21,600
apat na taon akong nanahimik
dinampot ang pira-pirasong sarili
nagbabakasakaling sa pangalawang pagkakataon ay mabuo muli
di man kagaya ng noon na walang bahid ng basag
umaasang mabuo at makatayo sa kabila ng mga lamat
at nang dumating ang araw
na naisip kong kaya ko nang muling tumayo
sinubukan ko namang lumakad
dahan dahan at papalayo
kanang paa..kaliwang paa..
at nakaurong ng kaunti
kanang paa..kaliwang paa..
at natututo na muli
sa marahang paglakad ko
hindi ko inaasahan na mapapadaan ako sayo
di mo ako kilala at ganun din ako sayo
pero pinili kong manatili
dahil ano nga bang mali?
pinili mo din manatili
dahil ano nga bang mali?
lumagpas ng minuto, oras, araw, linggo
nandito padin tayo
pero bakit parang gusto ko nang tumakbo
hawak ang kamay mo at tumakbong papalayo
tumakbo at sabay na kikilalanin ang hinaharap
tumakbo at sabay na abutin ang mga pangarap
tumakbo magkahawak ang kamay, sa hirap man o sa sarap
gusto kong tumakbo
sa aking pananabik ay nabanggit ko to sa iyo
at humakbang ka ng isa palayo..
sinabi ko muli sayo
kanang paa..kaliwang paa..palayo
sinabi mo sa akin na di mo kayang sumabay
na ang nais ko ay di maibibigay
at doon naalala ko
oo nga pala napadaan lang ako.
Oct 30, 2021
Oct 30, 2021 at 10:12 AM UTC
We are looking at different colored skies
Different hues and shades
But I know the strings in our heart will always be tied
For we are staring up at the same vast ocean up high
Mar 15, 2019
Mar 15, 2019 at 9:56 AM UTC
I can see mountains up in the sky
I wonder if one day I'll be able to hike up on those rocks painted orange by the peeking sun
I want to feel the air where birds wander and fly
Be able to touch a soothing veil and calmly hum
Inhale the foreign fragrance far from what I'm used to
Hope that it will recolor the faded visions that I am currently swimming through
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 6:32 PM UTC
Two bottles down
But I can still smell my fear
Open another one, for myself to drown
But my sinking ship is vivid and clear
Grind something familiar
that I haven't tasted for years
Fire up my useless lighter that I've been keeping near
I just want to be lost in a different way
Stop being in reality for a second
Let my mind wander and stray
Taste the colors and let it linger down my throat
Swim away from my self despair and loathe
I know this wouldn't last
I hope this would last
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 9:45 AM UTC
We share the same sight,
but we differ in vision
Same mouth and tongue,
but we speak different reasons
Same soul,
asking for explanation
Same heart,
both filled with confusion
Same two hands and feet,
lost in wandering in the same monochrome direction
Same being, and we're both still waiting.
May 19, 2018
May 19, 2018 at 2:07 AM UTC
Here I write to everyone
whose faith is gone
for those who gave everything
and ended up embracing nothing
Remember that every burden you take
every wounds that you feel
every sorrows and heartbreaks
will all be concealed
Your body full of scars
are the only thing you hold onto
to prove that you are not far
from the dreams you look up to
Painful dealings
will slowly disappear
all the cries and tears
will fade away, my dear.
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 8:40 AM UTC
I lay down with my eyes wide open and heart shut
My mind playing all this tricks and my stomach knots
My throat is choking with all these unknown fears
I can taste the bitterness of my own tears
I breathe through my mouth 'cause it is the only way I know how
I can't hear anything else 'cause I just let myself drown
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 7:10 AM UTC
word that keeps me up at night
word that the voices screams inside
word that I can see through their eyes
word that they made me feel everytime.
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
out of all the things that she havent tried
death,
is always something that stirs up her mind
bewildered,
fascinated
of how a single action
can cause a ripple effect of emotions
she wanted to see the reaction
of the people that never really showed anything to her
she wanted to know what it feels like to lie down
with serenity and peace
plastered in a motionless face.
before, she made a decision
attempted
but she is too weak,
she ponders
if being dead
is the same feeling as her being alive
she knows that she can try
with darkened mind
and shattered heart
there is no turning back this time
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 8:41 AM UTC
Twenty
I never thought a number would throw me into a rollercoaster of emotions
Twenty
Was my age when life gives me flying kisses of ruination
All the feelings that I kept in the back of my heart
Provoked by a number
Twenty
Was the day I witnessed my own death
In front of the mirror I keep convincing myself
that it is all fine
Its alright
Twenty
As I swallow the pill that my shadow gave me
I choked
I laughed
I tasted my own tears
"bittersweet" I told myself
only the hands of despair is there to help
I touched it's cold palms
And left my soul frozen and somber
My feet can no longer feel and wander
Twenty
Please tell me
How to stop a number
How can it be a dagger
How can twenty be a melancholy's epitome
Jun 26, 2017
Jun 26, 2017 at 7:52 AM UTC