rise-up-again - Hello Poetry

Where are the soft kisses and long hugs when you need them.

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Feb 5

Feb 5, 2026 at 4:43 PM UTC

Where are the soft kisses and long hugs when you need them.

I don’t think you understand what trauma does to one’s body or mind But what I had to go through what trauma does to me I wish no one around me had to go through this The biggest war is the one that is inside my head Hoping someone helps me snap out of it Hoping that one day I don’t have to numb my self Or use medications to feel normal To feel safe To feel secure Do you realize that for sometime I couldn’t go out I couldn’t talk Or speak I couldn’t build realtionship or Even hold a simple conversation I didn’t know how to get up out of bed I felt like my identity got stripped from me Every incident Every beating Every assault Every thing that was done to me Weighed on me subconsciously And all I could do is smile and hope that if I couldn’t save myself that I could save someone else Because if I went through it And they shouldn’t have too So if your going to call my trauma a “ grudge” Then you are just as ignorant as the rest of them You made me feel weak not powerful You stripped me of who I am You never trusted in me Did not have any respect for me Used others against me for your own motives Made my life a mockery Just so you could feel better And you want to call this love My story my life is bigger than just holding some grudge my life would make any body snap and hope that they never woke up the next day. I prayed to go God everyday for 7 years that wherever you were that you were ok. Despite what was done boy I hope your mother explains this you better than you could ever understand it. When a woman you hurt prays for you everyday like that it’s because she’s officially given her life up to make sure that your life had meaning more than hers ever could. But you’ll never understand that because you’ll sit with your friends and assume you have me all figured out. But that’s it why I say I’m done because I really am. I don’t want to wake up anymore. I try to call on my friends but I don’t think they need to know what’s happening to me daily. I really do wish some days I didn’t wake up. I don’t want to hear from you or know that your ok. I just hope I don’t wake up one day so I don’t have to feel this pain. I didn’t ask to live like this. I tried getting the help I needed. It just didn’t help. If you really did love me I don’t understand why you caused so much pain. It was never love. You just liked the way I loved you and hoped that one day I’d die starving for you. I never stopped I just died inside.

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Feb 5

Feb 5, 2026 at 2:54 AM UTC

You were always forgiven and never forgotten

I don’t think you understand what trauma does to one’s body or mind But what I had to go through what trauma does to me I wish no one around me had to go through this The biggest war is the one that is inside my head Hoping someone helps me snap out of it Hoping that one day I don’t have to numb my self Or use medications to feel normal To feel safe To feel secure Do you realize that for sometime I couldn’t go out I couldn’t talk Or speak I couldn’t build realtionship or Even hold a simple conversation I didn’t know how to get up out of bed I felt like my identity got stripped from me Every incident Every beating Every assault Every thing that was done to me Weighed on me subconsciously And all I could do is smile and hope that if I couldn’t save myself that I could save someone else Because if I went through it And they shouldn’t have too So if your going to call my trauma a “ grudge” Then you are just as ignorant as the rest of them You made me feel weak not powerful You stripped me of who I am You never trusted in me Did not have any respect for me Used others against me for your own motives Made my life a mockery Just so you could feel better And you want to call this love My story my life is bigger than just holding some grudge my life would make any body snap and hope that they never woke up the next day. I prayed to go God everyday for 7 years that wherever you were that you were ok. Despite what was done boy I hope your mother explains this you better than you could ever understand it. When a woman you hurt prays for you everyday like that it’s because she’s officially given her life up to make sure that your life had meaning more than hers ever could. But you’ll never understand that because you’ll sit with your friends and assume you have me all figured out. But that’s it why I say I’m done because I really am. I don’t want to wake up anymore. I try to call on my friends but I don’t think they need to know what’s happening to me daily. I really do wish some days I didn’t wake up. I don’t want to hear from you or know that your ok. I just hope I don’t wake up one day so I don’t have to feel this pain. I didn’t ask to live like this. I tried getting the help I needed. It just didn’t help. If you really did love me I don’t understand why you caused so much pain. It was never love. You just liked the way I loved you and hoped that one day I’d die starving for you. I never stopped I just died inside.

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Life changing events will do something to you And no one should have to go through it alone I usually isolate I don’t really ask for help If anyone needs a check in buddy Reach out to me I’m here 💌

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Feb 5

Feb 5, 2026 at 12:13 AM UTC

Check In

Life changing events will do something to you And no one should have to go through it alone I usually isolate I don’t really ask for help If anyone needs a check in buddy Reach out to me I’m here 💌

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I’m not funny I’m laughing I like things that others Don’t Never a hypocrite I’m honest I have trust issues That’s not funny I struggled with alot Now I’m coming up And it’s getting hot Mf that would never would speak to me Now they think they know Yes I got it how I got it but no amount of money could take away this pain That’s been staggering in my chest I’m trying to figure out how to live for me but ain’t no living for me I’ve been dead since I was 17 He took my heart But he should have taken a bullet to my head I’ve been dead since I was 23 figuring out how my father was laid up dead And watching videos in my head It replays how he falls to the ground that’s it If I could hold it all together I would But your favorite home girl yeah she’s falling apart No man can own me and one can be me I stepped out and said let’s go because here I am Ready for my mission However God intended it I’m not stuck I’m frozen Get me out of my affliction Lord can you hear me I’m not perfect But I know I’m a 10 Using my trauma as your greatest weapon but I use it to motivate me Get out of your head Mf can’t you see you ripped me apart and broke me and now you want to know what’s wrong with me When you wake up in the morning don’t you allow yourself to even think about my existence You didn’t need weapon to **** me You did what you did Look at me Look at me without your fingers in your mouth Look at me directly in my eyes Look at me stand infront me Check to see if theirs life in me Your not welcomed at all Any door you had access to considered it closed MF WEVE BEEN DONE

