pxxhxxpxx - Hello Poetry

with you. i remember you let me in the rotation. i remember you blowing smoke up above us. i can't remember how it looked but i remember it was hot. i miss you so much. i miss everything about us i feel so useless now so gone and done i wonder if you ever miss me i assume no

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May 11, 2018

May 11, 2018 at 12:39 PM UTC

1st party

with you. i remember you let me in the rotation. i remember you blowing smoke up above us. i can't remember how it looked but i remember it was hot. i miss you so much. i miss everything about us i feel so useless now so gone and done i wonder if you ever miss me i assume no

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I heard you got into ecstasy recently. i hate that you abuse that i know what it does to people. i wish i could talk to you one more time stop you from doing these hard drugs i miss when me and you would just smoke i wonder why you would do this i wonder why you said you were happy i just want one more conversation. i want to tell you that i care that i don't want him to suffer i just want to let him know i forgive him and i'm sorry i just want him to know i am always here for him i want him to know i want him to be happy i want him to stop doing pills and codeine i want him to never do e again i want him to stop acid and shrooms i am worried that he is falling down a hole i'm worried about the cigarettes he smokes i'm so worried he will die i know he is suffering i know he's a liar when he says he is happy i know he is sad, and so am i i just want one more conversation before he's gone

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Mar 20, 2018

Mar 20, 2018 at 12:41 PM UTC

gone

I heard you got into ecstasy recently. i hate that you abuse that i know what it does to people. i wish i could talk to you one more time stop you from doing these hard drugs i miss when me and you would just smoke i wonder why you would do this i wonder why you said you were happy i just want one more conversation. i want to tell you that i care that i don't want him to suffer i just want to let him know i forgive him and i'm sorry i just want him to know i am always here for him i want him to know i want him to be happy i want him to stop doing pills and codeine i want him to never do e again i want him to stop acid and shrooms i am worried that he is falling down a hole i'm worried about the cigarettes he smokes i'm so worried he will die i know he is suffering i know he's a liar when he says he is happy i know he is sad, and so am i i just want one more conversation before he's gone

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no passion no love no poetry left inside me he's gone now it's just me nothing left

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Mar 13, 2018

Mar 13, 2018 at 12:22 PM UTC

nothing left

no passion no love no poetry left inside me he's gone now it's just me nothing left

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college job career moving out relationships children old age A whole lifetime of possibilities stands before me now only 18 and every choice laid out an unknown abyss only lit by a candle in my hand what will become of me? what will I choose? will my life be one to end early? will my life be filled with joy? will I become my best possible self? will I be trapped in the possibilities and forever immobile? what will my life entail? a future unknown

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Mar 6, 2018

Mar 6, 2018 at 12:21 PM UTC

a future unknown

college job career moving out relationships children old age A whole lifetime of possibilities stands before me now only 18 and every choice laid out an unknown abyss only lit by a candle in my hand what will become of me? what will I choose? will my life be one to end early? will my life be filled with joy? will I become my best possible self? will I be trapped in the possibilities and forever immobile? what will my life entail? a future unknown

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three years of thoughts three years of talk three years of glances always someone to go to always someone to tell now it's just quiet. silent. a few glances here and there always livid eyes with sparks of longing but quiet. no more thoughts no more talk nobody to go to an option destroyed no words just eyes of i miss you and a devastating acceptance an acceptance of the quiet a binding look between us that has only one term: quiet

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Mar 6, 2018

Mar 6, 2018 at 12:14 PM UTC

quiet

three years of thoughts three years of talk three years of glances always someone to go to always someone to tell now it's just quiet. silent. a few glances here and there always livid eyes with sparks of longing but quiet. no more thoughts no more talk nobody to go to an option destroyed no words just eyes of i miss you and a devastating acceptance an acceptance of the quiet a binding look between us that has only one term: quiet

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being alone breathing freely knowing there is no judgement no eyes except my own a lovely feeling knowing nobody can hurt me a divine force inside me not seen by anyone A few moments alone with myself I might be ok in this moment forever never going back, always silent and singular always a fresh breeze and the carelessness maybe loving myself is just this being comfortably alone, nobody in sight As if I am the last person on earth no option of loneliness

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Feb 13, 2018

Feb 13, 2018 at 4:28 PM UTC

lone

being alone breathing freely knowing there is no judgement no eyes except my own a lovely feeling knowing nobody can hurt me a divine force inside me not seen by anyone A few moments alone with myself I might be ok in this moment forever never going back, always silent and singular always a fresh breeze and the carelessness maybe loving myself is just this being comfortably alone, nobody in sight As if I am the last person on earth no option of loneliness

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my life has just been waiting waiting to be done with elementary waiting for a boyfriend waiting to grow up waiting to get to high school waiting for the pain to go away waiting to just get past this year waiting for people to love me waiting for him to make a move waiting for him to come back waiting to graduate high school waiting...waiting... I don't want to wait anymore I want to enjoy my life and not be waiting for the next part I want to love this part. I don't know how to stop waiting

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Feb 5, 2018

Feb 5, 2018 at 12:34 PM UTC

wait

my life has just been waiting waiting to be done with elementary waiting for a boyfriend waiting to grow up waiting to get to high school waiting for the pain to go away waiting to just get past this year waiting for people to love me waiting for him to make a move waiting for him to come back waiting to graduate high school waiting...waiting... I don't want to wait anymore I want to enjoy my life and not be waiting for the next part I want to love this part. I don't know how to stop waiting

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Finally 18. I'm horrified.

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Dec 7, 2017

Dec 7, 2017 at 12:01 PM UTC

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Finally 18. I'm horrified.

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I haven't thought about you in A week Longest since we met You just haven't crossed my mind It's weird though. I saw you today and I missed you again And it was almost foreign, missing you I wonder when I'll finally move on

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Nov 13, 2017

Nov 13, 2017 at 3:58 PM UTC

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I haven't thought about you in A week Longest since we met You just haven't crossed my mind It's weird though. I saw you today and I missed you again And it was almost foreign, missing you I wonder when I'll finally move on

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When She made him feel small Tore him down and sliced pieces of him He would come to me and I would build him up I would be my best self and make him feel big When she would belittle him I was there to nourish his ego I didn't notice it when it happened I just thought there was something between us But he just felt small And I was stupid and I let him use me Maybe it was the right thing to do Build him up But I didn't notice until it was too late that I was small now I was smaller than he ever was. He had taken all of me. I poured everything into him and Left myself Hallow. Maybe one day someone can build me back up. Or I could learn from his mistake, and build myself up. No matter how long it takes.

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Nov 7, 2017

Nov 7, 2017 at 10:31 PM UTC

Small

When She made him feel small Tore him down and sliced pieces of him He would come to me and I would build him up I would be my best self and make him feel big When she would belittle him I was there to nourish his ego I didn't notice it when it happened I just thought there was something between us But he just felt small And I was stupid and I let him use me Maybe it was the right thing to do Build him up But I didn't notice until it was too late that I was small now I was smaller than he ever was. He had taken all of me. I poured everything into him and Left myself Hallow. Maybe one day someone can build me back up. Or I could learn from his mistake, and build myself up. No matter how long it takes.

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