Before I go,
Let me express my last gratitude
To those who enjoyed my company
And those who were always true
Before I go,
Let me share my laughter
To all those jokes that we shared
For us to entertain one another
Before I go,
Let me embrace you for the last time
Let the warmth of my body
Get us through these cold nights
Before I go,
Let me pray to my creator
To seek forgiveness for my sins
And mercy for what comes later
Dec 10, 2024
Dec 10, 2024 at 11:04 AM UTC
They told me to me to write
So I can drag out those feelings
That was left unexpressed
If those words came to light
Then it would feel less depressing
And my life would not be a mess
I have spoken my truth
And filled those words in paper
Of all those bottled emotions
Inside was a story of me and you
About love, sadness and anger
And how it became lesson
I was willing to sacrifice
Your needs over my own
Just so you could be happy
In the end you cut our ties
You left me drowning alone
And killed what is left of me
Dec 1, 2024
Dec 1, 2024 at 11:03 AM UTC
I always wondered
What is the purpose?
All the written words
An expression of oneself
On a piece of paper
Dotted in black ink
Which makes me feel better
But if often leaves me wondering
What is the purpose?
Maybe a collection of memories
Of what once was
Something important for me
Maybe I know the actual purpose
It is a place for me to heal
No more wearing any mask
And express what I truly feel
May 14, 2024
May 14, 2024 at 3:14 PM UTC
They tell me one day
I would know what it feels like
They tell me one day
I will finally get it right
They tell me one day
I would find my own happiness
They tell me one day
I will get out of this phase
But one day seems far away
As the seasons keep changing
But one day seems far away
Because I still feel very lonely
But one day seems far away
As my mind taunts and belittles me
But one day seems far away
As a reason for me to live
Dec 26, 2022
Dec 26, 2022 at 11:18 AM UTC
How do I say I love you?
When everything is at stake
How can someone be true?
Knowing it could bring heartache
How to get rid of this fear?
Thinking rejection is on its way
How can I say I love you?
Not knowing if you would say it back
Dec 7, 2022
Dec 7, 2022 at 12:25 PM UTC
As I grow old
How excited I was for freedom
Finally walking out the door
As I grow old
I bid farewell to my friends
As we took our own course
As I grow old
I have met new people
That were quite different
As I grow old
I fell in love with a girl
But got my heart broken
As I grow old
The people I used to know
Turned into another stranger
As I grow old
I am used to being alone
Without care from any other
Nov 20, 2022
Nov 20, 2022 at 12:31 PM UTC
It happens almost every night
Especially when I am alone
This battle I am having inside
Is slowly ripping apart my soul
I lay in bed but I am wide awake
Trying my best to fall asleep
But the problem is this heartache
That I could feel in so deep
I try to calm myself down
But I still have this struggle
When no one is around
Is the beginning of my battle
Nov 7, 2022
Nov 7, 2022 at 11:32 AM UTC
Am I your play thing?
An object for entertainment?
When you have nothing
That brings you any amusement?
You call only when you need
But when you are happy
You packed your bags and leave
Without thinking about me
Left me out in the cold
Making me blame myself
Tormenting my own soul
Thinking I am not worthy of love
Oct 30, 2022
Oct 30, 2022 at 2:58 PM UTC
If only it was easy to say how you feel
Without worrying about the consequences
For these words that I have yield
Would make or break both our bridges
I have been lying to my own dear heart
That I am not a man in love
But these lies are tearing me apart
As I know what we are now is not enough
Would you fear for what I have to say?
If I came down and ask for your hand?
That I am yours until the end of days
If you are willing to accept this man
For his heart has never shifted
The moment he laid his eyes on you
I promise this time it would not hurt
For this love I promise you is true
Oct 3, 2022
Oct 3, 2022 at 1:36 PM UTC
Here I am at this hour
Trying to rest my tired eyes
Tuck myself under the covers
With my eyelids shuts tight
But these never ending thoughts
Kept me awake from my slumber
These thoughts that never stop
Always makes my mind wonder
Throwing me in scenarios
What I thought would turn out
If we did not walk out the door
Where we did not break our vows
A thought were we were happy
One where we never fought
But there is no more you and me
What is left are just my own thoughts
Jul 7, 2022
Jul 7, 2022 at 2:14 PM UTC