I can't help but wonder
Could you still love me
If i layed my soul open for you?
Could you love me
Even though my heart is broken
Could you love me
Even though i hide my pain?
Could you love me
if i yearn to be touched,
But also shy away from it?
Could you love me
If i crave affection
But can't reach out for it?
Could you love me
Even though i am scared to let you in?
Could you love me
Even though i hide in darkness?
I can't help but wonder
Would you still love me
If i layed my soul open for you?
Mar 25, 2023
Mar 25, 2023 at 5:57 PM UTC
I'm lying here in my bed
as tears slip from my eyes.
It hurts so much
to have you around
My old friend,
why did you come back?
You know how much
your embrace hurts me.
Loneliness my friend,
I beg you to leave.
I can't stay with you
it hurts too much.
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 9:57 PM UTC
I'm just a lost soul
wandering the world.
My wings are broken,
my hands are tied.
My being slowly fades away.
I'm turning into a ghost.
Noone sees me,
and i'm lonely.
I'm just lying here,
yearning, longing,
wishing to be seen,
wishing to be held.
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 9:55 PM UTC
You're sitting in the forest, alone
you just feel at ease.
Noone can really understand you,
but somehow you just don't care.
You want to be yourself,
but who are you?
You don't really know it either.
You seem to follow a path that noone can see
but you don't know where it leads.
Anyway you don't want to be saved,
you say that you are not lost.
You want to be lead by your feelings
but what do they tell you?
I want to understand you but it seems impossible,
Too many riddles are left for me to solve.
Do I have to understand you to keep you company?
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 9:54 PM UTC
Loneliness,
it will isolate you,
it will make you bleed,
it will make you weak.
Once you've given up the fight
it will embrace you,
hold you in it's cold arms
where you'll shiver so bad.
Eventually
you'll fight free,
you'll meet friends,
you'll be happy.
But in the end
you'll never shake the cold,
that awful cold
that creeps upon you at night.
It will make you yearn
for a comforting touch,
some warmth
to soothe your shivering soul.
Oh how I wish for some warmth,
for someone to hold on to
while my feelings wash over me
and drag me into darkness.
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 9:51 PM UTC
Hey little girl,
I know you feel lonely.
I know you're scared,
scared of being left behind.
Sometimes you wish
you could just stop feeling this pain.
Sometimes you wish
you we're stronger.
I know sometimes you wish
you weren't so vulnerable.
But let me tell you one thing:
It's actually one of your strengths.
It's what creates friendships.
If you let someone see your vulnerability
They might show you theirs
and you can learn to trust again.
Carry your sensitivity proudly
it makes you beautiful.
Maybe you'll get hurt,
but you're strong enough to carry on.
Take the chance to feel loved again.
Remember,
never shut yourself off
no matter how scared you are.
Keep reaching out,
you never know
who's waiting for you.
So no matter what you feel
please don't bottle it up.
Cry as loud as you want to,
be as weak as you want to.
All your feelings are valid,
all of them are important!
I want you to know
that I'll always be here.
I'll be your shoulder to lean on
and i'll soothe you
no matter how weak you feel.
I want you to know
you are safe and loved.
Feb 21, 2021
Feb 21, 2021 at 3:16 PM UTC
I thought I was strong
but I had to realize
i'm not.
I'm weak.
Pathetic of me
to think I was welcome here.
It hits me right in the heart,
invisible pain flooding over me.
"Why can't i be stronger?"
I say as i tear myself apart,
cursing my fragile skin,
tears filling up my eyes.
Hiding behind a mask
while i'm drowning in pain
and self-hatred feasts off me.
But I won't let you see me cry.
I run to my cage,
at least i'm welcome there.
Am i not enough?
Why is noone happy i'm here?
I thought i was stronger
but my skin is made of paper.
and my heart is getting heavier and heavier.
I sink to the floor,
drowning in tears.
Aug 25, 2020
Aug 25, 2020 at 4:15 PM UTC
Here I am again
trying to make you think
that i am fine
and well I am.
Except for one little thing...
I haven't touched another persons skin
in weeks.
And yes, I feel lonely
even though that loneliness might be more of a skin hunger.
You have no Idea how much I long
for a gentle embrace.
In fact I don't even know it myself.
The feeling is trapped deep inside of me
and I can only feel it
when my walls are crumbeling to pieces
and i am left naked in the dark.
But this feeling has been haunting me for years.
A strange obsession with vulnerability,
I just want to be held and cared for.
I want to be able to show you my naked soul
and I hope you will see the beauty in it.
I hope you will caress me
and soothe the deep longing in my heart.
But I can't even talk about that part of me,
it feels way to vulnerable
so poetry is the only way
to give it a voice.
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 8:59 PM UTC
My vision blurs.
innocent gesture or a threat -
I can't tell annymore.
Your cold fingers
caressing my delicate skin,
my only comfort -
Or so I think.
Each touch makes me weaker
as you close up to me,
guide me to lie in your frigid arms,
it seems so comfortable.
I can't feel my body slowly freezing.
Gently you blindfold me,
shutting out the two faced impressions,
and all the hidden kindness along the way.
Slowly you strip me,
expose my fragility,
and pull me close.
My shelter.
How could i fight free?
I can't let them see me
wrapped up in your icy arms, blindfolded.
I just can't let them see me bare and weak.
But i feel a warm hand stroking my skin.
It rips my blindfold away,
My vision's still blurry
But i can see her smiling at me.
She holds her hand out for me -
Should i take it? I don't know.
She's so warm
and and the warmth feels so good.
Gently she holds my hand
giving me comfort.
I lean towards her
as she carefully pulls me up
And the icy body looses its grip on me.
Finally freed from the icy embrace
I feel so exhausted and fragile
But she pull me up,
Lending me her strength.
She teaches me how to trust again
And i finally realize
There's so much warmth around me,
I just need to keep my eyes open for it.
I know you'll catch up on me,
My icy friend.
I know that sometimes
I will feel your cold embrace
And maybe i will even lean into it,
But I know I won't let you blind me anymore.
Feb 14, 2020
Feb 14, 2020 at 9:52 AM UTC
Wrists so thin they could snap,
merely a skeleton covered in skin.
Fed by words she lives on,
hiding in the shadows.
A slender figure
following my every step.
Empty eyes staring at me
piercing through my skin.
The cold radiates from her body
making me shiver.
The smell of disease
invading my senses.
I look at my shadow
as it is changing it's form
morphing into her,
my heart starts racing.
Jan 11, 2020
Jan 11, 2020 at 11:04 PM UTC