When you have no money nobody wants to know,
Being made redundant, my morale is feeling low.
Waiting on the government to process my claim,
Can't pay my bills, I'm panicking, but I am not to blame.
Creditors chasing me, letters piling up behind the door, powerless to do a thing, but this I can't ignore.
Loosing the will slowly, my head hurts from all the pleading, my children and my dog they will soon need feeding.
No support available, this walk I must do alone, crying myself to sleep, I could have been prepared if I had known.
My world has suddenly collapsed, the domino effect has begun, rippling through my cash flow, this summer isn't feeling fun.
The days are feeling empty, to broke to go anywhere, trying to scrape together copper so I can treat my children to the fair.
Relentless job searches, I'm tearing at my hair, when you are left without a penny and there's no one around to care.
Holding my head in my hands, trying to keep things together, depressed and down I hope this isn't forever.
Fighting off the feelings, trying not to take it to heart, hurt that I worked so hard, from the very start.
I was always there, worked overtime for free, helped out when things were bad, stupid, silly me.
Its ok for the big boys, their wage it tripled mine,
They may be in the same boat, but they will just be fine.
Pacing the walls I'm slowly slipping into madness,
Clinging onto hope, getting lost deep inside the sadness.
A temporary glitch, I'm hoping I will be able to recover, its times like this we need help from one another.
Scared, more terrified but what's worse is I feel alone, trying hard to keep upbeat, trying to remain in good tone.
My children too young to understand, and my dog just looks at me funny. Not realising the world is dominated by that paper stuff called money.
My thoughts are racing vividly, trying to capture an idea, paralysed by the sudden shock along with intense fear.
My world has collided, my heart begins to fade,
All of this could have been prevented, If only I'd been paid.
Aug 9, 2015
Aug 9, 2015 at 5:54 AM UTC
Boarded onto the boats by the hundred's, desperate to flea their own land, leaving with only essentials, families firmly holding hands.
Desperate to escape from the cruel environment they face, loosing everything they are feeling in disgrace.
Another tragic ending the story published worldwide, there's no refuge for our brothers, no where for them to hide.
I often wonder if we deserve the world we were given, so many are suffering in the life that they are living.
Unimaginable circumstances, men, women and children too, there's got to be a way, surely there's something we can do.
Boarded on to the boats by the hundred's, their fate is still unclear, the horrific journey begins, they are overcome by the fear.
Aug 6, 2015
Aug 6, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
Reaching out to her father but he doesn't want to know, the pain behind her eyes you can see she's feeling low.
Reaching out for answers its been almost thirty years, left empty inside wondering why he never cares.
Reaching out for love from her father in which she has craven, trying to settle the storm within to create her own inner sweet haven.
Reaching out to his stepdaughter over social media, after years of engine searches from google to wikipedia.
Reaching out for a chance to meet the dad who got scared and closed the door, another slap in the face from her big brown eyes the tears they pour.
Reaching out for closure to understand what she did that was wrong, the need to seem him daily is forever growing strong
Reaching out for his explanation he can't even give her that, not even in a letter or face to face in chat.
Reaching out in hope that somehow, someday just maybe, he'll fall in love with her again just like when she was a baby.
Reaching out for his affection she's missed out on having her dad, all the father daughter things, something she has never had.
Reaching out in desperation it hurts her deep and raw, something that has never healed it hurts right through to the core.
Reaching out to her daddy she's not mad or full of hate, she won't accept that this was written as part of her own fate.
Mar 14, 2015
Mar 14, 2015 at 1:35 PM UTC
I see the pain in your eyes, the sadness in your reflection, I should have loved you a little more, I should have saved you from rejection.
I see the hurt in your emotion, your longing for my heart, but day by day I'm pushing us further apart.
I'm numb to any feeling, of emotions like love, set me free, if only, I want to fly far and above.
So don't think I don't care, my love for you is pure, only the expression that is faulty it's something I'm trying to cure.
I see the troubles I have caused you, I'll admit that I've done wrong, lets build bridges together and make our love binding strong.
I see now I never showed you any affection inside, too frightened I ran from you, to protect my feelings I would hide.
I see your efforts to wow me, worship me holey, all alone in your trying you've been doing this solely.
I've never learnt how to love, always feeling ice cold, warm me up with your passion I don't want to be like this when I'm old.
I see how my actions have caused your loving heart to crumble, I'm sorry for your sorrow, I'll try and catch you from the stumble.
I see if I don't wake up or defrost my frozen heart, I'm going to miss out on my one true love and I know you'll want to part.
So take these words as my token, on paper I hope that it make's sense, please understand I've never felt love these feelings are intense.
Something which I'm still learning, each and everyday, I hope and pray this poem will be enough to make you stay.
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 5:31 AM UTC
Make me understand, make me see your way, I never get your point of view or the things that you say.
