from my rented burdens
with no Earth
I rot alone in this cloud, sunken bed
ungfited & ungrieved
the sleep talking ****** curses withdraws
the sea of agony
blow ash in my eyes
for the dreaming skull is never asleep when the moon
echoes for the lost wanderer's calling
to guide it's tired eyes to drift
to slumber
the heaven dreamt is disguised in despair
the dread of death
Dec 31, 2023
Dec 31, 2023 at 12:10 AM UTC
i go to bed trying to sleep
at the crack of dawn
where I hear the morning birds
chirp me lullabies
i’ve been playing too long
with fellow moon
that I’ve forgotten how life was
without the darkness
Apr 7, 2023
Apr 7, 2023 at 11:58 PM UTC
I am nowhere near where you left me,
I am now stronger than my demons
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 9:41 PM UTC
That one night, I told you I was scared
"What if I was to fall??"
Yet, you whispered in my ear ever so softly
“But darling what if you were to fly?”
I trusted in your words, but my feet never left the ground.
You clipped my wings and hung them up on a frame.
Beautiful and trapped.
Decaying slowly for your eyes to love for an eternity
And you dare say its my fault for staying,
when I was held hostage from your selfishness.
You ******* tricked me.
But maybe it was my fault.
The problem with me was I depended on you to love me the way I wanted to love myself.
But by doing that I never was able to reach to my horizons & find what was needed.
I was only familiar to the grip of your arms holding my wings down.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 8:19 PM UTC
he traced his finger tips down my wrist as
he read my cuts in braille
"help"
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 8:58 PM UTC
I'm caught in between with what I wish
& what I know
its not about you anymore
I wanted to lose myself to love
I found that **** in you
I hope you find whatever your heart really wants
more so, what it needs
I learned that its important to know the difference within these two...
I've lost parts of me that I can't ******* recognize, but through my loss I've managed to harden my heart
When the heart is open, love starts to fall out on everything
I'll let it hurt till I can't hurt anymore
Sep 1, 2018
Sep 1, 2018 at 11:12 PM UTC
I hate the person that I've turned into.
getting high & tripping out,
staying up most nights stuck thinkin' about you
when I close my eyes I can feel your touch, a burning sensation
added along with your lips, everything we did became a beautiful creation
but you left, huh...
so cry me a ******* river yeah? cause your lips will forever taste the same. every girl that will come by will know how the tip of your tongue is imprinted with my name
& it ***** because my heart is forever yours, within' your love I felt like every wound of mine was cured
I let you go, you told me "maybe someday" we'll cross paths.
& for you I waited everyday
since falling in love with you felt like a reason to stay
but now every other day that passes by I don't feel the same
I'm the demon whose trying so hard to be this pure angelic girl, but deep down inside I know I'm forever stuck in my little dark world.
At a party at 2 in the morning
These demons, they keep telling me I'm not ******* enough
burning up my lungs with **** and crying off my makeup
inside my heart I've long known I've given up.
just yesterday I learned that my favorite feeling is feeling numb
broken and petrified, I told you I hate the person I've become.
now every time I drink, I can taste your name inside my ***
but I can't blame you, you tried your best to be with this ****** up person.
yet, in the end I'm so mad since I wish we could just work and for now, all I can really say is a simple & plain thank you. I give you my kindest regards even though I want hate you.
I hate how you left and the look you last gave me in your eyes. I can see that white flag, waving high that you were done and I'm here being the bad guy. Cause in the ******* end, I felt like you were the one.
but you left me here alone hating the person that I've become.
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 1:22 AM UTC
There's no such thing as forever
if anything there's always a never
Tell me what do you think?
you can't even open up to me
without dousing yourself away on a couple of drinks
Tell me it's me that you need
Tell me that it's me keeping you up on your feet
you shrug it off and just stated how we couldn't be
But I know we could do better
Am I that naive?
maybe blinded by the bliss and the pleasure
you whisper in my ear that you wanted to be apart of me
even when all you ever do is walk all over me
one more drink & you're drowning
you can hear my heart pounding
you're lost into delusion
I find myself lost in your eyes
falling for you with your reckless heart
and you only love me just for one night
I've always have,
been,
and ever will
be stuck on forever
if anything
you remind me that it'll always be never
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 3:13 AM UTC
It's funny how someone who made you the happiest,
can also make you the saddest.
Cliché, but it's true.
I've loved you through hell
But **** it felt like heaven.
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 11:13 AM UTC