“I need more than you…”
She said and walked away
“I’m emerging…”
Pain whispered as the calyx tore
Sep 22, 2018
Sep 22, 2018 at 6:38 PM UTC
Oh Jalaluddin!
You counseled me to "Tear down this house"
My House
Because I Love you
I'm taking your advice
Tearing it down
Brick
by
Brick
Plank
by
Plank
I'll start from the outside
And work my way in
People will stop and stare
"Another crazy person" they'll observe
"He's gone mad" they'll whisper as I break down the walls
"He's a fool" they'll note as I bring down the chimney
"He's lost" they'll gossip as I break the foundation
"Stay away from him" they'll warn as I sit in the rubble
"Were they right all along" I'll ask again and again
"Did I make a mistake"
"Did I burn my life on a whim"
"How do I know"
"Is it possible to know"
It's a lonely place this one
In the ruins
Tired and hungry
Gathering energy to dig
With the Pickaxe You gave me at birth
Alone
Homeless
Afraid
I Surrender...
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 3:03 PM UTC
Dance Recklessly
With Passion
With Purpose
Like
Each Step Is
C r e a t i ng a Universe
Let each step set fire to fear
Move to music your Heart makes
Make the floor slick with your sweat
Feel... Feel... FEEL... FEEL!!!
For the Love of God... FEEL!!!
Before it is too late...
Feel.
Dance Recklessly
Knowing
There is no other way.
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 2:50 PM UTC
“I need more than you…”
She said and walked away
“I’m emerging…”
I whispered through pain as the calyx tore
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 6:52 PM UTC
You’re beautiful from every angle
There is no perspective
That
I Can
Take
Which reveals otherwise
You’re beautiful from every angle
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 6:38 PM UTC
I’m going mining today
I’m digging in that place between
My pain
And
My grave
My hands are covered in it
The dirt and the ****
Of a lifetime
Of the lifetimes before me
So far back no one knows their names
I’m searching for treasure
It has to be here somewhere
But so far
It’s just the dirt
The dirt
And
The ****
I’ve dug so deep
I can’t crawl back out
I can’t forget about it
I can’t let it go
It’s death
Or
Treasure
One of them is definitely down here
It’s as simple as that
And so…
I’m going mining today
Like I did yesterday
And the day before… and for everyday I can remember
I’ll dig and dig
Until memory of me fades
And my dreams fall from the sky
Past the stories that promised happiness
Beyond the eyes that captured my heart
Away from the lights of the shore… Into the oily blackness I’ll swim
That place no one wants to follow me to
That place everyone tells me doesn’t exist
I’ll dig
Long enough
Hard enough
With everything I have
And…
When I arrive
I’ll send you a card
I’ll invite you to mine
Follow the tears, the blood, and the sweat
Look for the light of my soul
“That was the treasure!” I’ll declare
“Now let’s find yours”
I’m going mining today
You don’t have to… you can stay
I’m already covered in it…
The dirt
The ****
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 7:54 PM UTC
Let that butterfly
land
on
my
Heart
It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything there
Well… other than the THUNDERCLAP
That was you closing the door
Let that butterfly
land
on
my
Heart
It’s been so long
So long since I felt butterflies there
Dancing so hard it made me feel sick
I miss that kind of sick…
Let that butterfly
land
on
my
Heart
It’s been so long
Too long…
Let me hear the wind from its wings…
I hope they whisper Truth
Let one antenna brush up against my Heart…
To remind me that I can still feel
Let it see me…
I need to be seen
Don’t fly away
little
butterfly
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 3:41 PM UTC
Love
So Intangible
So Real
Would I still choose to Love you if I had to sacrifice parts of my body?
So quick to give our hearts to each other,
Would speed still rule if the cost was Flesh?
The price list:
Puppy Love - a sliver of skin
First Love - a finger or a hand
Grand Love - a leg or an arm
Unrequited Love - an eye or a tongue
Would you still dive in?
The wound obvious
The Scar A Warning
An Invitation
A Beacon
A Lesson
In the end,
At the very least
We tell ourselves there was "A Lesson"
Don't pretend...
We'd all gladly walk around with parts missing
We already do.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC
No music… no music… no music...
No Music can compare to the song we made
You were the violin and I was the piano
Our chords danced in the ether
A melody sublime
Rising and falling we created color
The fusion the friction the ferocity the fantasy
The fantasy… the fantasy… the fantasy...
The fantasy evaporated
The song had to
End.
And, we both know...
It wouldn’t sound the same if we played it again
The chords are too familiar
The melody's not as sweet
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 4:43 AM UTC
They robbed us!
The one’s that told us what it means to be men…
THEY LIED!!!
They told us feeling is wrong.
And they taught us to be STRONG is to be silent.
"Build a pit," they said, "make it so deep that a lifetime of emotion can’t fill it."
And we oblige.
But we know it’s there…
The stench keeps us up at night.
The fetid fumes cloud our vision;
The windows to our souls opaque to the outside world and those we Love, those we want to reveal ourselves to.
Meanwhile, inside, we’re clawing at the glass with bloodied hands.
GOD HELP ME!!!
I want to be free of this!!
See me!
I’m a human being!
I have hopes,
I have dreams,
I have fears,
I feel sorrow, I know regret, and I believe in redemption…
but all of this...
It's for someone else… someone weak.
What a lie!
So delicious we swallowed it whole—a bitter pill dipped in honey
Given us by those we love,
by those we trust.
The poison works through us,
unrelenting,
T w i s t i n g us, turning us against one another…
No emotions!
Not here!!
You’re a man!!
Be a man!!
**** it up!!!
**** it up until it chokes you!!!
**** it up until you can’t feel anymore!!
**** it up until you’re dry and broken!!
**** it up until you forget...
What life was and what death is…
**** it up because that’s what men do.
They corrupted our legacy
They stole our future.
And we let them do it.
We helped them do it.
Aug 29, 2016
Aug 29, 2016 at 10:33 PM UTC