I always made an effort
To make everything perfect
You sat alone
Driving in your own zone
Blocking my voice with your headphones
Stripping skin off my bones
Leaving me to freeze in the cold
Helped me make my gravestone
Controlled me like a clone
Around you, I was never free
I always loved you more
Then you did me
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:14 PM UTC
Turned it off
Again
I will not turn it back on
That part of me is gone
I do not believe in love
I do not believe in happily ever after
I am stone cold
It is better this way
At least I do not have to run away
Believe it or not
This is my one shot
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:12 PM UTC
I'm lying
To keep me upright
Waiting for the encore
Just opening the door.
Help Myself
Help Yourself
Why are we so confusing
In the end, we are the only people losing
We got to keep on living this lie
As long as we are alive
Until we die
We will not lose hope
But we will lose our minds
We terrified inside
Of what is fated
Between this long blurry endless lines.
People can see
That we are not as happy as can be
They always ask me
They always ask you
"Who are you into"
"Nobody"
We are torturing ourselves emotionally
Mentally
"I am so sorry"
We tell ourselves along the way
But we never change
The glances we engage
"I will do it today"
We say
But we never do
What's new?
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:12 PM UTC
You said "you hurt me"
Well sorry to break it to you
You hurt me too
You can't unsee the truth
Stop sugarcoating
You can't ignore it
There is no fix
Etched in our minds
Forever
Till the end of time
Don't be so clever
Trying to play your games
I know all your aims
I know you are incapable of sharing the blame
I know you better than you know your name
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:11 PM UTC
Baby, you want me out
So you scream and shout
Baby, you want me now
So you dream and pout
Make up your mind
Knowing what you want isn't a crime
At least don't string me along
There's a half and half chance you will be wrong
But if you pick right, we will be dancing in a song
Going far into the beyond
I just need a response
I know it's scary to be strong
If you fall
We fall together
Just give me a call
Love like ours can not measure
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:11 PM UTC
I love it when you just don't care
I love it when you kiss me like nobody's there
When it gets hard
You are never afraid
You never care what society says
I love it when you do what you want
Even if they said no
Even if later on
They said I told you so
Maybe you should have listened to them
I hate that you just don't care
You should have stopped kissing me right then and there
When it gets hard
You should be afraid
You should care what society says
Run away from me
Run the other way
I hate it when you do what you want
Even if they said no
Even if later on
They said I told you so
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:10 PM UTC
You twirl me around in your arms
Lift me up in the sky
Feeling so high
You exceeded my expectations
I didn't know about the consequences
Like how broken I would feel
When you left me
The tears running down my face
Becoming as fragile as a vase
Every step I take
Would remind me of all the memories
I can never erase
Even after all these years
No matter how much you hurt me
We can never become enemies
No matter how much we argue
I will always remain in love with you
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:10 PM UTC
You haven't killed me
But I cry
Every night
I'm only half alive
I am so close to breaking
You have taken everything
I have nothing left
You convinced me I am a deadly sin
I will never be the same
I guess that was your aim
Broke me down shamelessly until I couldn't bear the pain
Filled with nothing but shame
Who's to blame
You?
Or me?
Who followed you blindly
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:10 PM UTC
Somebody, please send me a message
Listen to my cries of help
I need someone now
Standing aside from the crowd
Entirely alone
Stripped from my throne
Flying aimlessly like a drone
I can not do this anymore
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:09 PM UTC
Suddenly your name on my phone
Doesn't make me smile anymore
Brings back all the memories
Of the pain and the hurt
And how I am the one to blame
You wanted to help
I pushed you away
Left you wondering why you ever called me babe
I was the worst decision you could ever make
The feelings of guilt I can never shake
If only you hadn't jumped in front of that truck
On the freeway
If you didn't get in the way
You wouldn't have to pay
Forever on a holiday
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 2:09 PM UTC