I always feared meeting eyes
They could let people see you in depth
Read the unsaid
And find your weakest
I struggled to meet your gaze when we first met
Days, weeks, and months
Before I finally let loose
Of everything that left me bruised
I admired your patience
As you unearthed every layer
So delicately,
You saw through my struggles
Through my vulnerabilities,
Through the jabs on my soul,
And through scars that ran so deep,
And just as I began to get comfortable with those emerald eyes
You knifed through every wound I thought was healing
Twisted, coiled, and stabbed me again
Standing there, watching,
As I gasped in pain
Only to realize
I’d given myself away
To a bunch of glorified lies
As every piece of my heart
Clung on to the pain you left me with
And that's when I knew…
Why I never trusted ‘em eyes…
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 5:52 AM UTC
His memories are beginning to get weaker
His face is becoming a faint memory
I’ve almost forgotten how he smiles
And the depth of those emerald eyes
I’ve forgotten how he held me tight in fear of losing me
How his lips felt on mine
I forgot how he looked after me
Or stayed up, waiting for me all night
I’ve forgotten how his perfume felt on me
After we’d made love
The cologne that I’d let linger for a little longer
Just so, in case I missed him
But,
most of all,
I forgot
I forgot,
How well I lied
Mar 6, 2018
Mar 6, 2018 at 6:07 AM UTC
"Where did you go?" I asked
The one who loved
the reds, the blues, the purples and pinks
The one who chased butterflies,
the rainbows, and her dreams
"Where did you go?" I asked again
This time, a little louder,
a little impatient
"Where did you go?"
The one who laughed so loud, the one who danced
the one who sang to the rhythm of the rains
"Where did you go?" I asked,
a little hurt this time
The one who, with so much love,
baked cakes and cookies
Sending them, on a binging spree
"Where did you go?" I asked again
Standing in front of the mirror
screaming,
tears welling up in my eyes
and finally flowing down like a stream
"Where did you go? And why?
Leaving me behind!
Alone. Battling. Struggling. Gasping.
Come back.
Come back.
Come back, please.
Just for once.
Let me feel you for a brief moment.
The one lost to this heartless world.
Let me feel you...
Just for a moment
Just for a moment
Just for a moment...
Jan 6, 2018
Jan 6, 2018 at 3:26 AM UTC
I like the way you giggle when we talk
When you slip your hands into mine through our walks
The blush on your face
The cheekiness in your smile
They way you pull me closer
Your emerald eyes meeting mine
I like the way you tickle me
Making me laugh till it hurts
The tears rolling down my eyes
A smile that's a gift of your love
I like the way you make my heart feel
Younger, livelier, skipping a beat
I love your embrace
That feels like home
Your stoic gaze
That becomes my sanctuary
But most of all
I love the smell of your skin against mine
The way you slowly arouse my senses
As our souls entwine...
Mar 22, 2017
Mar 22, 2017 at 12:29 AM UTC
She was made of a million scattered pieces
and particles of dust
she fell too hard
and loved too much
Her soul deeper than the ocean
and her heart was a war
Love was soul food
sheathed with trust
She was a woman everyone loved
only to leave behind and walk upon
She never grew tired of the pain left behind
Instead embraced them as her own
But that never deterred her spirit
For she only picked herself up again
Finding someone
to heal with all the love that remained...
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 12:54 AM UTC
For all the mistakes of my past
I pushed him away
Fighting, arguing
Keeping him at bay
But I forgot
He was no coward
Neither a bully
None from my past
A lover rookie
He was a man
Of his actions and words
The one who promised
A better world
Delicately, yet with strength
He brought down my walls
Slowly unearthing emotions
I once thought were lost
In dark dungeons…
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 11:00 PM UTC
Sometimes I wonder
What would the sun do
if it wouldn’t give us light?
What would the moon do
if it didn’t illuminate the night?
One the eliminator of darkness
The other one makes it beautiful
We are all living with a purpose
Some know it
Some, unaware of the mysterious truth
Let’s face it
We are living a life of routines
Our days rushing one into the other
We are all ceasing without meaning
Existing, fading,
Waiting to be discovered...
Feb 13, 2017
Feb 13, 2017 at 5:48 AM UTC
And sometimes in the middle of nowhere
You cross my mind like a floating thought
I fought hard to move on
But it feels like coming back to square one
I wonder if you think of me too
The little things we loved to do
And if some days remind you of me
And the crazy things we did
I wonder if we ever crossed paths
Would we ever speak?
Or would we be like the lost strangers
Who chose the same roads
But were never destined to meet...
Dec 6, 2016
Dec 6, 2016 at 10:40 PM UTC
Another day
Another tear
Another night
Another fear
Another struggle
Another fight
As she fought
To defeat the demons inside
Wriggling, gasping
She finally lay still
As the monsters won
Yet another time
Nov 8, 2016
Nov 8, 2016 at 1:33 AM UTC
Although I must go
There's a part of me that wants to stay
Inspite of all the allegations and blames
You put on my name
It isn't that I don't love me
Or I don't respect myself
But there's a driving force
That makes me want to hold you back
I would incessantly admit
Loving you was an exquisite form of self destruction
It was like drowning in the ocean
Despite knowing how to swim
You were my terraquous zone
The world I'd call my own
How much ever it hurts to let go
It's time to walk away, I know
A part of me will always love you
Waiting for you to change
And come back to me
Albeit it seems difficult
There's still a lil ray of hope and belief
In us; in you and me
But right now it's time to take a call
I want you to know that I love you madly
And I hope you realize it
Before I guard myself again
Before i bring them up,
The much stronger and intransigent walls
Jun 13, 2016
Jun 13, 2016 at 8:22 AM UTC