my father always told me
that the phone works both ways
but when I called for days
I wouldn’t even get a text
not sure why I adored him
he was such a ******* wreck
and when I treated him coldly
my mom was the one at blame
it is kind of draining
he is the worse part of my dna
how could he ever expect me
to just magically forget
now he walks down the street
beer in hand with crocked steps
nothing has changed
for the past 20 years
he is so ******* pathetic
and he doesn’t even know
he walks just right past me
like I’m someone that he had never known
Sep 9, 2025
Sep 9, 2025 at 5:08 PM UTC
How am I still standing?
After all those horrid years...
I just can't stop resenting me,
And it's been going on for years...
My blood glows in a glory,
The metalic smell so fresh...
If nothing ever stops me...
I will sabotage myself to death.
Not every ending has a story,
And that's something that won't change.
I just hope that when I'm gone,
My story will be said...
It makes me feel uncanny...
How am I alive?
Did I just stopped screaming?
Or did they bury me alive?
Feb 2, 2025
Feb 2, 2025 at 4:42 PM UTC
This feeling of disgust
I can 't shake it off
Every look into the mirror
Hurts me even more
The tears are coming through
My makeup is now ruined
Is it me or is it you?
My reflection stares confused
This feeling isn't new
But I thought that I've got used
I'm stuck in this loop
Any hope is of no use
Dec 12, 2024
Dec 12, 2024 at 8:05 PM UTC
We're walking by the lake
Hand in hand
Freezing to death
Cuddled up on the bench
Looking into each others eyes
Saing that we're in love
With tears in our eyes
We kissed while the weight dropped from our shoulders
I thought I may be dreaming
But your lips brought me down to earth
Was love always this easy?
Or are we just meant to be?
Yes,I think that's it
We've come a long way to be here
And I'm thankful that we finally did
I'm not going anywhere
Give us few more years
And I won't be strolling down the lake
But down the aisle with bouquet in my hands
Dec 11, 2024
Dec 11, 2024 at 5:01 PM UTC
My dreams are turning dark
There is no way to come back
I'm ready to give up
The Reaper waits with open arms
They don't care to see the signs
I was always in the back
My whole life I've felt left out
By the ones I cared about
Now I'm digging my own grave
It gets deeper every day
Every tear that I've had shed
Carved a river in my head
I swim in them every night
Like a fish without a thought
It is easier to go back
Then to move on with my life
Nov 20, 2024
Nov 20, 2024 at 8:35 PM UTC
I can't even explain it
I've run out of words
It's the way you make me feel
I couldn't ask for more
Everytime you look at me
You can see right trough
The mask that I have on
It's of no use,when I'm with you
You make me feel so calm
I'm not loosing control
I'm finally at home
And I don't feel all alone
Nov 4, 2024
Nov 4, 2024 at 5:28 PM UTC
I'm lost
In the depths of my mind
I feel so lonely
Even with people by my side
I don't feel support
My life is falling apart
The choices that I've made
Make me lose my mind
You say you understand
And yet you can't say that you're proud
You can't comprehend
The things that I'm going through right now
It's hard to believe
Any of the words that come out of your mouth
I need you to say that It's going to be fine
And that I still have time
To figure all of this out
Nov 4, 2024
Nov 4, 2024 at 5:16 AM UTC
What is love?
It was everlasting question in my head...
But when I looked into your eyes
I knew the answer right away
My heart is filled with void
When you're so far away
I would give up my soul
To be with you everyday
The stars can not compare
To the blinding light you shine
When you're in front of me
I have to close my eyes
And only if I could
Give you everything you crave
Believe me that I would
And I promise that I will
Nov 2, 2024
Nov 2, 2024 at 12:15 PM UTC
Your skin
On mine
White wine
One lie
Time flies
Oh wow
Don't make me regret it now
Too late
For talks
Just kiss
Don't ask
Move closer
And touch
Our time has finally come
Oct 15, 2024
Oct 15, 2024 at 2:59 PM UTC
I get mad that easily
That I think I may be sick
My head is pulsing quickly
And I can hear my heart so clear
My legs are getting squizzly
I'm gonna start to scream
I can feel the rage
That's built up under my skin
My eyes are getting wet
My nails digged into my palms
I'm trying to hold back
So I won't regret those words
I'm keep trying to be calm
But my mouth is filled with swarm
A swarm of all the words
That I was keeping in my heart
I tried to be the wise one
Never told you I had issues
But when you said those lies out loud
My fists were close to being loose
I would pull your ******* heart out
And wait for it to stop
Then put it just right back up
And hope that you get lost
Oct 12, 2024
Oct 12, 2024 at 10:19 PM UTC