When life gives you a lemon
Make a lemonade, they said
As life gives us a chance, we should take it
But have you ever thought, why life is so sour?
Sugar, honey, caramel
Several sweets - yet life have given none
Have you ever thought life is a con?
Maybe once in a while, when life gives you lemons,
Throw them back
Maybe for once, when life gives you lemons,
Squeeze them into your enemies' eyes
Maybe next time, when life gives you lemons,
Give them to others
Maybe next time, when life gives you lemons,
Make a Martini
Clink
Mar 22, 2024
Mar 22, 2024 at 1:38 PM UTC
The sadness in me is leaking out,
it’s on my foe’s hand, my friends’ arm,
I cried and I cry,
once again, those tears did not slip away.
It’s harder to breathe but you know this time- you’ll stay,
but you don’t want to.
Holding your breath in for 4 - 7 - 8 they said,
I held it in for like a minute and my body fights it-
but my body didn’t fight the chemical on the top floor,
or actually, it’s perfectly normal.
I am just a plumber who blames the leaking of the tank,
when I am the one who broke the taps,
leaking all the sadness,
splashing the blue on everyone who comes close and closer,
Blue and bluer.
The colour blue I painted is me asking for help,
silent scream, so loud- into people’s eardrums.
But somehow those who came near always got betrayed,
because I am a waste of time, a renegade, a ******* thing that fades,
even though I listen to everything they said-
but the voices in my head sang in unison
‘you are no good, the least you can do is be a nice friend to those helping hand but you’re still a needy ***** who only knows how to take but never give back’.
and I replied ‘Yeah maybe that’s true, maybe that’s right’
That’s why I should have left.
Because the truth is that I am incredibly selfish and guilty.
I am trapped between choking to death with those toxins
or splashing it out to a loved one.
At the last moment- when I was suffocating to death;
I realized that I am gonna die- I desperately begged for someone to come near
I begged them to say, to stay, not to be away.
At the same time, the voices in my head are louder
Using my mouth as a speaker,
Mouthing all the words I don’t know whether I meant to say.
Deepen into the core, choking on loved ones.
Yet again, I look at myself in despair.
Yet again, I said the same old sorry as I meant it but it means nothing.
Yet again, I crossed all the lines, I broke all the rules.
Yet again, I am blue because I hurt my close one, my closet one, my lifeline.
But in the end, what hurts me the most
is the fact that I am just another one of the bad friends,
bad employee,
bad daughter,
and also
a waste of
human being.
My intention was to survive and be good but in the end,
my action was
baseless,
useless,
worthless even.
To those who were painted with my blue,
I am sorry-
I tried but I am too full of sorrow.
I never meant to hurt you but still,
I did.
Didn’t mean to dump the whole bucket,
but you’re still wet
But rest assured that those will soonly dry,
no stains,
cos’ I shouldn’t stay.
I am deciding whether I stay or I stray,
Whether I fight or flight,
Whether I pray or I prey,
Whether I ride or rhyme,
Whether I live or laugh or love.
Hahaha, that’s too cringe.
Because
in order to live,
I must hold it in,
I must stop leaking the blue,
Because
in order to laugh,
I either find joy in my life,
or just look back at this pathetic so-called content.
Because in order to love,
I must leave.
Leaving this town,
press stop on the ********
no more leaking the blues,
and rid me for good.
Because in order to continue this ride,
I must get better.
But here I am
rhyming the **** out of my feelings,
spraying the water that’s way too cold, it’s not chilling.
And nowadays, I pray for all of you now
because the wishes wouldn’t work for me
no more - I am too far.
I am a prey who prays and preys.
Lastly,
I am tired of the battle.
Thinking every day for a life
where I don’t have to fight
but it seems easier for me to flight.
Flight from all the circus,
the madness,
the_I-don’t-know-how-to-define or just call it life.
Flight from all of you,
my loved ones,
mon amies,
my best thing to ever happen to me
but have to bare me with a black dog that whispers my biggest insecurity
My biggest fear right now is that-
the sadness in me,
the sadness that is me.
The one that is eating me inside,
will crawl out,
eating up people I love.
Just to remind me I exist for no good,
to assure me to flight and to die.
This time, it’ll be for good.
This time, the tears will slip away.
and so will I.
Jun 7, 2023
Jun 7, 2023 at 8:58 PM UTC
I wonder,
Will I
be able to mention your name
like I don’t really know you,
just a character passing by
I wonder,
Will I
be able to mention your name,
without hearing it
echoing back
in the wind
through the mist
your name, my pain
your laugh, my gain
your tears and I’m bane
I wonder,
Will I
be able to stop
looking
for a stranger who knows
which smile
I’m faking
who knows
that my laugh
is lying
who knows
that I am
fading
I wonder,
Will I?
Apr 8, 2023
Apr 8, 2023 at 7:54 AM UTC
To be,
Or not to be
Without you,
Will there even be the idea of me?
Everything surrounds
scream blue
Your tenderness
Your messages
Your cassettes
Without your eyes,
I don’t think I can breathe
Does this heart of mine
get the right to remain silent?
Or can it beat, only for you?
To be,
Or not to be
Without you,
There wouldn’t be me
Oct 14, 2022
Oct 14, 2022 at 1:02 AM UTC
I cried too much today
I cried too much, much more to think that I will ever play
I cried too much, to the point that I want to pass away
I cried too much, I would sleep for more than a day
I stopped, I stood, I stuck
I tried but somehow didn't succeed
I did try, I really wanted to
or maybe I needed to, I yearn to
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 9:09 AM UTC
When you say that you're fine
but a part of you know that is a lie,
things killed you and you got one life from nine,
instead of telling, you spoke things you don't buy.
Cos' things happen and we all know,
cos' things **** something things blow,
cos' it hurts, you know but you don't show
cos' it's like you are in a dry desert and all you need is a drop of h2o
In a bit, you will cry while you pray,
but for now, you pretend that it's okay,
you act like you're fine, everything slays,
but inside you're screaming 'everything is a play'.
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 1:56 PM UTC
Sometimes, I asked myself:
Why did I laugh?
When that thing is hurting me,
It’s about to cut me into half.
Sometimes, I asked myself:
Why did I cry?
When things come out just fine.
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 12:50 AM UTC
How is it that no one concerns,
how is it having no one to turn,
how is it that now you have to feel the burn,
and not even one thing to earn.
I guess you are saying you haven't been wise,
saying sorry for not being nice,
saying sorry for being ****** twice,
because right now you have no way to rise.
At first I thought we might be fine,
it will end up with us be in a line,
but I guess there is no sign,
and all you can do is just whine.
Jun 24, 2017
Jun 24, 2017 at 10:59 AM UTC
I wish we don’t have to change,
I wish we don’t have to choose,
I wish we don’t have to lose,
I wish we never have to estrange.
I hope one day we would survive,
I hope we would be free like a kite,
I hope we would get out here alive,
I hope one day we would shine as light.
I wish one day I could be as good,
I hope I would not be misunderstood,
I wish one day I would be out of the wood,
I hope I would never say if I could.
Jun 24, 2017
Jun 24, 2017 at 10:46 AM UTC
cos' you shined so bright,
too bright,
and that's what made me blind.
so when you left,
I can't see anyone,
I can't even see you.
May 16, 2017
May 16, 2017 at 9:54 AM UTC