i don't know if i can write anymore
you're all that's left in my words
screaming and shouting and trying
and i doubt i'm ever really heard
i don't know if i can think anymore
a cold shower doesn't take away the pain
regression and progression know no path
they leave me here, all the same
i don't know if i can cry anymore
too many diamonds escaped their vaults
instead i am numb... or maybe just too patient
instead, i'll accept each and every fault
i don't know if i cant drink anymore
liquid encouragement only hides hours
but they pounce and they leap
proving to bring down the highest tower
i don't know if i can sleep anymore
i've tried and i've tried
but my theory is broken...
look, i've cried and i've cried
Jun 16, 2012
Jun 16, 2012 at 1:18 AM UTC
i must tell you of this curse
that's intertwined in every verse
magnets compel, repel, and foretell
it doesn't matter if you are well
you'll always be attracted
div-yd, divided, and subtracted
resisting an instinctual urge
to give your everything, to splurge
call it north, call it south
but the words slip out of your mouth
your heart will be drawn-in
hopeless, head over heels spin
laced, maced, even some space
you can't resist that face
heaven, hell, or whatever you believe
it's stronger than we can possibly conceive
time out... time in!
how did this begin?
a chemical reaction
a little bit of passion
that just rushed in...
Jun 7, 2012
Jun 7, 2012 at 2:03 PM UTC
today i told you the simplest of words
i must be happy, to make you happy
and that's what i'll do
you have a truly resounding presence
even in the corner of your deepest absence
and i'll conquer over these misty diamonds
to prove to you, our love lacks no funds
just a dose of kindling love
goofy hats and toboggans
racing you to the car
picnic table naps
and sneaking kisses around corners
serenading over the phone
or in your ear as you sleep
poetry written on ticket stubs
pulling my hand over your stubby cheeks
a laugh, a smile, a spinning hug
we share the same soul
we can cross into this new territory
daily, weekly, and monthly
start down this great beginning
who knows what we're winning
we can enjoy all the simplicities
side by side, buying groceries
be thankful for today and tomorrow
and give the wind a chance to blow
today i told you the simplest of words
i must be happy, to make you happy
and that's what i'll do
Jun 2, 2012
Jun 2, 2012 at 1:38 PM UTC
estoy viviendo una prueba, dices tu
pero mi corazon me duele, mas que tu...
no me dejan dormir todos estos pensamientos
es el amor amor que me causa estos sentimientos?
me gustaria decirte que me dejes en paz
pero tu y yo, sabemos, que yo no soy tan capaz...
tu voz, tu cara, tu amor, tu recuerdo, me entra
espero que este corazon debil no me mienta
te digo, tratare de dormir otra vez,
aunque eso no funciono todo el mes...
porque mi amor, me haces tanta falta
estoy segura que la vida me aplasta
no quiero regresar al mismo terror
cada noche, cada dia este gran tremor
amor, amor, yo se lo que te digo
toda sera mejor, solo regresate conmigo
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 7:44 AM UTC
caffeine and smoke may fuel an addiction
poetry may soothe an aching soul
but in the early hours of the morning
i can't seem to find a cure
i haven't graced you with a smile recently
and you said i haven't laughed for days
i'm tangled inside of this constant thought
mi vida, i'm sorry my happiness can't be bought
i'm drenched in recurring memories even as i sleep
it's raining in my mind... and outside
today's going to be black, and blue, and grey
it's taken so long to get here... to the end of may
i speak of you, with such high regard
contemplate your steps through a normal day
for you, anything to bring me in even closer
and pray to anything, anyone, that i won't think of her
caffeine and smoke may fuel an addiction
poetry may soothe an aching soul
but in the early hours of the morning
i can't seem to find a cure
a weary mind, a sick stomach, a lack of words
i'm a coward
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 7:17 AM UTC
tugging on the memories that are slowly fading
they fall from my hands like grains of sand
slipping away, drifting away... escaping
i just want you by my side again
calloused hands
a simple smile
skinny eyes
big cheeks
plump lips
you even steal my chapstick
i miss holding you
caressing the sides of your short hair
starting from your temple to your back
i always contemplated you during your slumber
so peaceful, so content, and a body like a furnace
i'd tug away to get a better look at you, from afar
but even in your sleep, you'd pull me in tighter
grasping for comfort, tugging at something unforeseen
i couldn't deny you or myself from that
you lingered, even when you were gone
god how you linger now...now that you're really gone
i repeat and repeat, "he'll be back soon."
and contemplate your return with such anxiety
to hold you again
i sleep only to dream about you
and that's all right...
i get a glimpse of your smile
i hear your laugh
and temporarily, i'm fine
see, dreaming's my fix
but nothing is as good as the real you
i need you
May 23, 2012
May 23, 2012 at 8:32 PM UTC
eagerly waiting and ruthlessly paused
looking at the clock, the hours, the minutes
forging alone of this path of decisions
time is left to decide, to wander, to escape
but the neediness calls to me, picks me up
moves me along
crouched behind a couple of white lies
but ones that could massacre, proving defiance
could cause uproar, sharper than a scalpel
could weaken, distress, and break
but none so scary, as losing you
for now, they can't know
path is chosen, deed is done
i may be ****** but i won't run.
May 16, 2012
May 16, 2012 at 2:57 PM UTC
venom veraciously running through my veins
cowardly hiding from your cordial love calls
relentlessly rounding up their rigid rumors
now hoping to hide my heightened helplessness
diminishing those devious devils, drowning all
a hatred hovers for them, always haunting me
does a ***** almost lover lie? no, no, no--
so sincere, so saintly, so astounding.
i'm wearily weaved in your web
i'm caught.
i'm caught.
i'm caught.
Apr 16, 2012
Apr 16, 2012 at 10:48 AM UTC
i guess i'll light up this memory again
it'll sputter at first, then the smoke will billow
a grey cloud of memories surrounds my reality
my reality, if you can call it that
because i'm dreaming in and out
just searching for the pristine light
that's going to keep me moving
i need some gasoline on these rotting logs
a kiss, to stir the embers
an embrace, to see the flames
a serenade, to make the light dance
your presence, to fuel my bonfire
although it's withering during the night
i find comfort in the heat and vivid colors
whoever conceptualized love, knows of fire
knows of the burn, knows of the mystery
i'll leave coals across the distance
this distance that greatly separates
but it'll light your way back to me
and you'll see, i'm left burning for you
a red, passionate heart left simmering
while you fetch more firewood, out there
you'll find your way back through the woods
and see, i've kept us alive all this time
whoever conceptualized love, knows of fire
knows of the burn, knows of the mystery
<3
Apr 11, 2012
Apr 11, 2012 at 3:11 PM UTC
fingertips tracing an outline
surely tainted by our love
not a gaze, but a fixation
on all i can imagine
silenced by the drifting conclusion
that you'll be gone
i'm left with seven days
to drown in your icy undertow
although it burns my core
and lights even the darkest what-ifs
i'll soak you up, every bit that i can
it will have to last me a long time
dreams are beautiful
and memories, unreal
but even those won't compare
to the holiness of your heart,
the affection labeled on my soul,
and a persistent need to adore you.
it's one that i can feel beating
hidden beneath blood, flesh, and bone
i'll ask the moon to watch over you
and maybe even the sun, you'll know
i'll clench to the sound of your voice
radiating in and out of the long days
long for your smile... oh, **** your smile
i won't be able to quench my thirst
it will be a long desert walk
until i'm finally back into your arms
but i'll be waiting
loving you more than today
and even more after that.
Mar 20, 2012
Mar 20, 2012 at 3:21 PM UTC