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Feb 4

Feb 4, 2026 at 4:04 PM UTC

Mob Daughter

I’m not funny I’m laughing I like things that others Don’t Never a hypocrite I’m honest I have trust issues That’s not funny I struggled with alot Now I’m coming up And it’s getting hot Mf that would never would speak to me Now they think they know Yes I got it how I got it but no amount of money could take away this pain That’s been staggering in my chest I’m trying to figure out how to live for me but ain’t no living for me I’ve been dead since I was 17 He took my heart But he should have taken a bullet to my head I’ve been dead since I was 23 figuring out how my father was laid up dead And watching videos in my head It replays how he falls to the ground that’s it If I could hold it all together I would But your favorite home girl yeah she’s falling apart No man can own me and one can be me I stepped out and said let’s go because here I am Ready for my mission However God intended it I’m not stuck I’m frozen Get me out of my affliction Lord can you hear me I’m not perfect But I know I’m a 10 Using my trauma as your greatest weapon but I use it to motivate me Get out of your head Mf can’t you see you ripped me apart and broke me and now you want to know what’s wrong with me When you wake up in the morning don’t you allow yourself to even think about my existence You didn’t need weapon to **** me You did what you did Look at me Look at me without your fingers in your mouth Look at me directly in my eyes Look at me stand infront me Check to see if theirs life in me Your not welcomed at all Any door you had access to considered it closed MF WEVE BEEN DONE

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Love is a beautiful thing It’s who you fall for that could make you or break you choose wisely even then even then you might be disappointed enjoy the good but not the bad we have flaws we aren’t perfect but if you begin to lose yourself in the process take care of yourself you deserve to cared for not broken down and misused

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Feb 3

Feb 3, 2026 at 2:19 AM UTC

Abuse

Love is a beautiful thing It’s who you fall for that could make you or break you choose wisely even then even then you might be disappointed enjoy the good but not the bad we have flaws we aren’t perfect but if you begin to lose yourself in the process take care of yourself you deserve to cared for not broken down and misused

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A love like mine angles whisper about Hoping that the right person receives it

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Feb 2

Feb 2, 2026 at 4:16 AM UTC

Gods will

A love like mine angles whisper about Hoping that the right person receives it

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I breathe I sit I stand I cry I feel I just i don’t know Think to myself a lot I just need to let it out excuse me while I say everything that comes to mind and not caring who reads this because this is really for me while you get to sit somewhere alone and enjoy my sense of humor through words excuse me while I spaz out

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Feb 2

Feb 2, 2026 at 2:23 AM UTC

Art

I breathe I sit I stand I cry I feel I just i don’t know Think to myself a lot I just need to let it out excuse me while I say everything that comes to mind and not caring who reads this because this is really for me while you get to sit somewhere alone and enjoy my sense of humor through words excuse me while I spaz out

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Let me feel this All of it I can’t even function Paralyzed mentally Allow me to fall apart To rise again

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Feb 2

Feb 2, 2026 at 2:20 AM UTC

Golden Girl

Let me feel this All of it I can’t even function Paralyzed mentally Allow me to fall apart To rise again

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They look for flowers They look for jewelry Long hours in the shower Fantasizing about desires but what’s deeper than temptation I want to know each part of you What you makes you whole What makes you fall apart I’ll be their when you cry Let me hold on to your scars And remind you that your ok just the way you are What’s worse than not knowing is wondering if your ok miles apart My heart will bleed if you sit in silence and suffer alone Because how can a man care for everyone but not be cared for in return I knows it’s been a while since you heard from me Don’t tell me how you feel and then run away Tell me how you feel and just stay I’ll keep my promise if you keep yours I’ll fall apart if you don’t But I’ll keep my word til death do us apart I’ll meet you at the end of the earth as long as your there But the more you run I’ll just stay Hoping one day you’ll open up like the way you did the other night tell me how you feel that’s my love language If you don’t then your silence will keep me company maybe you’ll one day believe me when I say I do love you but for now It’s just silence and we’ll wait your shooter

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Feb 2

Feb 2, 2026 at 2:14 AM UTC

Roses

They look for flowers They look for jewelry Long hours in the shower Fantasizing about desires but what’s deeper than temptation I want to know each part of you What you makes you whole What makes you fall apart I’ll be their when you cry Let me hold on to your scars And remind you that your ok just the way you are What’s worse than not knowing is wondering if your ok miles apart My heart will bleed if you sit in silence and suffer alone Because how can a man care for everyone but not be cared for in return I knows it’s been a while since you heard from me Don’t tell me how you feel and then run away Tell me how you feel and just stay I’ll keep my promise if you keep yours I’ll fall apart if you don’t But I’ll keep my word til death do us apart I’ll meet you at the end of the earth as long as your there But the more you run I’ll just stay Hoping one day you’ll open up like the way you did the other night tell me how you feel that’s my love language If you don’t then your silence will keep me company maybe you’ll one day believe me when I say I do love you but for now It’s just silence and we’ll wait your shooter

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