shadow-chan
Hey, I am xShadows Are Comingx, but you can call me xShadowx. The x's are silent. I follow back. <3 / Current age: 14, 9th Grade / Birthday: October 11, 2002 / Birthstone: Opal / Astrological Symbol: Libra / Chinese Zodiac: Horse / Favourite Colours: Blue, Black, Grey, Purple, Green / A List Of Anime Guys That Are "Worth It" XD: Nagisa Shiota, Karma Akabane, Kenya Kobayashi, Gray Fullbuster, Haruka Nanase, Hatsuharu Sohma, Yuki Sohma, Kyo Sohma, Emil Steilsson, Matthew Williams, Katsuhira Agata, Shion Sonozaki, Yukine, Hikaru Hitachiin, Kaoru Hitachiin, Mikaela Hyakuya, Yoichi Saotome, Armin Arlert, Yuri Plisetsky, Shell Overlord, Soul, Death The Kid, Saeran Choi ;) / Favourite Bands/Artists: MCR, FOB, TOP, BTS, Breathe Carolina, P!atD, Gorillaz, TLT, Tokyo Machine / My interests: Anime, FNAF, music, drawing, writing, anything constructive, SANESSS
Some say now suffer all the children
And walk away a saviour
Or a madman and polluted
From gutter institutions
Don't you breathe for me
Undeserving of your sympathy
Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did
And through it all
How could you cry for me
Cuz I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes
Kiss me goodbye
And sleep
Just sleep
The hardest part is letting go of your dreams
A drink for the horror that I'm in
For the good guys and the bad guys
For the monsters that I've been
Three cheers for tyranny
Unapologetic apathy
Cuz there ain't no way that I'm coming back again
And through it all
How could you cry for me
Cuz I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes
Kiss me goodbye
And sleep
Just sleep
The hardest part's the awful things that I've seen
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 4:00 PM UTC
When it is silent enough, my ears start to ring overwhelmingly loud
If i listen to the silence hard enough, i start to hear voices and music
Quiet is violent
I hate the silence...
Dec 22, 2016
Dec 22, 2016 at 10:21 PM UTC
I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire, exhale desire
I know it's dire my time today
I have these thoughts, so often I ought
To replace that slot with what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole my car radio
And now I just sit in silence
Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It's on my sleeve
My skin will scream reminding me of
Who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I'm driving
There's no hiding for me
I'm forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real
I could pull the steering wheel
I have these thoughts, so often I ought
To replace that slot with what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole my car radio
And now I just sit in silence
I ponder of something terrifying
'Cause this time there's no sound to hide behind
I find over the course of our human existence
One thing consists of consistence
And it's that we're all battling fear
Oh dear, I don't know if we know why we're here
Oh my, too deep, please stop thinking
I liked it better when my car had sound
There are things we can do
But from the things that work there are only two
And from the two that we choose to do
Peace will win and fear will lose
It is faith and there's sleep
We need to pick one please because
Faith is to be awake
And to be awake is for us to think
And for us to think is to be alive
And I will try with every rhyme
To come across like I am dying
To let you know you need to try to think
I have these thoughts, so often I ought
To replace that slot with what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole my car radio
And now I just sit in silence
I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire, exhale desire
I know it's dire my time today
I have these thoughts, so often I ought
To replace that slot with what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole my car radio
And now I just sit in silence
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 1:38 PM UTC
A loser hides behind a mask of my disguise
And who I am today is worse than other times
You don't know what I've done
I'm wanted and on the run
I'm wanted and on the run so I'm taking this moment to live in the future
Release me from the present
I'm obsessing all these questions
Why I'm in denial that they tried the suicidal session
Please use discretion when you're messing with the message man
These lyrics aren't for everyone, only few understand
You don't know my brain the way you know my name
You don't know my heart the way you know my face
You don't know what I've done
I'm wanted and on the run
I'm wanted and on the run so I'm taking this moment to live in the future
Release me from the present
I'm obsessing all these questions
Why I'm in denial that they tried the suicidal session
Please use discretion when you're messing with the message man
These lyrics aren't for everyone only few understand
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 2:37 PM UTC
She asked me "Son, when I grow old
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone
Will you take care of me?"
