Sometimes I wonder if my ambition is too much. The word success is what I eat for breakfast, dinner, and lunch. I breath goals and unknown destinations. Roads that lead in different directions. I Hope for opportunities that lead me one step closer to a dream worth holding. I've lost people I've known my entire life due to my selfishness. Or maybe it was my intent motivation. So maybe one day once I've reached my destination we can all reunite as one to talk about our accomplishments.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 4:27 AM UTC
Without a promise in this cold world
You carried me
9 months without guarantee for
What the future held
You believed in me before I could
Believe in myself
The core of my soul all started with your love
You reading me books as you as you
Rocked in the rocking chair
You put your life behind you
Just to give me a chance
To see a life worth living
A life that you felt you didn’t have yourself
Without a promise in the world
You raised me for 18 years
Not knowing what the future held
You taught me how to be a woman
How to value my true self
Raised me like a Queen because you
Showed me royalty and loyalty
I can’t ever show you my gratitude
There is not enough gold or money
In the world to pay you back
Now you have a promise in this world
I will always love you I will never abandon you
Because there is no greater bond than
What a daughter has with her mother
No one will ever replace you in my
Heart my memory or my soul
I know God exists
I see it through your energy
Your courage your strength
Your giving nature
Your will to carry on and live life
To leave the past behind you
And to see a brighter path
You give me strength to be the
Best I can be
No matter what I accomplish
You will always be
The best part of me
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 7:43 PM UTC
There's this secret I've been holding on to for far too long
It makes my heart heavy
like a bridge with a ton of cars.
My heart is in a cage surrounded by bars
as my heart gnawed trying to break free
Sometimes I found myself filled with dismay at all the chances
I had to speak but I didn't have the
courage to say because I was weak.
I've been in love with you for 4 years and I hope that you feel the same way.
But it's a little to late now to know
because you're resting in peace...
Since you've been gone I've learned to tell
people how I truly feel and to not wait so **** long..
Mar 16, 2014
Mar 16, 2014 at 9:50 AM UTC
It's a Sunday night and you
watch the stars shine so bright
getting lost in them that it makes
your life seem alright for the moment
when your eyes leave the sky reality strikes and
you're back to that hell hole of a life where dreams
continue to die
Sometimes its had to get by day by
day with a fake smile on your face
in love with the darkness because no
one can relate
Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain.
Even to just relieve the pain
I dream of happiness, a life without pain,
but everyday it's a shame
life is short and very frail.
living in a world filled with
changes each and everyday
Every year i hope for a change
that never comes
I don't know when to let go.
All I know is I'm in it for the journey,
To give me more and more.
I believe more in my heart than my mind.
That i'll have that dream and be happy again
Jan 20, 2014
Jan 20, 2014 at 12:21 AM UTC
Life is a mysterious journey
From the cradle to the grave
We don’t know what happens after death..
We have feelings,emotions and longings
but we are nobody’s belongings
Everyone should transform to old age
In the end feels depressed and alone
The rain sprinkles our heart
We are a part of nature’s art
We should enjoy the beauty of nature
We relish every aspect of her feature
Writing poetry is a great art
It should touch our hearts
Our life span may be short
But we should make it smart
Our life on earth is not permanent
We should believe that it is transient
We don’t know when our life ends
One day the e-mail God sends
We should open it gracefully
We will have lived our life meaningfully
Dec 31, 2013
Dec 31, 2013 at 4:25 AM UTC
You taught me the truth & how to be like someone else
other than myself. its strange how i cant find the words
in my head to describe the feelings i felt
I've known you my whole life so why can't i do so ?
Everyday i grow from obstacles I've faced learning
things at first i couldn't relate now i know faith is how
i live victoriously.
The words that I've been looking for
Were found among my tears
But I've quickly wiped them all away
And hidden them for years
will my demons hide from you? just look at who
i have become i'm so ashamed you were the one
that made me feel the way i do
You've sealed my lips with a thousand kisses
Kisses I didn't deserve, Wishes that never came true
Voices that weren't heard because you failed to listen
Truth is you were twisted..
I wanted to tell you a million times
But every time i looked into your eyes
I couldn't find the nerve
I know now that looks can be
deceiving and misleading
Dec 27, 2013
Dec 27, 2013 at 1:52 AM UTC
They say "A picture's worth a thousand words,"
and it's true.
Pictures tell of things that happened.
They tell emotions, struggles and missing pieces to puzzles
They catch you in your truest form and
you cannot lie,
not then or now,
because pictures never die.
Pictures are too clear sometimes--
Too harsh, revealing details
We left blurred in our minds.
A picture is a freeze in time;
Words, that can't be spoken.
But the one thing I like the most,
Pictures don't lie...
You can't hide your feelings in a picture.
And you can't lie to the camera.
So many memories from this life
And some will be forgotten but they're
a time in the past because pictures always last
Dec 25, 2013
Dec 25, 2013 at 3:18 AM UTC
This anguish is so unreal. I forgot it was there.
I never needed anything as badly as I need to stop this.
My thoughts running astray, my mood grey.
You calling me names, saying i was insane.
I'm so scared of myself now.
What could i do next ?
I drink for different reasons but
the outcome is always hell
I need to relax but my thoughts keep reeling back
To the end of the night.
Screaming at you? I wasn't even angry.
Just under the influence blankly
alcohol makes you see the world
as it is in truth, and what you see in its absence.
I'm sorry I scared you, too i had no clue..
Dec 24, 2013
Dec 24, 2013 at 11:55 PM UTC
My mind never sleeps my thoughts defeat me.
I just need some sleep.
my head spinning round and
round like a merry go round.
how do you sleep with a broken heart when
the one you want is so far gone?
Thoughts control my emotions leaving
me open. My mind is effortless it
leaves my breathless. its amazing how our
hearts and minds work.
A wonderful creation of art graven.
We all have the same functions
but different conjunctions.
When the mind never sleeps
the soul slowly departs the body
leaving an empty shell where once a
person dwelled.
Sometimes i feel like my life is a dream.
At 3 am i'm tossing and turning laying
restlessly..
Hoping one day i'll finally wake up and be stress free.
Dec 21, 2013
Dec 21, 2013 at 1:05 AM UTC
I don't know what to do anymore.
I always feel so sore.
Like someone is stepping on my heart.
Or piercing me with a thousand swords
That empty feeling in my heart wasn't always
there until i believed your words
i let you into my life, knowing **** well
i shouldn't have opened those doors
People always make me feel so ******
Do i look like i want your pity?
Forgiving isn't so easy, so why do you think
you should have me again completely ?
My hatred is in my eyes
Which causes me to see through your lies.
Dec 16, 2013
Dec 16, 2013 at 9:26 PM UTC