lately i find myself wanting to
close my hands around something that doesn’t exist
and it’s just as frustrating as it sounds.
i’m forever chasing castles on clouds
but settling for shingle roofs.
Nov 20, 2022
Nov 20, 2022 at 3:16 PM UTC
i talk in circles until i'm dizzy
because i'm scared to break the cycle.
when every thought feels borrowed or stolen,
where does originality come from?
when is anything ever truly just ours?
there are hash marks on my walls
of every day i have spent in this cage.
what happens when i run out of room?
Jun 19, 2022
Jun 19, 2022 at 11:32 PM UTC
when i say "i miss you"
i don't mean the current person who stands before me.
i mean the one you were
before the complications in calculations
and labels on boxes.
i just want you back
Jun 1, 2022
Jun 1, 2022 at 10:46 PM UTC
i went to the dentist's office today
and found out, for the first time, i have two cavities.
i almost laughed because
i actually felt as though the outside reflected the inner.
the dentist used the word "decay"
and i had never felt more understood.
finally, a word for this sick green hollowness.
i think this is what i have become,
just rotted teeth, one by one.
May 21, 2022
May 21, 2022 at 10:56 PM UTC
the room spins and the earth spins
and it's an ecstatic kind of vertigo
to have your life turned upside down,
to watch the dismantling of a metropolitan city.
Mar 23, 2022
Mar 23, 2022 at 1:49 PM UTC
a treasure of classic poetry,
oh how i wish you'd read to me.
sing it sweet and low in my ear,
for only you and me to hear.
it shall be my best kept secret.
Mar 14, 2022
Mar 14, 2022 at 11:14 PM UTC
your favorite pine, the breathless static.
the bold month fades away
and you go with it.
Mar 11, 2022
Mar 11, 2022 at 3:52 PM UTC
i can remember sitting in the living room and
listening to you talk to your mom on the phone.
and i remember laying in the floor by your feet
when you dried your hair.
i didn't understand, then, how you had so much to talk about every time.
i sit on the other side of 7 years and
i understand it now.
i understand it when i look at my phone and
see we have been talking for an hour
about nothing and everything and nothing again.
i still believe everything you say, and take it for fact.
i want to talk it dead with you forever.
just me and you, on the same line.
just me and you
Mar 6, 2022
Mar 6, 2022 at 10:49 PM UTC
now i'm trying to look for someone who makes me feel like
i don't deserve them.
like it took the power of all the celestial objects
for you to want me.
i'm tired of thinking i deserve things,
it's good to be reminded of my faults.
want to feel like i am the one girl in the crowd
you chose to come on stage and be by your side.
i want to say "i don't deserve you" until my voice stops working.
i don't want to deserve you but i want you to love my anyway.
Feb 21, 2022
Feb 21, 2022 at 2:50 PM UTC
you are a jungle, a sequoia tree, the rain in a drought.
grass withers and flowers fade, but i promise we'll stand forever.
Feb 16, 2022
Feb 16, 2022 at 10:58 PM UTC