She asked me "Son, when I grow old
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone
Will you take care of me?"
I will make you queen of everything you see
I'll put you on the map
I'll cure you of disease
Let's say we up and left this town
And turned our future upside-down
We'll make pretend that you and me
Lived ever after happily
She asked me "Son when I grow old
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone
Will you take care of me?"
I will make you queen of everything you see
I'll put you on the map
I'll cure you of disease
And since we know that dreams are dead
And life turns plans up on their head
I will plan to be a *** so I just might become someone
She asked me "Son when I grow old
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone
Will you take care of me?
I will make you queen of everything you see
I'll put you on the map
I'll cure you of disease
Sep 23, 2016
Sep 23, 2016 at 2:28 PM UTC
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be know by you
I wanna be known by you
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be known by you
I wanna be known by you
Though I'm weak and beaten down
I'll slip away into the sound
The ghost of you is close to me
I'm inside out, you're underneath
I've got two faces
Blurry's the one I'm not
I've got two faces
Blurry's the one I'm not
I need your help to take em out
I need your help to take em out
Though I'm weak and beaten down
I'll slip away into the sound
The ghost of you is close to me
I'm inside out, you're underneath
Though I'm weak and beaten down
I'll slip away into the sound
The ghost of you is close to me
I'm inside out, you're underneath
Don't let me be gone
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be known by you
I wanna be known by you
Sep 23, 2016
Sep 23, 2016 at 2:12 PM UTC
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
I could be fake
I could stupid
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you
I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
On my own
Cause I can't take living with you
I'm alone
So I won't turn out like you want me to
You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
Dec 22, 2015
Dec 22, 2015 at 7:20 AM UTC
A summer breeze comes knocking again
I open up just to let in the sun
And all I hear are those fleeting tweeting notes they carry away
A half read book I place to the side
"Hey little guy, where on earth are you from" with a smile
And with me blindfolded I still know that it's 3 after noon
I know how simple this world it seems
And yes I know, that it's me who is weird
But even I have to wonder why I cant just be like the rest
And far away and out of their sight,
there is a house in the forest of trees hid away
And can you bet there no one crazy enough to stop by
Don't look in their eyes!
A heart so cold became ice, I guess that I wasn't able to make a friend
And all I see everyday can never be much more than a thing
The world outside there is made from pictures in books
So please could you forgive me thinking such terrible things
Will someone please let me see with my own eyes?
Long long long since before I was born
It's always been an inside out world but there was burning
Life inside me
I knew it'd never it'd never go out
Hey hey, when will that knock ever come?
I just cant wait to see what kind of future is out there
I'll wait to hear the sound
Knocking a beautiful call at my door
Dreams about what life would be like
As I stare faraway in a daze
And just then, I could hear soft calling of a voice in the wind
I take a leap back and knock down my tea
And of course, it's all over the desk
"What can I do?"
As I stare at the door without a thing in the way
"Don't look in their eyes...or they'll be turned into stone."
My parents always had earnestly told me this
And surely my eyes were to be treated in just the same way
And just as stories go, the people will run far away
But I don't blame them being way too afraid
The world was just not to love someone like me
Knock Knock Knock and the sound is loud
Although I'd never heard a knock upon my door so
I was so scared
Oh god I need to think straight
Hey hey, hearing a knock at my door
I never thought that I would ever hear such beating
And just so easily
It opened to leave me exposed and alone
And then finding me cowering hiding eyes away
That person was of course to be surprised
"Don't look in my eyes...petrified...you'll turn to stone"
I tried to speak but he just smiled back.
