I took a risk, a great big leap.
I did the unthinkable, likely a regret,
I texted my ex. The anxiety is deep.
I'm gambling on this, like roulette.
Everything bet on green, the house's space.
Odds not in my favor, why did I do this?
Cuz I read her poem, it's on this site, this place.
I thought bout silence, but memories reminisce.
Hours later i wonder, did I make a mistake?
Should I have stayed silent, and just let her go?
Now regretting life, wished I slamed the brakes.
Maybe it won't be all that bad though?
No regrets, no looking back, not the past.
The deed is done, to the future that comes.
Here's to hoping she responds at last.
And reignited friendship would be the best outcome.
Jan 29
Jan 29, 2026 at 3:51 AM UTC
Thinking I've long moved on.
These constant thoughts of her
assumed having long been gone
now they randomly will recur.
Today was such a case.
Going through my tunes
Unexpectedly in their place
A song I'd sing to you in June.
a birthday song I'd rehearse
reminder of one I once knew
and a day I'll forever curse
I'm still haunted by the ghost of you.
Aug 7, 2025
Aug 7, 2025 at 3:27 AM UTC
You will find me on the last page on
that book we never finished.
The chapters may have ended,
but I left a blank page just for you.
Jun 27, 2025
Jun 27, 2025 at 1:00 AM UTC
From just a stranger I did not know.
To a friend I could learn about though.
From a friend who made me smile for days.
To a secret crush who set my heart ablaze.
From a crush I was scared to get too close.
To my partner, who loved me and it shows.
From my partner, I could see a life together.
To my future, any problems we could weather.
From my future, with plans that only grew,
Became a stranger, I completely knew.
Apr 5, 2025
Apr 5, 2025 at 1:45 AM UTC
I'm asked, "what are you afraid of?"
But I can't just say love.
I'm afraid of loving someone,
who doesn't love me the same.
I'm afraid of trying too hard
for someone who wouldn't stay.
I'm afraid of giving it my all,
just to watch them walk away.
I'm afraid of offering my heart,
just to watch them break it.
I'm afraid of my favorite person
just becoming a memory.
So instead, I just say
I'm afraid of spiders.
Mar 25, 2025
Mar 25, 2025 at 6:11 AM UTC
"The moon is beautiful isn't it?"
he says.
"I prefer the sunset"
she said.
Mar 19, 2025
Mar 19, 2025 at 5:42 AM UTC
So the old addage says:
"Grief is the price we pay for love."
Never knew how true it was,
until I had to grieve my love.
three hundred and eighty days,
yet still I grieve for what we had.
I do not regret loving you.
I regret how hard I loved,
that I'm forced to continue
paying the price of love.
Mar 19, 2025
Mar 19, 2025 at 5:38 AM UTC
My heart was broken by my first love for many reasons,
yet none were sufficient enough to give me closure.
I know she will never love me again,
At least not the way she used to.
Yet despite the empty space and the vast distance between us
I cannot give up or further myself from her.
Why can I not just let her go?
The world says to me that I'd be doing us both a favor.
One last act of love. "Let her go".
Get a life, be free, be better, "Let her go".
Focus on yourself, push yourself, "Let her go".
It'll come with time, don't try so hard. Just... let her go...
Yet despite what the world will tell me,
how easy others drop and move on.
I believe it's facade, a mask covering their feelings.
Nobody but the internet knows I haven't moved on.
It's easy to put on a mask and pretend you have let her go.
But I ask of you, when the pain a year ago is still as fresh today,
how does one... actually... "Let her go"
Mar 12, 2025
Mar 12, 2025 at 3:49 AM UTC
I'm trying to move on, but my heart won't let go.
I might not be texting you, or even seeing you. But, I'd respond in a heartbeat should that notif pop up on my phone.
I may not greet you like I did on the daily, but even a year later... you're still the last thought when I fall asleep.
It may no longer be the blissful smiles, and instead be the tearful cries. But I miss you and I think about you.
Feb 24, 2025
Feb 24, 2025 at 7:41 PM UTC
I unblocked you today,
But I didn't know what to say.
You left me 1 year ago
But always on my mind though.
I want to reach out and call
Would that be talking to a wall?
In a moment of weakness
I did what anyone might guess.
I unblocked you today,
But I didn't know what to say.
Jan 23, 2025
Jan 23, 2025 at 12:27 PM UTC