I'm this person today, but tomorrow I'll be someone else
Do not become attached to me,
I'm not the same as I was yesterday
I'm not the same person you once knew,
I'm not pure
I'm not an angel
I'm far from perfect...
If I talk to you today,
I won't talk to you tomorrow,
I don't know what's going on with me,
All I know is that I don't belong...
If I remember you today
and I forget you tomorrow
Forgive me,
I'm not feeling so well . .
I'm sick and im aware
I'm unconscious of the on-going flings
I tend to make,
If I laugh with you tonight
And show you no emotion tomorrow,
Forgive my judgement...
I live for moments in minutes ,
I die in a matter of hours,
My love is here sometimes
And then it is gone...
I am made of steel,
It's sad to say I can no longer feel....
Oct 30, 2016
Oct 30, 2016 at 3:33 AM UTC
My eyes are windows to the living,
I am not dead yet,
Beyond the dead , I'm alive,
Alive child,
A wild child.
My brows mean as MuMu says
"Look into my eyes chile!"
My mental state is a dollhouse...
I play out scenes in my mind,
As I'm seeing my way out the windows...
Out of the window and into your worlds,
Different stories,
Your alive just like I...
You know in a way we are alike,
You & Me.
Our souls brings the best of feelings,
Flowers blooming in the spring,
Oh i wish ...
I close my windows,
& my dollies fall back into an abyss,
Chained away in a rusty old treasure chest,
Oh God, Dear God,
How can i make a dollhouse for the dollies to live in,
I'm alive ,
But my dollies are in a chest of sin,
I want to break the ribs and reach in to save my ole' friends,
They are plastic but they are my only kin,
**** they are my best friends,
Lips big as blow up dolls,
Their body weight is 80% of alcohol,
It's how i made them...
Their clothes are made out of
The blood I bathe in,
Latex leggings and waist clinchers,
Pale as the purest sand,
Balloon fake ****
Contoured cheekbones,
You would think they were Bratz clones...
My dollies need a H.O.M.E
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 1:36 AM UTC
You are you
I am me,
Why are you preparing bullets,
Why are you trynna target me,
Everyone praising you,
And you ain't telling the truth of the *****
Lies is spilling out your mouth,
As blood comes from my ears & eyes,
You live on lies, on lies, on lies
Humility has captured me,
I am humble each day,
As you dragging me out,
You stumbling on your way.
Why are you shaping the dullest knives,
Why are you setting biased traps,
Why are you trynna have people against me,
Like men who despise women who rap,
Why are you trynna shove me into a ball
And spit me out onto the walls,
Is the imagination of my demise a mural to yall?
Is it amazing to see something so beautiful,
Get so high , but falls?
Is this goofy **** amusing to yall,
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 1:24 AM UTC
I want love,
I need love,
Where is love....
They tell you love is in family,
But they hate...
They tell you love is in you,
In order to find it,
you have to look in the crevasses of your heart,
But within you ,
It's reenactments of a ****** scene ,
Tell me again ,
Can't you answer my question?
Where is love ?
I'm looking for love ,
Love can you see me ?
You want love from me ,
I'm not earthly ,
I can't give you what you need..
My love can't even nuture me,
When I'm in time of need..
How can I learn to love you,
When I'm half loving me...
I create duplicates of paper hearts,
Made up of broken sea shells ..
Forgive me if I'm distant but loving,
I'm convinced I need help...
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 1:23 AM UTC
Can I call you?
At 2 am I can only talk for an hour...
Cause at 3 am,
They say it's the demons hour...
And boo I don't wanna turn on you
And go off on you,
Forgive me if I do it to you,
Your not the struggle that I've been through....
So lil baby can I ask you this?
Can I not be a love that your gonna ignore and miss?
Can you not carry the traits of these fuckboys I've been dismissed....
I didn't curve you,
When I probably could've..
I didn't curve you,
Don't make me feel like I should've....
Can you call me ?
Make love to me with your voice,
Sing to me ,
Like Boys ll Men or
Dru Hill,
Back in the 90s?
Can you feel me ?
A chemistry similar like Jada & Will,
but imma need us to curve mfs,
and be ready to ****
Those who hurt us....
Can you be for me ?
Like a baby without its binky?
Can you be the one to cry for me baby?
But man up because I'm the lady?
Can you love me for life?
I'm not trynna rush anything,
I just be thinking of things....
Your love could be the best thing...
Can you be for me?
I don't wanna have anymore games...
Not another chess piece....
Not another missing puzzle piece....
Maybe what I'm trynna say is...
*Darling can you really love me ?*
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:15 AM UTC
I always play tough,
That's how I have to be,
I can't give these mfs the satisfaction from when they played with me,
My mama always told me,
To never let them see that side of you,
Don't let them get to you,
They'll abuse you and use you,
And
They'll walk away,
Knowingly bruising you,
It always take that one time,
Don't let it be two...
