Darkness
Here I am again
Standing in front of you
Head down
Blood dripping from my wrists
Why Did I leave..
You kept me alive
Immune from pain
of love and loss
Sheltered
Protected
Safe
Was it for the right reasons?
I took a chance
Walked away from you
I thought I could
Face what was thrown at me
I saw Death
Gave Life
Felt Pain
So Why Am I Here Again?
I dont want to feel
Anything negative that I feel now
The only thing i want to feel
Is Love.
May I?
So In trust
I return to the way
I was before
Just to feel that balance
Restore what was
No longer in balance.
Thank you
My guardian
My love
My friend
Forever by my side
Darkness
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 6:23 PM UTC
He sits before me
Pen and paper in hand
His eyes shifting
From side to side
"Thank you.."
Was all he could say
"You were following me"
Voice barely above a whisper
Was my response.
"Shall we begin?"
I asked
As I reached for the lamp switch.
Before I could turn it on
The lights were on.
As I looked at the man
I realized his features were different.
His skin was fair and flawless
His eyes were piercing green
"Yes we can get started."
He picked up the pen and waited
I spoke of my life
Births
Loves
Trials
Joys
Sadness
Regrets
As he wrote it all
He smiled and nodded.
Placing the pen down
He stood quietly
Before I could move
He was behind me.
Leaning close to my ear
He said "Ask me anything"
I froze
Feeling his breath on my neck
"When were you born into darkness and Why did you choose me?"
His response
" I am 400 years old. And I want a soul like yours to be mine."
So my interview was my death
And my rebirth
Into darkness
With my Immortal Love.
Aug 15, 2015
Aug 15, 2015 at 8:48 PM UTC
Sitting here
Alone with my thoughts
My emotions
One thing
I cant seem to shake
Is the feeling
Im losing you.
You have
Watched over me
Protected me
Love me
In such a way
Many cannot understand
But something lingers
In the darkness
Waiting for the right time
To pull me back
Back into its clutches
And keep me chained
Never to see you again.
Why does this happen
Why let me taste heaven
Happiness
In my loves arms
If you just
Are going to take it away
And condemn me
To walk this world alone.
I feel them closing in
And I know what they want
Bind me to you
Forever my love
Before I lose my way forever
Condemned to walk
In this mortal world
Forever searching
And Forever Alone.
Jul 3, 2015
Jul 3, 2015 at 8:43 PM UTC
You say
You remember
My face
You say
You remember
My touch
You say
You remember
My voice
So if you remember
All of that about me
Then tell me
Do you even
Remember my name?
Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 2:22 PM UTC
There comes a time
When I have to realize
How I truely feel
About things in my life.
I once thought
I was over things between us
You were happy at some point
When you didnt talk to me
Why am I not strong enough
To tell you move on
To let me go
It is like broken glass
Laying around me
Everytime I think of you
Hear your voice
Or read what you wrote
All those years ago
It is like a sharp stab
To my heart
As if the glass is entering my skin.
I feel I am not strong enough
To stay away
Everything about you soothes
This demon
That has engulfed my soul
It cowers in front of you
As you speak
Your voice like a lullaby to me
Saying I still love you.
I believe you.
But I am afraid.
Im afraid I am not Strong Enough.
Jul 9, 2014
Jul 9, 2014 at 4:59 PM UTC
Things happen for a reason
With no concern of the affect
I thought I moved on
But I see
I am just not over you.
We talked for days now
The old feeling came alive.
Everything hit hard
All at once.
I am just not over you.
I want to see where it leads
I want to see these feelings grow
But all these feelings
And desires
Proves
That I am just not over you.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 5:47 PM UTC
She walks alone in the darkness..
Her own solitude as her guide...
Her friends are the demons ...
Deep inside her mind....
her only hope is in her heart...
A promise to keep hope alive....
That makes her do everything...
Just to survive...
And yet it isnt enough...
She is trapped...
Alone in the darkness...
He tormented her...
His laugh echoed in her ears...
As she searched for a way out...
Hope seemed lost...
Until...
He came...
Her savior...
He found her...
In the shadows...
The glimmer of hope..
Shined in his eyes..
As he took her..
And held her close...
She walked in darkness..
But no longer alone..
He protected her..
His beacon of hope..
Her hope for the future..
The Archangel and his Shadow.
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 5:46 PM UTC
Remebering your voice
And the tone
The gentleness
Protectiveness
It started up again.
Why?
I was over you
I let go of you
I moved on without you
Why is this happening.
I wont turn again
I go forward
Not backwards
So make up your mind
Just please
Understand
What is past is past
I will be sure
It will
Never happen again.
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
You are nothing
You are pathetic
You are worthless
You are a mistake
You are an idiot
You are a fool
To think someone would love
one such as you...
Being told these things everytime
Makes anyone feel low
And makes them feel
Like they truely
A Waste of Space.
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 1:33 AM UTC
I remember
The day
My lonely
Journey
Of pain and misery
Began
It was the day
I walked away
From one
Who meant
The world to me
He made me feel
Whole.
Thirteen years
Has passed
And I cannot fill this void
Deep in my heart
My soul yearns for yours
Even far away
From you hurts my heart
My tears try to wash
The pain from the broken heart
Only to fill the ocean
Of sadness.
I want to sink beneath
Its waves
But I feel you next to me
Unwilling to let go.
"I will not let go..."
Until the two halves
Are reunited
My world will remain
Half asleep
As I will be
Incomplete.
Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 7:09 PM UTC