Standing on the edge of despair
my life spiraling out of control
I call out to the one above
who knows me better than I know myself
Spiritually down I called to the upmost high
Asking the Lord for his grace and mercy
Drained I go bout my day my shoulders a lot lighter
already feeling burdens being lifted
Letting him do his will realizing I couldnt do it by myself
When I let go and let God
Things in my life started changing for the better
Things begin to make since again
Doors opened that I thought were closed to me
As I praised and gave thanks to the one who made it possible
I looked at my life and determined
the reason why things are the way they were
I had lost my way and my faith had waivered
Not doing the things I knew i needed to do
with out prayer and work I was allowing the devil
to dictate my life with chaos and confusion
Leaving destruction in my path
As I look back on my life recognizing all the miracles
and things that he had his hand in
Reconfirming that God can do all things.
Dec 8, 2011
Dec 8, 2011 at 3:08 PM UTC
Thinking about you in every word
Your hair...
Your lips...
Your smile...
and your eyes...
Thinking that you are
Caring...
Thoughtful...
Respectful...
and wise...
I love the way you
walk...
the way you talk...
the way you say my name...
There are days that I
Miss you...
Desire you...
Care for you...
and love you...
I sometimes sit and wonder if you
Are thinking of me.....
Jul 15, 2011
Jul 15, 2011 at 9:38 AM UTC
My life is in shambles
Stress taking over my life
the constant drinking trying to drown
this feeling hoping with this false
courage that can deal
Tired of being angry
Tired of being sad
Tired of crying, tear ducts depleted
I can't breathe or sleep
Everything is in turmoil
Feeling helpless there is no easy fix
Exhausted from all this pain, misery and heartache
Temper flairing at the most minut things
Can't seem to catch a break
Everything is falling apart all around me
This is more than I can handle
My stability is being rocked
Rocked to the core
Jul 13, 2011
Jul 13, 2011 at 10:12 AM UTC
The scorching fire heats up your soul
The flame the color of red, orange and blue
Water its enemy and wood its food source
A beautiful thing can be so powerful
and destructive at the same time
The fire travels through the forest
making a path in its wake
Burning everything in sight to ashes
Making the animals who are fast run for their lives
The unfortunate ones burn to a crisp in howling rage
When its all over the forest is left to its own devices
To pull itself together
To start over again in its circle of life
As another fire stats in the city
Burning its 5 story home in its fiery grave
Having no remorse the battle wages on between fire and water
Each putting up a good fight to the very end
When water conquers all in its victory
Jul 13, 2011
Jul 13, 2011 at 9:58 AM UTC
The sky is cloudy then gradually turns black
No stars or mmon in the sky
In the distance you see
A streak of light across the sky
Followed by a booming sound
The air still with humidity
Reminding me when i was little
How my mother used to explain to me
About how the Greeks Gods were fighting
Then God started crying big drops of tears
The winds picked up howling like a child
in pain with each gust
The lights on the tower twinkling in the distance
wanting the comfort of my momma's body heat
I crept in the bed with her
Her soft voice as she reassured me everything
Will be okay answering my questions as
a mother would to her daughter
Sheltering me from this harsh world
As I grew up realize that a storm wasn't
Just the weather but goes on in life
The turmoil, the clash between negative and positive
The good and the bad
QNA
Jul 13, 2011
Jul 13, 2011 at 9:42 AM UTC
As the waves lull you to sleep
A sudden noise raises you but of your dreams
And then you spot a breaching whale
that feels you with aspiration
The waves lapping at your boat making
a rhythm that is music to your ears
The saltiness in the air making your lips chapped
The wind whipped all around you
Making a thundering sounds on your sails
The sound of the ocean brings tears to your eyes
How could something so peaceful and tranquil be full of music
Donning scuba gear you prepare to swim with the fishes
But once down there nothing prepares you for what you see
The ocean is so blue and then so green at the same time
A sight that takes your breath away
Time lapse while you're swimming this colorful world
Seeing many beautiful creatures in their truest form
Then to your left you see what you've never thought you would be able to see
Two dolphins and a baby swimming behind a school of fishes
You experience what people only dream about complete serenity
QNA
Jul 13, 2011
Jul 13, 2011 at 8:50 AM UTC
Brow beaten and body bent shoulders tense
With a headache in the midst
Dragging, you push through the day
Your only thought is of a soft bed awaiting your arrival
Awaiting the feel of comfort to wrap its self around you
