You want an idea of this life I live
Of these tears I cry
Of these lies I hear
You want an idea of my open wounds
And how I got them
How they will never go away
Day after day
Months after May
You want an idea of all the things I beg for
Of the things I would die for
No idea will ever be as clear as the
Cigarettes I smoke
As the water when I wash my hair
As the leaves as winter is near
You want an idea of how my heart is shaped
How it hurts like darts
How it hides when someone unfamiliar is near
Do you still want an idea of the words In my head
Or the thoughts I left laying in my bed
The idea that you know me from the ideas in your head
Will never amount to the ideas I have left unsaid
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 11:10 AM UTC
I'll never forget you.
Or the things your energy
could make me do
But I don't want to remember,
November or
December
You were perfect,
Perfect for me
Perfect for my Pisces personality
The one that got away
I will always feel like that,
Even up to this day
Fantasies of you and I
All left in the sky
Next to the star
That fades a little when I cry
Can't stop thinking about you
Won't stop thinking about you
Because I remember,
You and I equals the perfect two.
Too good to be true.
Too real to deal with the clues
Come back because
I simply wasn't though.
Feb 9, 2017
Feb 9, 2017 at 10:52 PM UTC
Today I'm writing something new.
Something true.
Today I'm writing something new,
Because of you.
I'm in love.
My heart and your heart,
Fits perfect like a glove.
For the first time I feel alive.
For the first time someone loves all of me.
So today I'm writing something new.
I'm choosing to write about you.
You're perfect,
Perfect for me.
You make me believe in all things,
That could ever be.
I can't sleep anymore,
Because you make staying awake
Better than anything I could ever dream of.
So today I'm writing something new.
I'm writing about my love for you.
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 9:21 PM UTC
Years have passed
And I thought I still loved you.
Maybe I do.
But years have passed
And I met someone new.
She's nothing like you.
She makes me smile
She makes me laugh
Everything about her caught me by surprise.
Her hair is long,
And silky like her bedroom sheets.
Years have passed
But I'm still stuck in the past.
But years have passed
And now the future has arrived.
I could never compare the two,
Even if I wanted to.
Why am I here reminiscing about the past,
When my future is beautiful?
Why am I letting my life pass me by?
I can't lose you.
Not to her.
My heart is tangled,
And ripped in half.
But is it really?
Years have passed.
That's a statement.
You're my past,
And that's a fact.
She's my future,
And that's my new truth.
So why am I here,
Writing about the two,
Side by side in the same paragraph?
If I do the math,
It doesn't add up.
But years have passed
And I'm still ****** up.
Years have passed,
And I must be wise.
I can't continue to live in lies.
For Heaven sakes,
the past has passed.
Years have passed,
And I chose you.
My future.
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 1:39 PM UTC
My darkest memories are starting to fade.
But only to gray, as they still remain.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 8:47 AM UTC
I wake up,
I check my phone.
I don't know why,
Because you no longer contact me.
I wake up,
And it's a new day.
However the pain is still the same.
I wake up,
And cry a little more.
I'm sad,
And this I know.
Today I didn't wake up.
I think it's a dream,
But Tomorrow,
I pray it stays this way.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 8:03 AM UTC
This blank sheet of paper scares me,
For I not know what I may write.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 7:49 AM UTC
I loved a girl once.
I still love that girl.
I doubt it could ever be undone.
I loved a girl once.
She left me,
Finally,
Because I knew this day would come.
I loved a girl once.
I didn't realize how much.
I loved a girl once.
Years later,
I still love that girl.
Years later,
She is still my world.
I loved a girl once.
I loved a girl forever.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 7:34 AM UTC
My heart hurts.
Every morning I wake up,
I relive the day we fought.
As time goes on,
I wait for you to call.
My heart hurts,
Because you still haven't called.
Day 6 and it hasn't gotten easier.
Day 7 I'm praying that you call.
I'm restless,
Because I ******* miss your love.
Every time I think of you,
I write another poem.
My heart still hurts,
And you still haven't called.
I just cut myself,
By accident.
I'm bleeding,
But I don't want it to stop...
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 7:23 AM UTC
Free me of this love,
that I've been yearning.
For I am not deserving.
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 6:27 PM UTC