
When I start writing
I feel like It'll never end
sobbing my way through it
all the way, until the end
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 2:48 PM UTC
I watch her as she cries
and as she sinks to the floor
she sobs herself to sleep
reminds me, shes so much like me
of course she is,
she is my mother
But mother's love,
and care
and don't abuse their daughters
i wonder why she does
why she does just that
because she knows i hate the pain
inflicted on my calve
We are so much alike
i just noticed that
both childhoods ruined by eachother
when she was seventeen
she had me
now Im 13
pain crashing through my body
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 2:45 PM UTC
We’re separated,
treated like toys.
We’re confisticated,
they think they’re one of the higher boys.
To be so stereotypical,
is nothing to be proud about.
To be so hypocritical,
is something you shouldn’t carry out.
We cry for justice,
in need of help.
We can't ride on busses.
all we do now is yelp.
We can’t drink water at just any fountain
they think they’re higher than the tallest mountain.
We can’t eat food at just any counter
but they don’t realise they’re just regular old towners.
We’re like people who by law,
are supposed to feel left out.
So many mistakes and flaws,
need to be fixed, no doubt.
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 2:34 PM UTC
They're judgemental
They assume to much
misunderstanding my actions
They dont know what ive lived through
dont know what ive done
dont realise im in pain
assuming they know everything bout me
assuming they know why i cry
assuming that lifes good
they know nothin bout me
judging me by my actions
thinking they know why i do what i do
when u called me a terrorist
my cousin died of a terrorist act that day
But you didnt know that
Cuz u know nothin bout me
When I wanted to die
You said that i was crazy
When I ran away
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 12:40 AM UTC
One chilly autumn night,
her mother struck her with a knife.
Tears pouring down her face,
blood gushing with all its strength.
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 1:04 AM UTC
When she was born
Her mother wished the world,
had collapsed that day.
AS she grew up
Her mother would hit her
Swearing she would **** her, one of these days
She fought the anger
lived the pain
listened to all the sadness
She was neglected
like an abused dog
She was hurt
with a black hole in her heart
She felt unimportant
so she couldn’t live
She tried so hard
as hard as she could go
But she couldn’t do it,
couldn’t take it
and still can’t
live the pain anymore
So she tried
with a knife
with a rope
She tried so hard to die
Get it over with
She would say
Your not needed anyway
Until
Her mother was pregnat
A baby in her womb, a girl
Maybe people did need her
But she was still strong
A surviver
fighting anything that came her way
A warrior
going through all that pain
Her sister was born
Grandpaents in America
Friends by her side
LIfe was good
Until
One chilly autumn night
Her mother struck her with a knife
Blood gushing with all its streinghth
Tears pouring down her face
The world truly ended that day
To her
All the love
Gone
All the hope
****
Replaced with
crying over sleep
Depression over sleep
Permanet scars for life
Her childhood takin away that day
Her happiness erased
LOve was expired
And as she sits here writing this today, (3/6/14)
a mix of emotions fill her up
crying
Cause’ everythings changed
Shes expired
NO use for anybody anymore
not wanting to believe it
but knowing its true
they make it clear nowadays
screaming
hitting
throwing things at her
teasing her
never ending hate
its all stupid
the way she thinks of it
People cry when they listen to her story
hug her
kiss her
tell her they care
tell her they love her
she wants to believe it’but its not true
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 1:02 AM UTC
Do I even matter anymore?
to anybody
I’ve been peoples firsts
and their last
First friend
first love
Last person to see
Last person to care about
Could they care less?
Nope
cuz theres nothing to care about
just a poor helpless girl
abused
depressed
suicidal
unwanted
unimportant
not needed
if only they knew
everything
but they don;t
cuz nobodys got time for that, right?
sitting here
writing this today
staring at my fiingers typing
scarred
stabbed
scratched
these hands don’t mean anything
hands of hers
abused
suicidal
why do i care so much
why me?
why am i so caring?
Mar 14, 2014
Mar 14, 2014 at 11:38 PM UTC