Make me see your vision, make me catch your drift, all of this quarreling is making us adrift.
Make me see what's real, since you say my ways are crazy, to me they are the truth but you insist that they are hazy.
Make me get the point, I don't always understand, this conflict is confusing it's something I can't stand.
Make me feel ok about the person inside of me, I am not blind, I just don't see the things you see.
Feb 6, 2015
Feb 6, 2015 at 1:29 PM UTC
Always riding the tide, never quite reaching the shore, searching deeply for something, this I cant ignore.
Always hoping and waiting, to feel the change in the water, longing to feel the calm now I'm no longer your daughter.
Always pondering thoughts, collectively stored upon my mind, not to certain either on what I'm trying to find.
Always wanting more, never feeling content or at ease, trying to keep the balance, always aiming to please.
Always riding the tide, never quite reaching the shore, not wanting to feel, feel this way anymore.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 2:56 AM UTC
I am nieve to believe your sickening excuse,
But for our son remain to keep the peace, I called upon a truce.
It's not fair that you dare, you act like you don't care.
I am stupid for understanding,
It's not like I'm a ***** or even ridiculously demanding.
He's your son, he should be your saviour
I'm shocked by your ways and selfish behaviour.
I am a fool to let you rule this situation isn't cool.
A distant father but your not that far away,
Never interested in his schooling or parent teacher day.
I am fed up of hearing your always hard done by, yet you can afford to party don't you think that's just sly?
You go on like we live in outer space,
You never call or ask about him, to your own disgrace.
I am sick I've had this for nine years,
Our boy he thinks that nobody cares.
Two days out of fourteen you parent our son,
more bothered by drink not by the damage that's done.
I am scared our son is being effected,
when you let him down I can see he feels rejected.
You only have one chance to share these moments, strangled by your image and your lifes long torments.
I am here everyday by his side,
the pain he is feeling, he cannot hide.
When age catches up and your reminiscing,
I'll be sure to know you'll regret the memories you are missing.
I'm not mad, just sad, our boy needs his dad,
he should never have to feel like he's done something bad.
And when you wake up from the lifestyle you've live, I hope our son is able to forgive.
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 4:32 PM UTC
Father Christmas where did he come from?
On Christmas Eve we all leave him a feast,
Along with some carrots to share with his beast.
Reindeer dust we sprinkle on our lawn,
tucked up in bed we get excited for dawn.
Lavish gifts more than one we receive,
but why is it in Father Christmas that we all believe?
Pretending each year that this man is magic,
he's not real I found this so very tragic.
Father Christmas he's just make believe,
your mum and your dad hide the presents you receive
It's really confusing how we create these lies,
stories of Santa's sleigh and how he loves mince pies.
His famous red suit and his long white beard, finding out he's a fake is something I always feared.
Flying the world all in one night,
a sack full of toys for our children's delight.
Father Christmas who invented this man?
An image created we believe that he can.
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 4:21 PM UTC
I've made mistakes I've been uncool, You can't use this as your tool.
I've said sorry more than once already, Your making this relationship become unsteady.
I've cried in shame I am to blame, Your now different your not the same.
I've begged for forgiveness, pleaded with you. What else do you want me to do?
I've stopped going out, there's no need to shout. Control is what this is all about.
I've lost myself along the way, frightened you'd leave, praying you'd stay.
I've done ****** up things, hurt you inside, But punishing me forever I cant abide.
I've put life on hold, inside I'm scared putting up with this I would never have dared
I've lost the will to recover, Maybes I'm not meant to be your lover.
I've gave up inside I've died, I've lost count of how many times I've tried.
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 2:24 PM UTC
Have you ever had a situation where your feeling crazy? Left in this world alone things are looking hazy.
Have you ever felt secluded? Somehow you've gone deluded, in your mind someone has intruded.
Have you ever lost your way? Barely surviving through the day, at night you beg and pray.
Have you ever lost yourself or mistreated your own health?
Have you ever retrieved that something you once believed? Too much hurt you have received.
Have you ever found the light so bright it blinds your sight? It sparks the fire to fight.
Have you ever been in recovery? Your too shocked by your discovery.
Have you ever had that dark cloud? Inside your screaming so loud, trying to do yourself proud.
Have you ever lost the motion? Your hoping for a potion, or some magic kind of lotion to get control of your emotion.
Have you ever felt ok? Even if its just for one day you try to runaway.
Have you ever woken from your illusions? wrapped up in your scary delusions, you cant take anymore intrusions.
Have you ever felt numb? People treating you like you're dumb, is this the life that you've succumb?
Have you ever found strength where you'd go to any length? To come first not always tenth.
Have you ever been rejected? Your heart is now infected like a drug you've just injected.
Have you ever made a decision where you bleed from the incision? You've lost yourself and your vision.
Have you ever felt free? Given all that you can be there's a brighter future for me.
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 3:10 AM UTC