This is a procession of bodies.
Him on the couch, right next to me tonuge stuck too far down.
You there too far away. Too confusing. Too much too anything. Too little everything.
Another stuck somewhere in the middle. Cute and sweet and here for now.
One right at my fingertips. A friend. A must have filled with so much hope.
Another too clingy, without spark. In no certain place at all.
And there will be others... I think.
But what I have learned,
body after body,
Is that this is how the procession takes place.
Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
I waited for you to tear me apart.
The "I miss yous"
And other sweet words
Nothing mattered while you were holding me.
I sunk into you.
Worrying all while
for another scar.
And
Another tear.
I gave up my fears for you.
And then you tore me apart.
And now I cannot eat
I cannot sleep
Waiting for those late night calls...
I cannot think...
Thoughts are useless...
Darling dear,
you gave me a scar
unlike anyone else
And I am not sure I will recover.
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 12:09 AM UTC
Something is opening up inside me
Fairy dust is leaking from my heart
And dripping into my deepest depths
And right now all I can feel is....
An abundance happiness that's leaking from within the palms of my hands.
I wait for someone to come,
Because just one set of hands holding so much joy just won't do.
But at the same time,
There is too much sadness bearing down heavily on my shoulders.
So I stand in the cold, waiting for others to help, and hold the excess.
I've become,
An emotional explosion of shattered-glass-flying proportions.
And all I can think is....
This is it.
This is life and this is what it feels like to live.
Dec 20, 2012
Dec 20, 2012 at 10:30 PM UTC
With you and I hand in hand,
I met infinity,
Inside a ticking time bomb.
Our hands were interwoven,
as we walked through walls.
Somewhere along this awful winding trail with its many S curves ,
I'd found what most others have lost.
And inside forever I lived,
Until the end.
Happily with you I spent forever,
hand in hand.
Dec 20, 2012
Dec 20, 2012 at 10:07 PM UTC
I am a bundle of tangled thoughts
You are my obsession
I heavily bear
We tear one another into thin, raggedy strips
Our aching pain is unparalleled
We both carry a barren torch
that yearns to be consumed.
Soul to soul,
And my heart splinters.
You make me ache and cry
In a wonderland filled of distraught.
How can something so beautiful be dosed in fresh pain?
New love, look at me.
New love, talk to me.
You **** me each day
And each day I awake new.
So darling dear why must you wait today?
Because I'm ready to wake anew.
Dec 3, 2012
Dec 3, 2012 at 10:50 PM UTC
I dive in deep.
I expect to plunge into the deep depths of it,
Instead I fall into a shallow cesspool.
It's my own doing.
I am the only one to blame.
You told me to take a leap of faith.
Your faith.
I did this all for you.
I dove into a shallow, shallow pool
So why, tell me love, why do I feel as if dying underwater?
My lungs are mashing together,
And it is too late for me to speak.
Dec 3, 2012
Dec 3, 2012 at 10:23 PM UTC
I'm the combination of too many wrong words
And not enough of the right ones.
Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 11:23 PM UTC
I pray one prayer.
I pray this prayer because
I cannot live without you.
You are the only one who will throw my ashes into the sea,
So please don't go.
If you leave me I will cry a new river.
I won't be able to move.
I won't eat.
I won't be able to sleep.
My heart will have disappeared into a void
And a black hole will have taken its place.
So please, please...
Start running, start eating right, and watch your speed on those highways.
I cannot lose you.
If you die,
I will suffer.
The effect will be death.
I think I have this one right to be completely and utterly selfish.
Because who else will scatter my ashes?
I prayer this one prayer:
Outlive Me. Outlive Me. Outlive Me.
Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 11:22 PM UTC
Sleep is the building block of my existence
Where else can you dream impossible,
Nonsensical dreams?
I hope they flood my mind at night.
I hope.
I hope.
Because while I'm awake mess everything up.
So I hope sleep blankets me up all nice and warm.
Right now too much could never be enough.
Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 11:12 PM UTC
I never told you that one word could ruin it all.
But it's too late now,
Because you've found destruction in your own way.
Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 8:10 PM UTC