If we could talk telepathically
And I know we can
I'd want you to know that I care for you
Even though you're not my man
If we could talk through time
And I know it's true
I'd let you know I love
All the years and versions of you
If we could talk in our dreams
Which we have before
I'd let you know this is lovely
And it makes me cherish our reality more
If you could read my words
Or feel it in your heart
I'd let you know there's still space for you
Even though we are apart
Aug 13, 2020
Aug 13, 2020 at 6:43 PM UTC
Being with you is like
Touching a hot stove
I like to feel the burn
Even though it hurts
Apr 1, 2020
Apr 1, 2020 at 11:26 PM UTC
I wanted a closeness you couldn't give
And blamed myself for what I didn't receive
Here's a good lesson on needs
They must be met for a relationship to move
Is that why we got stuck? Mixed up? And in the wrong direction
I felt the distance growing
Forced a whisper of "goodbye"
And left the door cracked wondering if
We could give it our all and try
I was not prepared to let you go
I thought it would be easy but baby
I don't know
If I was smart
Or a fool for not listening to my heart
Apr 1, 2020
Apr 1, 2020 at 11:17 PM UTC
Hello Happiness,
How have you been?
It's been a while since I've you seen you old friend
I miss the way I felt in your presence
Our moments in time were endless
Then Depression took your place
Times got hard but I liked the embrace
It was comforting in a different way
The darkness put a blanket over my days
So here I am
Feeling trapped
Wondering how I'll ever get you back
Sometimes when I think my world should end
You pop in my head and tell me to think again
I love you
I swear it
Sometimes you're too good to me
I can't bear it
We keep doing this dance
But give me another chance
Because now I know
The love you inherent
I'm gonna stop by pretty soon
My apologies if it's way past noon
Depression keeps me down
But you're why I get up
Keep me in your thoughts
And wish me luck
Dec 11, 2017
Dec 11, 2017 at 12:13 AM UTC
"Not tonight
No not tonight"
The lyrics play in my ears
I knew this was coming
In a wave or a rush
I was fine, okay , meh at the least
Then the song played
Speaking of the fear of love and rejection I feel so often
Then all the other thoughts of feelings came pouring out
In a wave with a rush
Woe is me
Woe is my grandma
Woe is my health
Woe is all around and all consuming
Woe is my life and others
These are the thoughts I wish would stay hidden
But not tonight
No not tonight
Tonight my feelings say "I demand to be felt"
I respond
Not tonight
No no tonight
This night I have nowhere to escape
All can hear my weeps
All will know my feelings are real
Even me
Not tonight
No not tonight
Spare me just one more day
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 12:45 AM UTC
Remember that night by the campfire?
We roasted marshmallows
Made smore's
I stepped away to look at the stars
And I hoped you'd come and look with me
In an instant
There you were
You pointed out the big dipper
The north star to the left
We talked and laughed
And you mentioned how the stars were so far
We would never get to see them up close
As I looked at those stars I looked into the past
But imagined a future
Our future
I heard my friends heading back to the cabin
And ignored them just to spend a few more moments with you
Eventually they took me away
One thing that will never leave
Is the memory of that night by the campfire
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 1:38 AM UTC
Should I follow the signs
Or follow my heart
I can't even think of listening to my mind
because you turn it to mush
Should I leave you alone
Or pursue this again
Or ask some outside source
because I'm just too confused
Maybe my heart is the only sign I should follow
Maybe it's the compass that leads our intuition
So maybe
Just maybe
I know and have always known what I have to do
Dec 26, 2015
Dec 26, 2015 at 12:01 AM UTC
I guess I didn't write enough today
I guess I didn't put enough emotion on paper
Because I still fill it burning in my chest
I didn't let enough ink spill
Should I try something red instead?
Maybe that's what's best
Too many days
Panned over too many months
Have I missed what we had in the past
Too many days
Panned over too many months
Have I been more than simply sad
I guess I didn't write enough
I didn't let enough ink spill
I can only try
Try to keep writing, breathing
Till myself
Or these feelings die
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 9:55 PM UTC
And when the rain comes down
I'll keep you safe sound
Smile, the sun's comes out
You will be safe in my shelter
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 9:11 PM UTC
I couldn't be in a more complicated situation
Me expecting to date this guy when I ****** his ex best friend
You expecting me to date your current best friend
Me being beaten and broken
You fixing my pieces
Me continuing to fall for you
You falling for my friends
When it comes to me and you it's more than complicated
I'll deal with the complications even if we only spend mere seconds of belonging to each other
Dec 24, 2015
Dec 24, 2015 at 3:10 AM UTC