"I was just like you, I was scared of living life
so scared that I would turn completely stone
But living in a world where no one is ever scared,
now wouldn't that be nice?
Now now now, from a spark inside
I had imagined a new world for me to live in
Where they love me I feel it ringing out now
Hey hey, what does this world look like
I wanna know please tell me just how then can I get there
So if I'm ever lost
Hey will you search for me once again?
A summer breeze comes knocking again
Blowing the hood that you graciously gave
Let it blow as you finally see such a beautiful smile
Dec 12, 2015
Dec 12, 2015 at 8:14 AM UTC
We don’t need these unclean
Feelings are nothing
Any more, they’ll just bore a hole in me
Thinking we need to be
So happy, never gonna last
All you ask ends up in the trash
“All people are different” you say bluntly
Look at “Needing” and “Wanting” same seven letters
But what if you’re wrong and change it up to be
“We’re human” Whatever works to shut my mouth
Then why not write a book? Words and letters
To define it, definite answers to questions
How to live dealing with lots of things
Like when a boy and a girl want “pure relations”
All of the people crying from all the loneliness in their hearts
All of the people lying that they will understand every part
All of the people truly think that love is a thing we take
No one sees that we haven’t seen at all
No one can save the human race
Yeah we were late to see it’s really not a race
Go with the flow and just give in
You know we think the same ‘cuz changing is a pain
Messy things like emotions creep
Into the wall we call a heart made out of stone
Looking out for a scene like war
So unclean, ***** just keep away from me
Your sad little stories have been getting
Kinda tired, why do you just keep on talking?
They’re poking and joking and when they’re tired
No more happy or laughing, wait what just happened?
We’re worried and judging books by covers
Getting ready, enemy strikes will be coming
No brainer, the danger is in your head
Just tararari tarari tū papparapa
All of the people dying from all the greediness in their hearts
All of the people buying just to throw away every part
All of the people break and buy new love that’ll never last
“Can’t you see I need you or I’m alone”
Who can say, it ain’t that way
Yeah we all know egos are taking up the space
I don’t know, it may be true
Don’t wanna see the clean me dyed in ***** paint
Cool my brain and turn away
Don’t wanna look to see the mean hypocrisy
Why not cry until I’m fine?
Don’t wanna touch you please, just keep away from me
Pouring like a dream is the night overhead
Glowing ever hoping is morning again
Facing up ahead like you really don’t dread
“No wait. Stop pushing yourself to the edge.”
No one ever will treat me that way
Crying even dying a little each day
Thinking over again and again
Yeah I think I need it to all be clean
No I'm sure, can’t take seeing any more
No one can save the human race
Yeah we were late to see it’s really not a race
Drown in the flow of big ego
No way to take a breather if you cannot swim
Everyone knows, since long ago
We've been a selfish race with nothing more to show
Shutting my mouth, I’ll quit for now
I don’t know, ya know? This is bye bye
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 10:13 PM UTC
You my friend
You're a lot like them
So I cut your line
And you know I did
Now I'm lost in you
Like I always do
And I die to win
Cause I'm born to lose
Firefly
Could you shine your light?
Now I know your ways
Cause they're just like mine
Now I'm justified
As I fall in line
And it's hard to try
When you're open wide
Take my hand
We'll be off and then
We'll come back again
To a different land
Now I like this way
You can go away
If you guess the name
You cannot replace
Firefly
Could you shine your light?
Now I know your ways
Cause they're just like mine
Now I'm justified
As I fall in line
And it's hard to try
When you're open wide
Bring me your enemies
Lay them before me and
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away
Firefly
Could you shine your light?
Now I know your ways
Cause they're just like mine
Now I'm justified
As I fall in line
And it's hard to try
When you're open wide
F* you firefly
Have you lost your light
Now I hate your ways
Cause they're just like mine
So you've lost my friend
Such a sorry end
And now I don't know why
So I choke and smile
Smile
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 11:39 AM UTC