Sep 3, 2016
Sep 3, 2016 at 1:39 AM UTC
2 am ,
Knowing i have stuff to do,
Why do i wake up out of my dreams,
When i dont see you ,
I think of you .....
Do i have you up to ?
Is it hard for you to sleep?
Even though i haven't spoken to you,
In a way i miss the real you...
The one who gave me love and actually felt me..
The one who held me and protected me,
Never exposed me to anyone that wasnt you...
Was my love too "perfect" for you?
I did the things i was supposed to do ,
You questioned me ,
And said to me,
"But i never asked you to.."
It's because my love is real for you ...
Thought you should know,
Cause i know you lurking
They never did say that
True Love was perfect,
I bet that you'll see,
I was really worth it ...
I remember everything you've said,
Even tho I'm gone away,
We at a distance now...
I'm up at 2 am ,
When later i got stuff to do ....
I'm crazy as hell,
Cause lil baby obviously I'm not a priority to you .
Aug 25, 2016
Aug 25, 2016 at 2:20 AM UTC
"Welcome to my red room"
*"Where trouble can find you ,
Ease into my red room,
We drink the darkest liquor & gossip,
Like we blood sisters,*"
Welcome to my red room,
Excuse the weeds and the mold in between the bricks of my dome,
I'll clean it up soon,
Entities and enemies ,
Lovers and lovelies ,
Welcome to my red room,
I don't fit into the box of stereotypes,
Meaning my mind & heart is big,
but my body is small bite...
Red aesthetics surrounds a room,
It makes it comfy for 1 person ,
Even though there's 5 to each room,
"Welcome to my red room,"
Where there are shadows on each wall,
Murals of black bodies and death claws,
Books with magic & art filled with little devils and demons,
Knowledge is what I'm feeding and breathing off of,
She walks with knives under her feet
& she glares with shades so dark for her eyes,
She kisses the Devils lips,
What an unearthly surprise,
In love with a beast,
Who lives in the red room?
Fire places spits flares around the room?
A love that is soon to be doomed?
Why is she living in my red room?
Lady Blonde trapped in a corner,
Deep into her cocoon,
So no one ever saw her,
Holding her head in the darkest corner,
Rocking back and forth,
As she bleeds tears from her pretty brown eyes,
I can see it from the corner,
Corner of my vision
Peripheral vision,
More like easing into the depths of death,
Peripheral death,
the evidence that has been proven,
She has the deepest cracks on her face,
As she breaks on the inside,
It is getting crazy on the outside,
She pounds cakes of makeup,
As her enemy in disguise beats her canvas in like a punching bag,
His songs she would hum,
Until her face is finally done,
Her smile is stitched together,
For now before her peace is gone...
"Welcome to my red room"
*"Where trouble can find you ,
Ease into my red room,
We drink the darkest liquor & gossip,
Like we blood sisters"*
"Welcome to my red room"
Jul 5, 2016
Jul 5, 2016 at 7:25 AM UTC
I understand its too good to be true ,
So you misinterpret the **** that you ain't use to...
I get it, I get it , my dear friend I see you,
You gotta get through the biggest grenades,
You gotta get stabbed by the sharpest knives,
You gotta look at them in their eyes even though all you know they will ever do is lie,
But that don't mean you need them,
But that don't mean you need to decieve them..
As much as they decieve you,
Because that my dear friend,
They'll be most likely to use and abuse you,
You'll tell them your scars & they'll re write them on you..
Physical scars disappearing, mental scars reappearing,
Love & new friendships in life aren't that appealing,
My dear friend,
My dear friend,
Don't be like them,
I'm forever here,
Even though I may not be near,
Love is always near
Jul 5, 2016
Jul 5, 2016 at 6:57 AM UTC
Don't speak of love to me , when you spew out actions of hate, selfishness, unloyalty & disrespect.
You say you love me,
Love child do you know what love is?
Love isn't a temporary feeling,
Love child,
My love & this love & God's love is forever...
You say you like the physical appearances of beauty my body is molded into?
What about the structure and the sacred mind of my mental?
My box isnt in need of fixing from a man or woman's genitals.
My heart & soul is not meant to be fixed by another beings hands,
Because 9 times out of 10,
That same being is willing to break them,
And those who are captive by man...
*Dust is what you came from and dust is what you'll leave with....
I live by the Bible,
He knows all of my secrets...*
Love child or better yet,
Sir or Miss...
Do not try to get into something you know you will **** up and not fix...
Do not try to get into my cellar of love, you will be lost,
Because Sir or Miss,
My love is a sacred love ,
A SACRED LOVE....is the best love,
I don't share my love with others,
Who can't find their own demons,
I don't share my puzzles with others,
Who aren't willing to gather their pieces,
I will not be defined by another being who turns their backs to angels that are here to protect them,
My love isn't an ordinary love,
My love is an extraordinary love,
I won't give you, what society thinks my love should be about nor what the convicts think I should die for,
My love oh my precious love,
You'll feel it before the human race hits the floors....
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 11:55 PM UTC