I had a dream last night
You died again
I had a dream last night
And I had to survive again
It all still hurts
Even though it's been three years
It all still hurts
Come back again
I need you here again
Why did you die, again?
Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 8:39 AM UTC
Breathe in
Breathe out
Namaste
Breathe in
Breathe out
I will stay
Negative out
Positive in
I am here
I am okay
I am okay
Namaste
Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 8:29 AM UTC
It's been a while
Are we okay?
I ask this question every day
Who are you to leave me hanging
For the millionth time
What is left to be taken?
Well, this time I have the upper hand
Because this time, I never actually let you in
So go on and get out
It won't phase me one bit
I'm fine on my own
I don't need your ****
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 4:05 PM UTC
It hurts
You feel empty
Like no one will ever know
The pain is crippling
Takes you down in a moment
Impossible to stand back up
Where's the light at the end of the tunnel
The rainbow after the storm
The color in the picture
It's all gone
It's disappeared
It's empty
But you have to stand up
You have to hold your ground
You are important
There will be a light
There will be a rainbow
The color is still there, just open your eyes
Stay, stay, stay.
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 5:12 PM UTC
It took a long time
You fought the good fight
But sometimes it's not enough
You always had a smile
You never showed the pain
It was hard to tell the cancer was even there, sometimes
But now you are home
With the angel's wings we all knew should be on your shoulders
Among the saints
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 3:15 PM UTC
Carpe diem
Seize the day
I know it's scary
I know it's hard
But you don't have to be alone
Don't get swallowed up
It's not your fault
Don't blame yourself
Stay strong
Be brave
You are beautiful
You are chapter that need not end yet
Carpe diem
Seize the day
Live it well
Let it ring
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:54 AM UTC
It was one summer
With many goals
One summer that allowed me to figure it all out
In one moment I realized what I want to do for sure
But in one moment I also realized I missed you
Yet in the next
I realized that I am one person that doesn't need you
And that I am one person that can change the world
All it took was one summer
One
Aug 11, 2014
Aug 11, 2014 at 9:22 AM UTC
It repeats, repeats
This feeling repeats
The need to hurt, to get this unspoken pain out
It repeats, it repeats
It repeats, it repeats
The panic
The shaky breaths, the heart racing
It repeats, repeats
It repeats, it repeats
The phone rings
Need to call, need to get help
It repeats, it repeats
She repeats, she repeats
Try to breathe
Find your favorite song, drink some tea
She repeats, she repeats
Song repeats, song repeats
I can breathe
Sing along, drink the hot tea
Song repeats, song repeats
Back on repeat, back on repeat
I'm okay
Just praying it will stay this way
Back on repeat, back on repeat
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 2:04 PM UTC
The fact that it's been 5 months
The fact that you are gone
The fact that I can no longer call your voicemail and at least hear your voice there
The fact that this weight is crushing me
The fact that you would be getting married
The fact that you should have graduated
The fact that your nephew won't remember you
The fact that I can't hug you
Or yell "mom" at the top of my lungs
The fact that I still cry whenever someone talks about you
The fact that my best friend is gone
I miss you
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 1:15 PM UTC
Same old story
Same old tale
But to you it never seems to get old
Have you ever considered the way it affects me
Or how much it hurts to see your glee
I am backing away
This time to never return
It's time for me to go
And for once ignore my rear view mirror
Goodbye
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 11:47 AM UTC