sarko - Hello Poetry

lsd vision made sad streetlights sparkle green morphed rivers into mountains it seemed we walked 100 miles in less than 5 minutes and lived 100 lives none of which survived oh how things change and how trauma has aged my bones

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Feb 11, 2021

Feb 11, 2021 at 10:07 AM UTC

green scenery

lsd vision made sad streetlights sparkle green morphed rivers into mountains it seemed we walked 100 miles in less than 5 minutes and lived 100 lives none of which survived oh how things change and how trauma has aged my bones

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i don’t grasp how time works hours go so slow months blur into years almost suddenly maybe i’ll grow into this loneliness maybe it'll drive me mad like black mold hell i’m already mad i’ve thought about you for 1,825 days, or something like that i did the math last night i suffered body aches but not in the coronavirus way i let someone new hold me while the thought of you crushed me it’s painful, hard to open up most days, massive effort to leave home the anxiety ridden world barely turns still i struggle to keep up i just get high and listen to the National remember how i used to cry to you, about poetry? and now everything is a memory that i keep alive through bias and unwarranted feeling none of it could ever make sense i almost touched you in my fever dream last week and i said i wouldn’t get ****** in

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Feb 1, 2021

Feb 1, 2021 at 7:43 PM UTC

ELI5: time

i don’t grasp how time works hours go so slow months blur into years almost suddenly maybe i’ll grow into this loneliness maybe it'll drive me mad like black mold hell i’m already mad i’ve thought about you for 1,825 days, or something like that i did the math last night i suffered body aches but not in the coronavirus way i let someone new hold me while the thought of you crushed me it’s painful, hard to open up most days, massive effort to leave home the anxiety ridden world barely turns still i struggle to keep up i just get high and listen to the National remember how i used to cry to you, about poetry? and now everything is a memory that i keep alive through bias and unwarranted feeling none of it could ever make sense i almost touched you in my fever dream last week and i said i wouldn’t get ****** in

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i guess, some parts of pain we cling to like dusky upstate nights me, you, streetlights marijuana and dollar scratch offs in parking lots 2 broke ******** gambling for more than that which their love could afford kinda sad, i don’t write like i used to but i don’t bleed that way either and we don’t talk anymore for good reason. that will never change

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Jan 16, 2021

Jan 16, 2021 at 4:08 PM UTC

stuck in the waste

i guess, some parts of pain we cling to like dusky upstate nights me, you, streetlights marijuana and dollar scratch offs in parking lots 2 broke ******** gambling for more than that which their love could afford kinda sad, i don’t write like i used to but i don’t bleed that way either and we don’t talk anymore for good reason. that will never change

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the chill has set in i start to feel lonely like i did back then but what im missing? it’s different. i don’t miss you. i miss a past self- someone you never knew ive come to terms that love can be riddled with abuse i no longer miss such darkness Russell, i refuse

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Nov 21, 2020

Nov 21, 2020 at 11:17 PM UTC

October is over

the chill has set in i start to feel lonely like i did back then but what im missing? it’s different. i don’t miss you. i miss a past self- someone you never knew ive come to terms that love can be riddled with abuse i no longer miss such darkness Russell, i refuse

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ur lies breed like bacteria i’m not fixated on what’s real anymore i know i can’t get that from u i go motion to motion don’t wanna feed into ur massacre i’m impartial but still afflicted guess loves contagious silent killer

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Jul 29, 2019

Jul 29, 2019 at 9:46 PM UTC

yep

ur lies breed like bacteria i’m not fixated on what’s real anymore i know i can’t get that from u i go motion to motion don’t wanna feed into ur massacre i’m impartial but still afflicted guess loves contagious silent killer

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**** im putting you through hell refusing to see the human in you refusing to believe anything at all yet you’re strength i mean: you are strength you compensate for my lack thereof ive crashed into you for 3 years now a recurring tidal wave fell for your addict eyes long ago love the clean ones just the same you are my memories you’re everything in me you’re the courage i’ve found recently i don’t give you enough credit.

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Jun 17, 2019

Jun 17, 2019 at 2:20 AM UTC

i don’t give you enough credit.

**** im putting you through hell refusing to see the human in you refusing to believe anything at all yet you’re strength i mean: you are strength you compensate for my lack thereof ive crashed into you for 3 years now a recurring tidal wave fell for your addict eyes long ago love the clean ones just the same you are my memories you’re everything in me you’re the courage i’ve found recently i don’t give you enough credit.

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let’s watch history repeat itself we know the song and dance by now i’ll push you away with contorted hands let the delusions block me out i’m never satisfied, it’s the ******* truth addicted to attention, obsessed with you but my expectations are always too **** high & it’s impossible to see me through love’s nothin but a pathetic joke built to erode what did i try to preserve even roses decompose i’m in pain just a silhouette lately yea i’m listening to elliott smith crying what did you ******* expect

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Jun 7, 2019

Jun 7, 2019 at 12:43 AM UTC

Hm?

let’s watch history repeat itself we know the song and dance by now i’ll push you away with contorted hands let the delusions block me out i’m never satisfied, it’s the ******* truth addicted to attention, obsessed with you but my expectations are always too **** high & it’s impossible to see me through love’s nothin but a pathetic joke built to erode what did i try to preserve even roses decompose i’m in pain just a silhouette lately yea i’m listening to elliott smith crying what did you ******* expect

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here i am attempting to love dead; mourning past life life before your words lacerated my throat like a sharp knife before you claimed to love the girl behind these crazy eyes before i was confined to a bed of nails and broken lies i have no choice anymore your love is but a show and i beg for the encore there was so much left for our brains to explore but trust has been shattered and our hearts are at war

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Nov 28, 2018

Nov 28, 2018 at 1:54 AM UTC

i give up

here i am attempting to love dead; mourning past life life before your words lacerated my throat like a sharp knife before you claimed to love the girl behind these crazy eyes before i was confined to a bed of nails and broken lies i have no choice anymore your love is but a show and i beg for the encore there was so much left for our brains to explore but trust has been shattered and our hearts are at war

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don’t even know what i want anymore, writing poems in your notebook on my apartment floor opened my soul to you like i've never done before you roamed its empty hallways then you slammed the front door and now you beg me to let you back in does your love ever end or begin? i don't want to be stuck on what could’ve been but i'm exhausted from repenting for every sin i’ve run out of ways to numb the pain when you're gone from my life i smell your scent in the rain all i wanted was my freedom but you're a ball and chain all i wanted was pure love but this one's driving me insane

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Nov 17, 2018

Nov 17, 2018 at 6:40 PM UTC

p(ur)e love

don’t even know what i want anymore, writing poems in your notebook on my apartment floor opened my soul to you like i've never done before you roamed its empty hallways then you slammed the front door and now you beg me to let you back in does your love ever end or begin? i don't want to be stuck on what could’ve been but i'm exhausted from repenting for every sin i’ve run out of ways to numb the pain when you're gone from my life i smell your scent in the rain all i wanted was my freedom but you're a ball and chain all i wanted was pure love but this one's driving me insane

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my violent ideations quell at the presence of you only as you lean in for a kiss i find myself again in some analeptic bliss my mind is subdued by only you but you stepped out from my dreams and now you haunt reality and this love is just an addiction that i can't help but feed.

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Nov 14, 2018

Nov 14, 2018 at 3:53 PM UTC

narcotize me.

my violent ideations quell at the presence of you only as you lean in for a kiss i find myself again in some analeptic bliss my mind is subdued by only you but you stepped out from my dreams and now you haunt reality and this love is just an addiction that i can't help but feed.

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