She's desired by millions
But acquired by losers
She's survived those losers
But she still has bruisers
Reckless in who she chooses
Stubborn and pain oozes
From the greatness that she callously
Disregards
For she is broken in the heart
Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 7:58 PM UTC
Why it's easier to cling to what you know
Well what you think you know
To let it go always wondering what could've been
I've been a-sin
I'm not proud
But I've grown thick of it
Lies were thin
And love won't win
I love you still
So you win
Jul 23, 2018
Jul 23, 2018 at 11:19 PM UTC
Closure
I deleted our chat
Cause I was mad
Then when I sobered up
I wanted it back
I wanted you back
I started a new
In the middle of the night
Only a few
Words by my side
Said I was sorry
You said you'll see
If you could forgive me
Then you told me about
You beating your meat
And sadly it was depressing
Now we're done again
And I can't delete
Cause I hold it dear
To reality
And I wanna weep
But I'm not a creep
Thanks so much
for everything you've done
This 2 am chat
Is where my clarity begun
Closure
Now I know ya
And it's over
Game over
Closure x
Apr 21, 2018
Apr 21, 2018 at 8:19 PM UTC
Sent you a letter
Saying just how I feel
Never knew anything more real
I've been telling you more
I've been telling you less
I've been getting depressed
Tears are useless
Nobody knows
Nobody understands
Nobody cares
Not even you
Nobody knows
Nobody understands
Nobody cares
Except Johnny Jack James
Jul 9, 2017
Jul 9, 2017 at 4:02 PM UTC
Blind sided
Literally
In the blink of an eye
In the whisper of one word
You can lose everything
Without seeing it coming
With or without a warning sign
Somebody can leave you behind
But thats the risk we take
Is it worth the break?
Jun 26, 2017
Jun 26, 2017 at 1:41 PM UTC
Its so strange
How he wasn't what i wanted
But he became all that i ever wanted
He saw a side of me the whole world was yet to see
He had a part of me that i barely knew was there
He made me feel alive
And as if he cared
He left me hanging
Holding on
But there was never any more
Just when I'm finally over him
He reappears again
and makes me want him again
He's out there taunting me again
Making me feel childish til the end
He's out there haunting me again
Making me glad that it all end
But then I'm lonely all again
Wanting him to hold me all again
I mean i pretend the others make me happy
But it just makes me feel ******
I never thought i'd hear from him again
And when I did
Got tingles again
The way he talks to me
With that control
And how he tries to show me the world
But he was only twenty six years old
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 7:21 PM UTC
He will never do anything the way you like
Do you argue or do you just not fight
He will never say the thing that's right
Do you move on or just not fight
He will never really know what it feels like
Do run away or do you stay and fight
He will never do everything right
Do run along or wait and find out
He will never do anything the way you like
Do you tell him that or just leave tonight
Jun 3, 2017
Jun 3, 2017 at 1:54 PM UTC
It feels good to feel this way again
It feels good to regret the things I say
It feels good to get ignored
It feels good to be assured
You're not relevant enough
So if i don't reply don't fuss
It feels good to find someone
Who even for a second
Seemed just right
Now the seconds over and its goodbye
It feels good to want to cry
It feels good to not know why
It feels good to feel this way again
And no I'll never be the same again
It feels good to laugh
Even if its at one self
It feels good to try
But worse when shot down
It felt good to feel this way again
And no I'll never be the same again
I'll never trust like i used to again
I'll never love like i used to again
I blame the boys who are allowed to play with our hearts
Dropping it on the floor breaking it into parts
I blame our hearts for being porcelain
And our fathers for not stayin'
But it felt good to feel that low again
Now i know i'll never feel again
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 8:40 PM UTC
You are complex
You are not all you seem to be
I thought I knew you
But you're a mystery to me
You are complex
You have layers and layers of truths
That I cannot seem to get through
You are a mystery to me
You are complex
I've spent hundreds of days
Trying to figure you out
But you hide so well
You are a mystery to me
You are complex
But I digress
Maybe that is your simplicity
That's my final guess
You are complex
And that is how I rest
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 7:22 AM UTC
Find the highest mountain
And climb it on my own
Find the perfect story to let the crickets know
It's been good and loved
Partially alone partially alone
It's been true to one love
Partially alone dancing on my own
Found the lowest point now
Dancing all alone
No one really hears you
Shouting out your side
Until the day goodbye
And everyone's on your side
Plummeting towards the ground
Few moments of peace is found
Looking at the clouds
Feel myself letting go
Of everything around
Moments of peace is found
Until the last aching sound
Moments of peach is found
Eternity of peace is found
May 16, 2017
May 16, 2017 at 9:48 PM UTC