Oh how the world forgets the harshest truth:
Friends can break your heart too
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 2:51 PM UTC
I could never risk
Pouring myself
Into hands that couldn’t hold me
But here I am
Spilling out of my cup
Hoping that you can catch me
With the holes of your heart
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 12:41 AM UTC
You let me fall so easily
Into the little space between your arm and chest
You knew that I was drunk
Intoxicated by the music, the dancing,
the ***** and you
My lips brushed against your cheek
My fingers traced your lips
Then my lips replaced my fingers
I was too drunk to realize
Until I pulled away
You pulled me back in
Passionate, passion I've yearned for
Passion I had never received
Now as reality displaces fantasy
I know that I was just another girl
A convenient option, a pit stop
That you periodically stop in
When did I become like this?
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 8:40 PM UTC
Can you come a little closer?
Let me undress your wounds
And let your wounds bleed and bleed
Let me help you find some release
I know you’re not used to
Letting others sit in your cult of pain
But I feel your pain too
Please let me feel it with you
Don’t push your pain to the shadow of your mind
Embrace it, reveal it, you deserve to feel it
Please stop smiling with your misty eyes
Please don’t cover your wounds with bandaid lies
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 11:26 PM UTC
You call me beautiful like it's my name
Play with my hair, twisting it around your fingers
Kissing my soul, but never my lips
You draw me in like magnets
Priming me until my skin is raw,
until my heart is vulnerable
And then you strike
Shredding the idea of what could've been
With your razor-sharp tongue
Setting my soul on fire
Burning me down, and you won't let me out
Please just let me out
If this is what your love is
I don't know if I want it
But call me beautiful one more time
And I'll fall at your feet
Dec 7, 2018
Dec 7, 2018 at 12:13 AM UTC
He loves me, he loves me not
Since when were those two things
Mutually exclusive?
To me it seems you both love and hate me
Sweet sweet honey drips from your fangs
As you drain me, why do you drain me
There was a time where I would believe
That I was the one to blame
When you stuck a blade in my gut
But look where I have come now
To know that I deserve consistency
And passion and respect and love
To know that I deserve more
Than you could ever offer me
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 11:57 PM UTC
The clock breaks my heart beat
Into hours, minutes, seconds
It reminds me to breathe
Let my heart beat
One, two, three
Just make it through the next sixty seconds
Through the next sixty minutes
Through the entire day
Four, five, six
Until you're in your bed
Staring at the ceiling
Breathing, breathing
You made it through the day
But how do you make it through the night?
Dec 1, 2018
Dec 1, 2018 at 3:08 AM UTC
I love the way your lashes are laced in tears
That are just barely hanging on
That are just about to fall
Please just let them
Please
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 10:23 AM UTC
Once a month my body bleeds
My body aches, my body grieves
The pain makes it hard to breathe
The pain is immobilizing
But I can’t complain anymore
Because now my moms body no longer bleeds
But her heart aches, her heart grieves
Her pain makes it hard to breathe
The pain is immobilizing
I still can create a life inside of me
I am cancer free
My mom wasn’t so lucky...
But mom can I tell you please?
It doesn’t make you less womanly
You haven’t lost your identity
You still had the power to create me
You can ache and you can grieve
Even though you feel like you lost a part of yourself
You’ll never lose me
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 12:32 PM UTC
A growing pain takes over slowly
Squeezing the breaths out of me
Heart racing faster, my head is spinning
Everything else has lost its meaning
Now it’s only you, the ghosts of your hand
Gripping my heart till I can’t stand
Scaling my body, touching me slowly
I forget your hands have never known me
I forget that you weren’t ever mine
But I spent my days looking for signs
That maybe you loved me even just a bit
And honestly, I even thought you did
I was convinced you did but wasn’t sure of it yet
That we had a connenction from the moment we met
But I forget that you were always somebody else’s
And I realized that it was not you, but I who felt the connection
Yet I can’t help but hold on to the last stage of hope
That maybe you only said you loved her just for show
Maybe you say it because you feel it’s your duty
Maybe you don’t really love her and instead love me
But I’m tired of holding on to hope worthlessly
I’m tired of waiting for you to love me
Because I don’t want to be second choice not just an option
I’m not a pit stop where you can periodically stop in
I’m a woman, a storm, a chaotic mess
The ocean, the skies contained in a dress
And the hands that will take place of your ghost in me
Will not grip my heart but help it beat
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 11:53 AM UTC