2014
We are only fourteen.
I tease you everyday in seventh period,
You make me laugh more than anyone in eighth period.
We played Romeo and Juliet
Yet swore we’d never have feelings,
Despite everyone’s beliefs.
2014
You get a girlfriend,
We are only fourteen.
Summer is right around the corner, and i try to forget you.
2015
Your girlfriend doesn’t like me,
You stop speaking to me.
I stop seeing you at school.
2015
I start dating a boy who I swore I loved.
2016
I was done with boys,
I was convinced I loved him,
He wanted inside of my body.
2016
You say “Hi” to me in first period,
I didn’t realize we had class together again.
2017
You begin to awkwardly compliment my captions on Instagram;
You’ve never heard of the quotes, but you love them.
I wrote them, but I’ll never tell you that.
2017
Your girlfriend has been hitting you,
Screaming at you,
Ignoring you
For nearly three years.
2018
I’m sitting with your friend at lunch,
You pass us in the hall.
You’re tired.
2018
You begin to stand with my friends and I in the hall of the mornings,
Once again, I’m teasing you and you make me laugh like no one else can.
2018
She breaks up with you.
2018
You begin confiding in me over things I’m swore to secrecy.
We begin hanging out;
I’m at your house everyday after school.
I swear it’s just to tutor you in English for the ACT,
I’ll never tell you it’s just to see you.
2018
A girl likes you, hates me and tells everyone I was ***** but deserved it;
I take my anger out on you
Blame you, because you let her into our small group.
2018
I stop speaking to you for a bit,
It drives me insane.
Graduation
I go home with you that night,
We are as close as we were. Like nothing ever happened.
We just hold hands
And that’s all I needed.
We spent that entire summer together;
Making s’mores
Staying up until 5am drinking a bit,
And talking of life.
2018
I leave for college but we still try to date.
It’s hard to keep the distance so I come home
A l o t.
2019
I end up transferring back home,
For you but also financial purposes.
June 10th, 2019
We are laying in our bed together, you’re curled up next to me,
Mumbling words of affection and love.
My, how things change.
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 8:11 PM UTC
"What happened to you?"
You ask me when you come back. "You're so Different now."
You took my essence, my fire, and my soul when you left and you tried to place them into someone else, but they didn't fit. Now you stand before me, and you dare ask me what happened? How could you?
"Life." I simply answer. "I grew up."
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 3:17 PM UTC
Sometimes it's heartbreaking
to look the woman
who gave me life
in the eye,
because I don't want this life
anymore.
Jul 17, 2017
Jul 17, 2017 at 10:04 PM UTC
i'm your weakness,
your own personal drug.
I'm your high,
You're my low.
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 10:02 PM UTC
I want to go home
but I am home.
I'm homesick
for a home I don't have
and it's the scariest and
saddest feeling yet.
May 26, 2017
May 26, 2017 at 8:21 PM UTC
Our hands,
they tangle as if
in prayer in
the religion that is
our love.
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 7:37 PM UTC
I have become my nightmare,
the girl who always hid in
the far depths of my mind,
tangled in weeds with terror
surrounding her,
There was always a curious chaos
about her that I both yearned and feared,
I will become the beauty of the mess,
and my soul with tangle with hers like art.
I am my own nightmare
and I will embrace it.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 8:32 PM UTC
I was your flower but
seasons passed,
we grew apart
and now Your flower has wilted,
But I have grown.
Mar 18, 2017
Mar 18, 2017 at 9:25 PM UTC
So there I was,
running and running
trying to catch up with the sun,
with all my hopes and dreams.
I was right at an arms length,
until then I woke up
Mar 18, 2017
Mar 18, 2017 at 9:15 PM UTC
Darling,
haven't they warned you
not to play with fire?
Haven't they told you
I'm the atomic bomb?
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 5:10 PM UTC