I’m split for time
So, offhand, here, I tip tap a rhyme
Dissecting and resembling
This Frankenstein text
Suffering, the ice of distance
Flagging the pole of our love
You’ve got a pull, no effort—enough!
Cursing the hailstorm that rains from above
And don’t get me started
See, I’m hardly smarting
Ice’s no price when you’re on thrice rejected
Yes, that’s no success
**** I’ve been there twice X neglected
—I’d guess you’d call that my best
So I turn from the possible
Down fantasy lane
Looking in the mirror at phantom me
Knocking on reflections, does it even have a name?
The ghost of the past made present with past pains
I swear these stains won’t come out
No matter how the tissue tears
No matter the boxes emptied out
Costco’s gonna need another round…
I shout into the silent replication
My reflected repetition
Distended, this pretender’s a sinner
Me? See, I’m a saint
And there’s no role for mercy
Hell, I’ll be thirsty when I’m thirty
And a little birdy told me you’re sturdy
So say hello to your pen-protector perfect nerd
Let’s curve the interrogation
Move on to you and I
Because honestly
I’ll lose if we get too far past “Hi.”
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 1:54 AM UTC
Talking
Always talking
Clock refusing to stop
Haggard chops cop slobber
Saliva’s dripping off
Bored exhalations
Mix
Mental ice
With
Warm air
Mere exposure
Drafting
Numb staring stupor
Sleepy
Waiting to hear
Friday night brew cheers near
Oh! There’s an hour cleared!
Closing on those last four
Funny
Hours I fling so freely
I most adore
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 6:09 PM UTC
This is real
This is true
I cut, reform, reshape for you
And though it hurts
With penknife sting
I hope one day
You'll accept this ring.
So trust me baby
Though I cause a fuss
I’ll work on past it
For the sake of us.
Lace my pain with percussive cussing
Swear care no matter how you fare
Taking turns, till, we in turn fail
End nearing, gasp through by breadth of hair.
So hold no breaths
And cry no tears
We’ll be there soon
Speak, breathe, forget your fears.
It's true our future’s cloudy
We're over 8 by 8 by 100 miles away
I daily **** up as you tuck in
Pledging, “Rest, I don’t jest figure eights.”
Numbers don’t matter.
And my senses, they’re surely wrong.
So why hold both eyes on you?
And ask the same for me, just as long?
It’s so we both go strain blind
Bind souls and minds together
Splatter glue hastily agreeing to this eternal song
Float handheld in this spaceless place
Disintegrating all the walls that fall upon us.
… Or those we need to walk through.
There, in fantasy, easily we go
Each kiss a taste of the love we share
That we only alone in our nakedness wear
It's clear I would put nothing on or over you
Or dare seek some other exchange
Because without this arrangement
There'd be nothing
Besides empty, pitted pangs.
Oct 22, 2017
Oct 22, 2017 at 9:54 PM UTC
I think our priorities are out of order
Shuffling, sick addicts chattering mad
Pushing boundaries and breaking borders
Every letter we type data to record
Corporations enslaving us all
Political establishment laughable at best
I hate to be yet another critic
But the optimists have fists
Shoved so far up their *****
The hand over their eyes is a mask
Blinding them to the cardboard cut outs
They watch so religiously
And don’t get me started on religion
Or how the Earth is literally on fire
Easily ignored, thanks to a finite life span
Such diatribes are easy
Sitting in a chair is easy
This is easy
We have it easy
Feeling uncomfortable is easy
But eventually
It’s gonna get hard
Really, really hard
Maybe for us
Maybe in a hundred years
(so relax, take another hit, no fuss)
As for me
I’ve always liked my pain before my play
So I'm dropping off the jungle gym
I have ankles to sprain
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 2:39 AM UTC
In the time before,
I was empty, miserable inside,
A wretch whose every smile was war,
Whimpering for a curtained place to hide.
The day, desolate;
Night, in its black stillness much the same.
Pitched pain, itching for an exit,
Legs set to cease the heaving hate and blame.
Now, I feel my heart
Beating love-blest power through my chest.
Before unfelt, its bucking start
Divests the owner, all along mere guest.
Symphony, rise, crest,
Condescend to my low-sighted view.
I sleep to wake, straight-up obsessed,
Eight letters and a period for you.
Careful now, don’t jest,
Lest my past peers profitable heist,
Dethroned selves sing out through the mesh,
Anguished, set to vanquish their sole poltergeist.
So, patch; never cease
Paragon of love’s delightful dawn,
Persisting for the barest piece
Of you, the whole of why I am not gone.
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 12:58 AM UTC
I push my body to its limits,
Then push my mind.
There are no limits.
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 8:38 PM UTC
The worse pain
One can feel
Is ripping the heart
From the one you love.
And crying.
Crying.
Just crying.
(How can there be so many tears?)
As their blood
(The blood you love)
(The blood you would exchange
One speck of
For oceans upon oceans
Of your own)
—Your blood—
Dribbles down your chin,
Dripping and dropping into the abyss
You have created.
You are the monster
Both of, and by,
Your own design.
Hell welcomes you as one of their own.
But you're getting away lightly.
What must their pain be?
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 5:56 PM UTC
The pineapple is the whole,
Whether in the ground
Or in your bowl.
Rock in hand; above, down, pound.
Crack the spiny hull.
Sweet juice is found.
Oct 6, 2017
Oct 6, 2017 at 10:40 PM UTC
I’m cocky, I’m clumsy,
Fumbling about everywhere;
Catching applause, dodging boos,
I am addicted to the fear.
Then, Cortisol spikes,
Please don’t leave me left alone again.
I’ve talked too long to Wall,
And it’s drips are dropping in.
From the lashes of my eyes
To my ten ice-tipped toenails,
I’m shivering, alone, destined to just—
—Warmth interrupts.
On my bed sits a Person.
I’m startled, taken aback.
I pressed end,
A new song began.
This person takes a gentle breath,
Blows it out light,
Expels all my demons.
A world's revealed, seems alright:
One where I don’t have to fight?
The binary: break through or break down?
Faking, then overtaxing, my mental might?
My complex analyses of everything,
—My foremost forte—
Was the invisible tangible holding me back.
How silly of me
To make power moves in a vacuum
At terminal velocity,
Until, by degrees, I was turned off track,
Distracted by these demented deals,
The fine print details that I needed, but lack,
And its back to the yard, then back to the—
—Warmth interrupts.
My Person takes my hand,
Pulls us back,
Till side by side
We lay.
I close my eyes,
And forget that wall,
Forget all those screaming caterwauls,
Forget the hate, the pain, the torture,
Though I still hear it call.
All it took was all there is,
Two hands clasped
In a bed for
One.
Sep 25, 2017
Sep 25, 2017 at 5:52 PM UTC
i've got the dark side of the moon
On its back, crescent-cut, undereye.
A sign of my exhaustion,
Which i use to fuel my rise.
Everything below but bare remembrance,
Like my fridge, running empty.
Or so i surmise.
Guess i'll fill it or guess I'll die.
This approach? Unsustainable.
i'm ragged, climbing through life,
The slope only slows, steepening,
i Think it's about time I fly.
Sep 25, 2017
Sep 25, 2017 at 4:50 AM UTC
