Her vanity ;
Used eyeliners
Polished golden rings
diamond watches still ticking
Her favorite oud scents still preserved in their boxes
Pocket sized pictures of us as kids framing the mirror ,
Her vanity
Doesn't know
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 9:38 PM UTC
Oh i forgot to say ;
It was a lie
I never got over you
I couldn't love you less
It just never happened and
I'm not sorry for the lie that kept you close .
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 9:27 PM UTC
The corners of her mouth tuned ,
Slowly pressed her cheeks and revealed her teeth .
In her eyes was a glint that made my mind blink rapidly ,
It silenced and paused our surroundings .
They’re nothing but haze now
Setting a series of ripples across the calm waters of my chest
A rush that is shredding my soul
yet embracing it with warmth
As I reach the crest of whatever that was
I can see myself in the reflection
Of her eyes ,
scattered in denial that a simple curve of her lips was an allure
That draw me into her.
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 6:04 PM UTC
Before I close my eyes and surrender in peace you should know,
That I never liked the color grey till I met you.
And snowflakes never interested me .
Drawing used to consume my time
And writing was just a remedy.
Love seemed wicked
And friendship temporary.
I hated people
And my secrets were just mine .
I lived restrained in my own mental
Bars that I've locked myself behind
You bent the metal and held my hand out.
To find a beautiful world of us.
now i leave it all to you
And close my eyes.
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 6:46 AM UTC
I would want to spend my every minute with you,
I would rather read the expressions of your face than do to a book.
Count the freckles on your back than do to a star .
Hold your hand than do to a warm cup of coffee on a frozen night.
I would want you to spend your every minute with me,
But none can .
You cant because you're with her
And i cant because
You smile when you say you love her.
So i will read my book closely and imagine your expressions closer,
I will count the stars as if they were your freckles and the night's your back under the dim light
And
I will hold the cup of coffee and pretend its yours .
I will smile when you tell me you love her .
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 3:58 PM UTC
Told her life's a river ,
Water keeps running
And even dead fish follow the stream.
She said,
Life's not a river it's a ******* ocean ,
With its storms
Depths
Currents
And tides
You just have to ride the waves.
But still I felt floating on a water surface and everything seems so dark.
Apr 23, 2014
Apr 23, 2014 at 1:35 PM UTC
A five hundred piece puzzle is what I am . and i never get the will of solving my self out because there's only 499 pieces of me.
Till i found you, i found the missing piece.
I am five hundred again.
I still haven't got my pieces together but you can call me complete.
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 7:13 AM UTC
For the first time, i saw you
And i wish I didn't
because ,
I wish i sat closer to you
held your hand
hugged you
talked more
looked in your eyes
Or even felt your arms around me
I wish I thought of me
Or considered my own feelings
I didnt
I put you ahead of me
I wanted to see you smile
Even though im hurting me
I saw your eyes sparkle
I saw it in your words
And the tremble in your voice
You kept your gaze on her
When I just wanted a proper goodbye
But i walked away either ways
I knew it never would be me
And if we went back
I know that I'll always place you ahead and me behind.
Cause No matter what the cost was
i wanna see you smile.
I know it never will be me .
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 12:03 PM UTC
Don't talk to me .
I'm insane
i want something then i don't
i can't tell if i love you or i don't
its killing me to not know what i want
its like I'm detached in a way or another
im me but then I'm another who stands in my own way
im confident today and I'd go **** in front of you but just a few seconds later I'm covered all in black arms wrapped around my chest insecure
i can talk a lot and be all over the place and on that same day be gloomy sad and have teary eyes
am i me ? or am i that other person ?
I'm always on a struggle to know me
but i never figure me out
i've reached the point of not trusting myself
because I just don't know
what's wrong ?
My mom thinks I'm crazy
my dad thinks I'm still a teenager
my sisters don't respect me
and my friends find me weird
my closest friends think I'm mysterious
and I ? well I think I'm .
I don't know what I am
let me ask her .
why ? because somewhat i found that she's that one person
that helps me get rid of my demons
oh yeah haven't i mentioned them ?
they're about as many as the hairs growing off your skull
and **** do they talk !
I don't fight them I'm tired of it
and i've fallen many times trying to
but now their noise kind of is my silence .
I don't know your type of silence .
yes I do put a dot after every sentence you know why ?
because Im afraid the words get unleashed .
there has to be a stopping point for them
because if not then i don't know .
I'm dying or maybe I'm dead .
why do i not know why am i struggling
maybe its just me
maybe its just me
maybe its just me
its just me
its just me
me
me
me
me
I don't know me
i never will
i give up
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 3:34 PM UTC
Funny that
I don't feel jealous ,
I don't crave your kisses ,
I don't miss your hugs or gentle touch ,
I don't need your calming voice ,
and certainly don't need you every single day.
Pathetic that
I try to make myself believe
that it is funny .
But
I am jealous
I crave your kisses
I miss your hugs and gentle touch
I need your calming voice
And certainly need you every single day .
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 2:40 PM UTC