it has never been real, but it is an eloquent lie you're being told
sadly, obviously untrue
cut perfectly along seams, missing screws carefully stored, missing handles cleanly, completely disappeared
too-perfect scratches only inspire the appropriate messy panic when they are given the benefit of the doubt
anyone can reason that there is no reason for this to be believed
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 11:12 PM UTC
i know you can see me,
i am shaking,
shivering, wincing and twitching
it doesn't look good by any means
but i know you can see me,
breathing,
breathing, grounding, focusing
while it doesn't look good, would you please believe me
i am handling it
the best i can
i promise, i am handling it
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 5:57 PM UTC
there's not a single word left,
when nothing changes
and you realize you were always too far gone
you have always been in too deep,
and farther, much farther than anyone wants to be for you
Jun 9, 2016
Jun 9, 2016 at 2:47 AM UTC
i.
cup your hand underneath a flower, delicate
rest your hand, fingers splayed around on a neck, on a chest,
on a check
ii.
a feeling so strong in your chest it might spill over,
has always meant danger, anger, control
please push
down avoid
this is something new something
soft so much of something soft
iii.
this softness is often terrifying in its unfamiliarity
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 1:11 AM UTC
i.
it is hard to find poetry in this,
unfocused,
staring,
glaring,
detached
ii.
blurry images, twisted
headache
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 12:22 AM UTC
i.
when i read your words about you holding me,
me holding you,
i see them in the shape of your head on my chest, your hands
on my heart and my hands
in your hair, around your wrists, on the back of your neck my face
in your hair these words
smell like your shampoo
feel like your short soft hair feel like your fingertips
on my collarbone your palm on my shirt
feel like us together, feel like us safe
ii.
of course,
this is about you
my good
May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 10:42 PM UTC
i.
i know my body is not the same body you hurt, my skin not the same skin
ii.
i know you've never said my name
and i know you haven't said another word to me since
iii.
but i know
i still have the same nightmares
the same fears
this new body tremors the same
May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 10:27 PM UTC
i.
you are still safe
you are still safe
you are still safe you
are still safe
ii.
i know you can't remember
but you were so happy
and i promise you will feel that again
iii.
and i know you have no energy
but i promise you will be able to move again
this isn't forever
May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 10:21 PM UTC
i.
no one gets it, right? no one understands, they don't know what they're talking about
ii.
the warnings, the pamphlets, the list of red flags
iii.
they may seem familiar but it's just not like that, right?
iv.
of course not
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 2:54 AM UTC
i.
it is never the right time
ii.
you are never sure enough
iii.
you will never say anything
iv.
it will always be like this
v.
you will witness every way people can fall apart
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 2:49 AM UTC