that since day one, she's already had everything she needs within herself. it's the world that convinced her she did not.
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017 at 8:28 PM UTC
i worry for what we have may not be enough
that one day my smile will not shine the same for him
as it does on this very day
i worry that he won't see how much my heart
cares so deeply for his touch
and craves his soul
i worry i am not as good as she was
that my presence does not flow into words
like hers did
i worry that my heart will always be broken from the last
time i loved
where i could never break through him
but instead
i only broke myself
Jan 25, 2017
Jan 25, 2017 at 6:17 PM UTC
(1)
My heart fell into his hands
That bright September morning
(17)
Wild flowers bloom in my chest
As he stares from across the room
(76)
I always loved how you always finished my sentences
(And I love you t-)
(210)
His eyes lit up brighter than the galaxy
And I shut my eyes tight
To prove to myself
I am the only supernova in his eyes
(308)
Day seemed to shift too quickly
Into night
Where the stars are masked by the
Impeding clouds
(501)
He left the lights on and the flowers unwatered
(634)
He said he could live without me
Yet
He's still breathing while I drown
(789)
You are in my heart
But I am not in yours
(901)
Weeds weaved in the crevice of my bones
2:31 stays by my side
(1,105)
Time no longer stands still when he looks over me
Whispering his perpetual love
(1,256)
He brings me flowers to prove the pain behind his smile is inexistent
(1,427)
How could I have fallen in love with a boy who
Could never have the capacity to love me, too
(1,582)
He tells me how much better I could be without him
Yet these last one thousand five hundred and eighty two days
All I crave is you
Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 1:19 AM UTC
"i don't want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own
i want to be so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
because the two of us combined
could set it on fire"
Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 12:51 AM UTC
"it was when i stopped searching for a home
within others
and lifted the foundations of home
within myself
i found there were no roots more intimate
than those between a mind and body
that have decided to be whole"
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 9:10 PM UTC
how is someone able to discover the very depths of your soul when i can barely
dig on my own
how can i prove i am worth loving when i can't find the words to explain
how empty i feel in his absence
how do i tell him how radiant he shines when all i am able to do is stumble around
how i really feel
how am i able to look into
his eyes
as i feel the world pulling me in
when he does not feel the same
in return
Nov 6, 2016
Nov 6, 2016 at 9:07 PM UTC
1
My eyes still wander in hope to see you in the hallow hallways
2
I stopped imagining you as the person I hoped you would be, and accepted the reality of who you are today. Part of me will always long for the beginning and remember who we used to be
3
I often go to our favorite places and I don't crave the memories anymore. I don't feel the heart ache anymore.
4
Attention from new people excites me and I feel an overwhelming confidence like never before. Luckily this experience has pushed me to finally discover who I've always wanted to be
5
I am at peace with your incapablilty to love me
6
You and I together in all did more destruction than good, and we are both better off continuing our lives on the separate paths we were meant to be on.
7
You will always hold a piece of my heart as my first everything.
8
Thank you for helping the girl who couldn't think straight half the time and was afraid of everything life had to offer, I appreciate that more than you know.
9
Our memories make me smile when they occasionally come up in conversation. There's no aching left behind my smile, just peace and pure happiness.
Oct 15, 2015
Oct 15, 2015 at 6:51 PM UTC
Forgiveness is a funny thing
It warms the heart
And cools the sting
— William Arthur Ward
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 1:01 PM UTC
His calm, cool kiss awakens me each August morning
Does he love me?
His weary rays struggle to bring warmth
Others shield themselves from his light
But I've learned to accept
He will burn my porcelain skin
He kisses me good night
I feel a guilt-ridden relief
As I watch him slowly fade away
I put my head to my pillow and shut my eyes tight
Because maybe
Just maybe
His rays will go away
Each night I fell more in love with the night sky
I watched the stars burn in solitude
But somehow I always missed
His burning kiss
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 10:13 PM UTC
my intention was nothing more than to shed a light across your heart
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 11:02 AM UTC