Calm personified,
Words resonating,
Bringing me into my own.
Empathy personified,
The joy, this belief,
We'll never walk alone.
Strength personified,
A Sequoia how mighty you've grown.
Trust personified,
Your presence within,
To have found a home
Care personified,
A hug that breeds warmth in my soul.
~You are~
Love personified,
Like no other,
I only hope you know.
May 4, 2023
May 4, 2023 at 2:36 PM UTC
This last Sunday I learned.
A lesson so long it has taken.
That some family don't stop with your first awaking.
Some family is earned.
Some family you ain't born with.
Some family more than an obligation.
Some family you gain with commitment, with dedication.
It don't matter the blood, time, name or location.
When this family been years in the making.
True this what I say, for the process be painstaking.
We've bonded with one another.
Bound by the love for the other,
The good, the bad,
The pain, the smiles we share 'em.
No matter our destination.
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 6:11 AM UTC
You are infinity.
The stars, the moon, the sky.
Resilient, beautiful.
You are genuine.
You are the earth, the wind,
A river untamed.
A magnificent tree, reaching up to the skies.
Deeply rooted,
To the ground upon which you lie.
A shelter to those in need.
I thank you for all that you are,
I look forward to all that you will be.
Just want to wish, in my special way.
To you, a Happy Birthday.
Dec 6, 2019
Dec 6, 2019 at 5:23 AM UTC
To fall in love.
To be kicked and tugged.
To picking up, and moving on.
To stepping forward.
To find courage, within this coward.
To letting go, of what's already gone.
To what's been said, and what's been done.
I take my hopes, and pack 'em.
Close the door, leave through the back an'
Don't turn round. We could see it crackin'.
To leave before it breaks,
Breaks my heart, but it feels like fate.
Tried to have faith, I made mistakes.
I guess that in the end, we took
What we could get, though there's
Still so many loose ends.
Looked for the closure,
I swear, felt it was getting closer.
Thought, we could make amends, make it better, make it to a better end.
I guess by now I've lost my friend.
Seems that now has turned to never.
So whatever. I tried my best.
I failed this test.
Shattered heart, I pick up the pieces.
Few more shards, and I'm back to being jus'
Who I am, who I'm at peace with.
I'd never be the same,
It won't be so seamless.
I look up, maybe one day I'll see
The one I need, my miracle seamstress.
For now, here I leave this.
Oct 7, 2019
Oct 7, 2019 at 5:22 PM UTC
She's got an air about her.
Makes butterflies flutter.
She makes my heart stutter,
The world's her oyster.
Always, I'm with her
Rooting, in her corner.
I feel for her, forever.
Even if..
Never again, I'd see her.
Her presence, her might.
Subtle beauty, not withdrawn.
Majestic mind, this benevolent body,
Many a day, she is my Dawn.
An adventure..
Like magic.
Exciting, enticing.
A phenom, a danger.
Many a goal, may she achieve.
Incomparable, may she be.
She's always like magic, to me.
Sep 13, 2019
Sep 13, 2019 at 6:29 PM UTC
These feelings fall like tidal waves.
They're a beauty, so why do I suffocate?
Overwhelm me, I just can't escape,
It's dark, so here, I send up a flare.
It's hard, to keep my flair.
Buried within the world's glares.
I'm making me work,
A body, no head.
Pushing.
Might I have failed?
To accept I'm way too scared.
Letting my world down, myself.
After all I've done, all I've said.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't sad.
My dreams, I know they aren't dead,
In folds, they hid instead.
Don't know why this mount I can't climb.
God knows, for long I've tried.
Blown my integrity, I have no more pride.
I wish I could take this in my stride.
Down the barrel of this gun, I stare.
Not knowing where from here I fare.
No options, no allies.
I don't want this to be just a souvenir.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
These tidal waves,
Where do you take me?
Where?
Aug 19, 2019
Aug 19, 2019 at 9:17 PM UTC
In the past,
I'd try to find
A way to love,
Give all the love, all I can,
To all who need, and all who want.
Looked in now,
Cause I've managed to fizzle out.
Burned through the faith,
Left ****** and bare.
Down on that love.
360, no love around.
Used to have all the love for some.
Now I have none for none.
Losses: One for One.
Thought I'd be good to medicate,
Thought I'd see it when I meditate.
Now I dig through all that lost faith, the heartbreak.
Fossilized in a place I so long vacated.
Make a stop on an abandoned station.
Pick it up, or recreate it.
Find what once was fun, was whole, was my day in the sun.
I gotta excavate from what I once separated.
That love for me I had long awaited,
Trip through hell, to see me elated.
Catch my breath and figure it again,
That love for one,
Get it back, For once, for all.
King of my throne, I will be reinstated.
Jul 7, 2019
Jul 7, 2019 at 12:34 AM UTC
Not in words,
Could it ever be seen.
Just how much,
You mean to me.
You show love,
Are loved,
Just know you're beloved.
Unconditional,
Unwavering, my fealty.
To see you win all,
Be a bad *****
To see you succeed.
Though, haven't been here for long,
I plan to be, from here on.
Beyond a pleasure,
Always, it's been.
Grateful, I am such.
To know, such a queen.
Hope this isn't too much.
Just want to put this out though.
I hope you believe.
To me,
You a friend like family.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 4:41 AM UTC
I feel this deep fear in me,
Something I can't truly see.
Within me, it dwells. I truly believe.
Looking into the depths of the well,
A living hell, I see staring back at me.
That darkness is all I feel.
Nobody else, no one with me,
Fear claws its way from down deep,
Digs right into me.
I feel it, I wail,
I flow, I begin to well
I flail, I scream. So silent,
Nobody else can see.
Within me, I weep.
Keeping it hidden, happiness is forbidden.
Never am I forgiven.
The promised land, my vision.
A forever expedition.
To find what I seek,
To love, to believe.
To find a connection,
To find that remission,
Finally to be given.
I go it alone, I work through my woes.
The battle's done won,
The war leaves one ruined.
Make peace with the fact,
There is no connect,
Always be alone,
You are doomed, forlorn.
Live with it and die.
You are on the decline.
Know, you are yours,
Bonded with none.
Alone is your soul.
Weary, your mind.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 4:27 AM UTC
One said once,
That the empty mind is the rival of God.
At this point I want to believe that it's not.
Preoccupied. My mind, I'm paranoid.
A pit in me, depressed, my anxiety.
A million times I've been asked,
Can you read minds?
I wish now, I could say yes.
For the longest time,
It felt as her mind was moulded with mine.
For the longest time,
I felt I could keep the devil in line.
Now though, I stare him in the face,
I see his menacing smile.
Heat made home in my psyche.
He's shares my soul, he's right beside me.
He sees me write these lines.
Knows what I'm trying to find.
Exactly what I look for, he's managed to hide.
Forever, I thought my mind my strength,
What if, with his help, it becomes my demise?
Self doubt, respect. Rejection and unclear sight.
All these things I'm struggling with,
Though I continue to fight.
I fight because I know I must,
There seems to be no light,
Darkness within,
Has my flame finally found it's cold night?
Questions I can't answer.
Not now. Not today.
My hope is now, I know all that I've lost,
Remember, some time ago I lived without.
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 8:12 AM UTC