end it all
But who would care?
I guess it really doesn't matter
These tears don't fall
They just crash on the floor
In the darkened room where I lay miserable
Hatred for everything around me
So I take some pills and cut my skin
As I make another sin
And try to forget what made this way
I close my eyes and go to sleep
Will I wake again?
No one really knows
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:48 PM UTC
I told you I loved you
You said it too
Only difference
I was telling the truth
While you lied
It kills me inside
Too see your face all the time
Happy and smiling
While i'm slowly dying
I don't want to believe
That I won't see you again
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:46 PM UTC
My last sunrise has come today
In the early morning of misty may
Is where I lay
With scars from the previous day
There's a gun in my hand
A hole in my head
And a note on my heart
I apologize for the pain i've caused
But I could bear this burden no more
I freed my self to a better place
Where the sun is always shining
So this is my last sunrise
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:43 PM UTC
I feel so numb like nothing can affect me
I feel dead inside
I forget what it's like to be alive
I cause pain on my self to feel alive
I look down my pillow is red
I still feel nothing
I cut a little deeper
I watch the crimson liquid flow out
I make some more cuts
I feel the sadness leaving me
I lay there and close my eyes
I bleed out the pain and sadness
I feel numb no more
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:41 PM UTC
I sit here in the dark late at night
Tears running down my face
I grab the razor from my beside drawer
I slash it against my skin
I sit as I watch the blood flow out
I make a few more to release the stress
To forget the pain ever existed
Just for a moment everything is alright
But then the blood stops flowing
And i'm forced to face reality again
The tears come again as well the regret
Another relapse to live with
A few more scars to hide
And a lie to keep living
I'm not strong enough
I need to relapse
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:39 PM UTC
Roses dead and wilted lie on your grave
Black pedals scattered across the dirt bed
Stems broken like your dreams
Dead at 17 doesn't seem real to me
But it was your time to leave
Soon it will be mine
Because I have cancer just like you did
Soon i'll be dead at 17
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:36 PM UTC
If life was a game I’d be dead
If life was a game I would have killed myself multiple times
If life was a game I would have more than one life
If life was a game I could “reset” when I hit game over
If only life was a game I’d be dead already
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:34 PM UTC
Fears become reality
Monsters don’t live under your bed
They live inside your head
Eventually you’ll end up dead
Listening to every word they say
It gets worse each day
You try to act like everything is fine
But inside you know it’s a lie
You see things that aren’t there
You hear things that make you scared
You start to go insane
Nothing will be the same
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 6:32 PM UTC