The prospect of a soak in a hot bubble bath
helps you get through the day
You can picture it, salt beads with candles lit all around
Melting in the water along with your problems soothing your aching body
As your worries disappear with each breathe
Your mind travels back to the troubles of the day
Thanking God that its all over
And you start fresh the next day
Happy to be at home in your safe enviroment
You slip into your most comfortable pj's
And curl yourself up with a good book to wind down
The pressures of the day tucked in for the night
QNA
Jul 12, 2011
Jul 12, 2011 at 9:15 AM UTC
I see many things
I see the good and the bad
The hard times and the wonderful times
As I leaf through the newspaper
I see a world of chaos
The war overseas is destroying our lives
I see people dying, lying, cheating and stealing
In our country the very place we call home
Satan is in our mist
The devil has got his horns on this world
And won’t let loose
And I’m just sitting here waiting
Waiting on the other shoe to drop
I look around me and I wonder
What this world is becoming to
Judgment day is nipping at the back of our heels
And were not ready
Were to occupied with crime, punishment and greed
We don’t even bother to look up and take notice
It’s like we have shields on our eyes
Blocking that 6th sense we are supposed to have
Our instinct is no longer there
Foreign to our minds
Decapitated from our thoughts
QNA
Jul 12, 2011
Jul 12, 2011 at 8:30 AM UTC
The dry heat takes your breath away
Leaving you struggling to draw life into your lungs
Sweat dripping off your brow
The sun beaming hot on your back
Miles and miles of sand with nothing else in sight
Make your wish of home
But even the draught there is an unseen beauty there
The peace and quiet tranquility pour over you
A motion in the corner of your eye catches your attention
You see an iguana born to live on this dry forsaken land
Its fast movements scurrying over the sand amuses you
There is a cactus with a gorgeous flower bloomed on its prickly skin
You are but oh so beautiful
The snake slithering leaving amazing marks behind in its haste in the sand
Then a torrent wind brings a sense of being over you cooling you off for just brief moment
But when the sunsets the nights are cool
Sitting around the fire letting your thoughts drift over the wonders of the world
QNA
Jul 12, 2011
Jul 12, 2011 at 7:22 AM UTC
Undiscovered
Unconquered
and untampered with
Pure as the snow on the highest caps
No worries
no drama
no situation
no problems that she can call her own
Ducking and dodging the vultures
that can smell her innocence
Wanting to be the first to claim
She moves on knowing her worth
and will not settle for less
They yell after her with no respect
but she does not mind she don't have the time
or patience for such vulgarity
Now 18 with her virtue safe and sound
She has things to do
life to conquer
Out on her own a sheltered child
she face the big world with dreams and ambition
Not knowing about the wolves in sheep clothing
that she will meet along the way
She meet a man who befriended her
made her feel safe in this crazy world
Took her in, in a city where she knew no one
Took care of her bought her everything
she ever needed or wanted
Her whole life was this man
her savior in her eyes, the love of her life
She made a decision to giver her one true gift to him
and that was her virginity
The day of the gift giving she set everything up
so it would be special
Told him that she had a surprise for him
but what she didn't know he had a surprise waiting for her
It started off as planned but then his whole demeanor altered
to a man she didn't know
He got rough with her
Hitting and chocking her
Before she knew it 3 men appeared
before her like they were on stand by
A night she would always remember
they ravashed and spoiled her
used her like a wet rag
A night of pain and humiliation
With film to capture this horrible moment
The man she loved and believed in
turned out to be a snake/a monster
He started controlling her every move
said she had to pay him back
for everything he ever did for her
He tricked her out to hundreds of men
Threatened to **** her if she ever left
With no hope for a better life
She turned to drugs to dull the pain and anguish
Now an abused prositute crack *****
Abused in every form she thinks the only way out
is in the form of death
After 4 years of heartache and misery she finally had enough
She made the decision to give the last special gift, her life
The day of the gift giving she set everything up so it would be special
She wrote her last words and went to sleep
He found her the next morning in the tub surrounded by burnt down candles
Od'd on her drug of choice
with both wrist slit
She wanted to be sure
He read her final goodbyes
With her life in his hands the monster spiraled out of controlled
it haunted him til he couldnt take it no more
and ended his torment in a cloud of gunsmoke
QNA
Jul 11, 2011
Jul 11, 2011 at 11:05 AM UTC