"i literally couldn't hate you if i tried to. You're so sweet
to me and you're one of the first girls that I actually trust
and understand. You're the person that I fall asleep
thinking about and wake up thinking about. I'm never
going to forget you ever"
i know
i know
i just get anxious
and my mind won't let me go
and what you said yesterday got to me
"i texted my ex two weeks ago"
you said
and that felt like betrayal
even though i know you meant nothing by it
i can't help but wonder and i can't help but worry that I'm
not good enough for you because you are so amazing and
i love you so much but im afraid that im not enough
i cant help but think that you're going to leave me or
that i really am bad luck and that's why no one want to
stay with me and i worry that if i eat too much or if i eat
too little or if i do this or do that you're gonna escape my
grasp and i'll be alone again because the feeling of
loneliness never seems to leave my heart
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 3:17 PM UTC
why do i fear
that independence means leaving
me alone
why am i afraid
that independence means leaving
me forever
why do i mistake
your quiet for a suitcase being packed,
your autonomy for an ending.
i want to love you like an open field,
but my mind is a cage,
terrified that if the door stays wide,
you'll find a better
girl.
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 3:11 PM UTC
my chest feels tight
and my mind too cluttered
and i want you to love me
and i want you to NEED me
and i feel so desperate for your love
and i want you, my love
and i want you to want me too
my vision is blurring
but you're not responding to my texts
but you're busy watching tv
but you're not here to help me
but you're not here
you're not here
you're not here
you're not here
but you're not ******* here to hold me
but you're not here to console me
but you're not here to love me
my body is wracked with tears
and i'm still alone
and i'm trying my ******* best
and i'm desperate to impress you
and i'm dressing up in less and less clothing
and i'm trying to show my body
and i'm trying to get you to look at me
my eyes are widening
because you're not looking at me
because you're not paying attention to me
because you're staring at your ******* wall
because you're not LOVING me
because you're not helping me
because you're not helping me to feel loved
you're not helping me feel loved
i don't feel loved
i don't feel loved
i don't feel loved
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 2:58 PM UTC
for you,
whose eyes
sparkle with
hidden secrets
for you,
whose wonderful heart
and beautiful voice
makes me blush
for you,
who haunts my mind
like a wandering ghost
who refuses to leave
for you,
who lives in my heart
and whom i think about
every waking day and night
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 2:43 PM UTC
roses are red
violets are blue
i'm starting to hate you
*** blue makes me think
of your beautiful eyes,
and the wonderful color
of the bright skies.
for you make my heart
both flutter and scream,
with want of your body
like a feverish dream.
the silence you leave
brings a heavy anxiety,
over your supposed hatred
fading out with sobriety.
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 2:39 PM UTC
stories
check
poems
check
reading
check
romantic
check
body dysmorphia
check
nssi
check
short hair
check
almond eyes
check
broad shoulders
check
personality
check
its like a check list
every single one of
her interests
personality traits
looks
copied into me
I hate it
I hate how I'm not my own person
I hate that I am you,
but you are not me
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 12:18 AM UTC
I wish I was prettier.
If I was prettier, they’d talk to me first.
I wish I was skinnier.
If I was skinny, they’d see me as delicate.
I wish I was quieter.
If I was quiet, they’d think I was thoughtful.
I wish I was taller.
If I was tall, they’d finally look up.
I wish I was funnier.
If I was funny, they’d want me around.
I wish I was luckier.
If I was lucky, they’d call it fate.
I wish I was bolder.
If I was bold, they’d listen when I speak.
I wish I was better.
If I was better, they’d stay.
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 4:20 PM UTC
it seems to me
no matter how hard I try
I will always
always
always
always
end up last place
no matter how hard I try
to pass every hit
to set every pass
to hit every set
to block every attack
I will never be good enough
to be picked first
or picked at all
Mar 21
Mar 21, 2026 at 11:30 PM UTC
often times
I think myself
far too lustful
alone
i long
for someone to
touch my body
lovingly
cant stop
thinking about ***
or another person's
body
really want
to feel the
warmth of skin
deeply
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 1:11 PM UTC
is it bad
that I think
you're so much
hotter with your
face mask on?
is it bad
that I think
that your face
is most attractive
when it is
mostly covered up?
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 1:04 PM UTC