Leave a flower
in a *** too small
it will never reach
its full potential...
Put a woman
on a pedestal
incarcerated by your
unrealistic expectations
She will mature-
chase her curiosity
expand her horizons
She will continue her
never- ending pursuit
to be the women she knows
in her heart
she is meant to be.
She is burdened with the guilt
of failing to live up to
your fantasy...
But she will also grow
vexation
exacerbation
bitterness
and eventually resentment-
for you!
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 9:48 AM UTC
I know the emptiness
-after a long trying day-
coming home to
absolutely no one.
I know the insatiable longing
to share good and bad
as free time is filled
with reruns.
I know the regrets
of a past filled
with lovers come
and gone.
I feel the hunger
that can drive one
down reckless and
very dead ends.
I understand the
holes in a soul
that often feels
more lost than found.
Emptiness, longing, regret, hunger and holes
are in my mirror
everyday.
That's why we are friends -
your mirror reflects
the same...
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 1:10 PM UTC
It's not your looks, your wit
your walk or
your talk -
You're danger!
For the unaware
with unencumbered hearts.
Causalities-
of your boyish charm!
Disguising what should be
a heart
but instead -
is a skull and cross bones.
Poison!
No reciprocation-
your shell of a soul
has been left
devoid,
vacuous,
unavailable.
For She who lies, deceives-
manipulator extraordinaire!
Holds your heart captive
and you-her schlemiel-
poor you -
are but a proxy
of the man
you could be -
you used to be-
reduced to
a living, breathing
heartbreak-
simply waiting to befall
poor fools
like me.
Nov 5, 2018
Nov 5, 2018 at 5:18 PM UTC
The final gift-
That goes unspoken...
Don't tell me about it MOM!
But it would be worse
If I left it all up to you four...
When you open that box
You need only make a call
All information
(t)'s crossed
(i)'s dotted
Done!
paid for
complete.
Don't cry for me - my time is done
Enjoy the Johnny Walker Blue
Patron (Gran)
and two bottles of wine I've left for you.
This isn't morbid
It is a necessity
My final gift of love
for all of you!
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 1:20 PM UTC
Another every day,
feed the dogs
go to work
return home.
Paint, video gaming
return emails...
Another everyday.
Remember to eat
do laundry
shop for food (you don't eat)
Another everyday.
Hide behind the smile
Be polite to strangers
professional at work
Another everyday of denying the pain
caused by the hole only you can fill.
Deny the longing
Deny how much I miss
your smile
your touch
The very smell of you.
Just another everyday
...without you!
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 9:09 AM UTC
Don't pity the broken doll,
ravished by
time
pain
and scars...
Her heart is not unscathed
It too carries
hurt
wounds
misery...
Those who judge by what they see
will never know the beauty forged
beneath the broken shell.
Therein lies a heart convinced
love exists.
The one who isn't a Knight
devoid of shining armor.
One who too - has survived
the chaos we call life...
These hearts will meet!
That is her hope
That is her dream
Until that day she persists-
On the strength born of pain...
Oct 31, 2017
Oct 31, 2017 at 9:10 AM UTC
Where are the heroes?
The men of stout heart
fearless!
willing to
pick up and carry
the mantel of the weak-
unable to fend for self?
Where are the men that know how to love?
bravely and unabashedly?
Those with no need
to lust after any woman
that feeds a fragile ego?
Is the concept of a hero
just a fantasy?
A Disney ideal?
Is the only prince
the one with four legs
you carefully choose from the litter
and carry home so lovingly?
Are the acts we see of heroism
the accidental conduct
of an over-inflated ego
cloaked in self righteousness?
Seen through the lens of rose colored glasses
Why must my faith in heroes
die painfully in the sea of disappointment-
while desperately clinging to the hope that
maybe
just maybe-
this guy is for real?
Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 1:33 PM UTC
Your face adorns my TV screen,
the annoying ads between episodes...
Just when I believe I've shaken your spell
There must be something between us.
Your voice sends chills
my heart skips a beat
with nothing but your image,
a digital reproduction of a love long forgotten-
There must be something between us!
So my eyes turn to home
moving so very far away
from your image
your reputation
your presence on my TV
and I realize what must be between us....
There must be something between us-
even if it is only-
about 1500 miles!
Mar 9, 2017
Mar 9, 2017 at 1:50 PM UTC
Once you fall victim
to a thief of hearts
You desperately hope
That this is
real
kismet
soulmates....
Of course-
when the deed is done -
in the wake of lies
you are left with...
painful memories
broken promises
the inability to trust
and far too often -
a shattered life.
Soothing the pain you find excuses
and wrongly blame self.
But know dear heart-
it is not you!
No one can fill an insatiable ego!
The thief is a collector
in feeble attempts to fill a void...
A black hole that existed long before you
and will continue long after
they have drained your life force!
The best we can hope for
is that one day
the thief will acknowledge
the pain and havoc they reaped
in a life wasted on selfish desires.
And if you are really one of the fortunate
you will get a heartfelt apology...
but don't hold your breath!
Jan 25, 2017
Jan 25, 2017 at 8:48 AM UTC
You are the brightest
and most talented
I guess the word is gifted
young woman.
If brains were all we needed
to successfully navigate
this world -
I'd have no worries,
for you, my dear -
would have it made.
But it takes more than brains
For happiness,
security
love...
God knows, if I could
wrap up all the goodness
in the world,
I would place it on your doorstep.
The most wondrous present ever!
But I can't.
Your brains will open doors,
afford you many opportunities-
But you must find the courage
within yourself
to take the risk!
Life isn't easy,
well planned
or organized...
It is chaotic.
Twists and turns
Ups and downs
plans that never seem to work out
and yet - they always do...
Maybe not the way we plan-
but they do.
Trust yourself
Love yourself.
Don't look for others
to define who you are.
People will always disappoint-
we are only human...
Simply know I am with you in spirit,
now and forever.
You are a bright spot
in an old heart
who was ever so briefly reminded
of the daughter
I never had....
Dec 25, 2016
Dec 25, 2016 at 9:19 AM UTC